Why do you feel like you'd never be able to go through with it? What kind of plans have you made? I hope you find a reliable plan in your travels that puts you at ease. Don't feel bad about wanting to do it for years and not going through with it - sometimes it takes decades. It's okay to not be ready yet. I think a part of being ready is being happy and laughing at the prospect of it. It took me quite some time to get to that point.
Why do you feel like you'd never be able to go through with it? What kind of plans have you made? I hope you find a reliable plan in your travels that puts you at ease. Don't feel bad about wanting to do it for years and not going through with it - sometimes it takes decades. It's okay to not be ready yet. I think a part of being ready is being happy and laughing at the prospect of it. It took me quite some time to get to that point.
ig part of me is scared that it'll be a failed attempt. I've thought of multiple plans (like drinking bleach, using a noose, overdosing, etc) but in the end i chicken out of it. I'm a huge coward lol. Also thank you. I'm hoping I find a reliable plan that puts me at ease as well