Ever feel uncomfortable just by living

[MiMif]

Just at the thought of living I can't explain it.

At random moments when I'm having fun , eating, talking with friends, going to bed, doing homework, I just have a weird almost panic attack feeling at the thought of living.

It's not even a direct thought it's more like a feelings. It gets hard to breath and my chest tightens and I feel like I shouldn't be alive and nothing is real.

It's a hard thing to explain but I hate it.

 

[divinemistress36]

Everything about life gives me anxiety

 

[courtingthereaper]

100% experienced this a lot in the past, and the few people I told about it thought it was very strange. Even the fact that I had hands freaked me out immensely. Dissociation/depersonalization maybe?

 

[MiMif]

100% experienced this a lot in the past, and the few people I told about it thought it was very strange. Even the fact that I had hands freaked me out immensely. Dissociation/depersonalization maybe?

Glad it's not just me. I've been feeling it for a while but it's been getting worse and it's unbearable I don't know what to do with myself.

 

[courtingthereaper]

Glad it's not just me. I've been feeling it for a while but it's been getting worse and it's unbearable I don't know what to do with myself.

I'm trying to think about what helped mine dissipate. Ketamine maybe? Existence is absurd, so your feelings are extremely valid IMO. I guess just seeing everything as futile and meaningless helped me relax into it and have a little more fun? But I'm still on SaSu so I have no idea. If anything else comes to mind I'll let you know. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way — it's awful! Hugs!

 

[sserafim]

Life itself bothers me. Existence for me is an unwanted annoyance and hindrance. Life is just so boring and meaningless. I know this may sound bizzare but I wish that I didn't have to physically exist, I wish that I could have been an AI or something. I hate having a physical/biological body and all of the biological functions that it entails. Sometimes I feel like a prisoner trapped in a flesh prison/meat suit. I also detest having to complete the mundane tasks/chores required of life.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

All the time. Life itself makes me uncomfortable and is something that I don't want and never did

 

[matt1968]

Yes me too.
Has felt like being trapped in life - often with people you don't want to be trapped with including myself!

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

I have felt anxious about life itself for many years - and now that my worst nightmares are becoming true, even more like that. All I want now is ctb to stop all this.

 

[onbekend]

Yes. Everyday. I don't even know entirely why. And yeah, I know exactly what you are referring to, with the feeling of my throat and body tightening at the thought of continuing my life. I feel a sense of anxiety that I am existing but also a sense of boredom that I am living.

 

[Kit1]

I dissociate a lot - and the last few days, have been in more of a dissociative state than most days. And right now, I am typing this and feel like I am watching myself do this - depersonalisation. Do feel out of the world, away from reality. Mind you, this probably keeps the pain numbed when it gets extreme and that is helpful - though that journey between numbness and the feelings being thawed is awful.