imtrying
Member
- Apr 29, 2022
- 56
I’m not sure if I’m just crazy but right now I just want some “good enough” reason to ctb. I don’t really have the words to elaborate.
Jrmull1993
Warlock
- Jul 13, 2022
- 762
@imtrying
Someone actually started this thread already, it can be found here:
Someone actually started this thread already, it can be found here:
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...g-it-will-tip-them-over-the-edge.96370/unread
Suicidebydeath
No chances to be happy - my life in turmoil
- Nov 25, 2021
- 1,443
The reason are there and fit perfectly the concept of rational suicide, for me. ( deteriorating health and pain rendering me useless).
The thing that I need is high anger/adrenaline towards this life ( my fate, those that led me to this trauma) to do the rational thing. Seems paradoxical. But it is not.
The thing that I need is high anger/adrenaline towards this life ( my fate, those that led me to this trauma) to do the rational thing. Seems paradoxical. But it is not.
imtrying
Member
- Apr 29, 2022
- 56
Everlong
One last chance to turn it around
- Sep 7, 2022
- 105
It seems that is how I get most motivation these days. It’s how I manage my relationships also. I’ve always seemed to push loved ones to find where the boundaries are. Kinda like, “Do you really love me as much as you say you do?” I push until no reasonable person could tolerate it then, “Yep. I knew you didn’t.” Confirmation bias of a negative bent.
I did, but then it happened. Now I feel backed into a corner and see no way out. I miss not being backed into a corner.
FuneralCry
She dreams of eternal sleep
- Sep 24, 2020
- 22,880
I think that wanting things to get worse is understandable if you have a reliable method plan and the thing holding you back is the SI, as this would make it easier to actually go through with ctb. But if you don’t have a method then to me the thought of life getting worse is horrifying.
GreyCTB
Member
- Aug 26, 2022
- 96
I think being pushed over the edge would be horrible way to go. But it's nice for practicality. I plan on going out tomorrow and I can already feel SI kicking in. I even feel guilty about CTB for the first time ever now. Like you can think rationally about ctb until you're actually about to do it, then it becomes an uphill battle where you have to pull tons of motivation out of yourself
Totally relate. I'm planning for 4 days time. Not sure I can go through with it but feel pushed into it.
We all have came a long way to a rational suicide; i think what is meant by something 'to push you off the edge' is to have that impulse, that energy to just do the act.
Someone on this forum said we make suicide a rocket science.
We do because we are rational, not impulsive.
Someone on this forum said we make suicide a rocket science.
We do because we are rational, not impulsive.
I have made a rational decision long enough. My decisions are not by any means impulsive in fact living is impulsive to me do it when you don't want it. But lack of successful method and support from some one hold me back. I don't even want to live the next day.