emotional eating

[starrvingstar]

i hate the emotional eating that comes with trying to make myself feel better when im depressed or have had a rough day.

if im stressed ill binge eat and if im depressed even if its about my body ill binge eat. its so miserable but i have been decent at avoiding the urges lately.

 

[tams]

Eating can be really comforting. But the only part about it that is comforting, is the eating itself. Not the guilt you feel after. I struggle big time with binge eating. I've been trying to play the tape through lately and realize how bad I feel after I it. Seems to help sometimes. I question is though, cause if I'm just gonna ctb, I might as well indulge.

 

[starrvingstar]

Eating can be really comforting. But the only part about it that is comforting, is the eating itself. Not the guilt you feel after. I struggle big time with binge eating. I've been trying to play the tape through lately and realize how bad I feel after I it. Seems to help sometimes. I question is though, cause if I'm just gonna ctb, I might as well indulge.

you should find a balance, eat enough during the day so you dont binge at night, eat balanced meals multiple times a day so youre not restricting your hunger, indulge in cravings, portion control etc. to avoid that awful guilt. you deserve a enjoyable and healthy relationship with food even if youre going to ctb! recognize that you arent reslly hungry, distance yourself from the kitchen take a shower when you have an urge i hope you can regulate the binging soon.

 

[SVEN]

I try forcing myself to make a protein drink (mostly just can't be arsed, so I finish up gobbling even more empty kcals) then just make a pot of coffee and try to only allow myself to drink that without eating.

 

[tams]

you should find a balance, eat enough during the day so you dont binge at night, eat balanced meals multiple times a day so youre not restricting your hunger, indulge in cravings, portion control etc. to avoid that awful guilt. you deserve a enjoyable and healthy relationship with food even if youre going to ctb! recognize that you arent reslly hungry, distance yourself from the kitchen take a shower when you have an urge i hope you can regulate the binging soon.

Thank you. I hope you find balance too. Even if I am gonna ctb, I wanna feel better while I am still here.

 

[Haruka]

Hi, as a person with an ED (specifically anorexia nervosa), please don't feel bad about binges. I restrict myself so much when I am able to and I hate my body so so much, I wish I could be a pretty tiny little girl again. It's so hard, and it's so hard to not want to rot away after eating what you like, but do not feel bad about it all the time please. I understand how hard it is, but please, take it from me. Here if you need to talk

 

[starrvingstar]

Hi, as a person with an ED (specifically anorexia nervosa), please don't feel bad about binges. I restrict myself so much when I am able to and I hate my body so so much, I wish I could be a pretty tiny little girl again. It's so hard, and it's so hard to not want to rot away after eating what you like, but do not feel bad about it all the time please. I understand how hard it is, but please, take it from me. Here if you need to talk

i finally broke my month long binge cycle and am easing myself back into restriction, i hope to be very tiny very shortly.

 

[qwerty1969]

Thank you. I hope you find balance too. Even if I am gonna ctb, I wanna feel better while I am still here.

Not trying to be silly or anything but I understand what you are saying and my question/thought is go for it as in eat absolutely anything and everything if you are going to CTB because why not?!

 

[starrvingstar]

Not trying to be silly or anything but I understand what you are saying and my question/thought is go for it as in eat absolutely anything and everything if you are going to CTB because why not?!

for looks and self confidence i guess

 

[tams]

Not trying to be silly or anything but I understand what you are saying and my question/thought is go for it as in eat absolutely anything and everything if you are going to CTB because why not?!

Because like I said, I feel like shit after I do it.

 

[starrvingstar]

Because like I said, I feel like shit after I do it.

its a physical and mental feeling of fullness and regret/disgust honestly its a bad cycle

 

[tams]

its a physical and mental feeling of fullness and regret/disgust honestly its a bad cycle

Exactly. I feel bad enough most of the time anyways. Binge eating helps me escape that, but at the cost of feeling like shit for a long time after, all for a few moments of pleasure.

 

[Haruka]

i finally broke my month long binge cycle and am easing myself back into restriction, i hope to be very tiny very shortly.

Of course, I hope to be the same very very soon too.

 

[starrvingstar]

Of course, I hope to be the same very very soon too.

you got this i promise, it took forever but so did i.

 

[voc_89]

Of course, I hope to be the same very very soon too.

its a bad cycle. And something I did alot. Used to eat ALOT of junk food alongside energy drinks (maybe 4 -6 a day... for months on end). I was at 196 pounds start of this year (think my BMI was 30. Was at 161 pounds Sunday gone as I made the effort to stop doing that. To gym and diet. Since Sunday (car accident... sigh) I went back to my bad habits though. Drinking a ton of energy drinks (to shift my mood) and junk food. Probably at 170 now lol. I get its rough especially when something throws you off and sends u back to your 'comfort zone'. However, don't stay there. Especially if you have plans to improve yourself. I know I don't intend to and hope to go back in the gym tomorrow (though I have to fight up with public transport now.... urgh). I also intend to do little things to force me to maintain my weight loss like buying alot of work clothes that are 2 - 3 sizes smaller than what I wear now in August/Septmeber.

 

[starrvingstar]

its a bad cycle. And something I did alot. Used to eat ALOT of junk food alongside energy drinks (maybe 4 -6 a day... for months on end). I was at 196 pounds start of this year (think my BMI was 30. Was at 161 pounds Sunday gone as I made the effort to stop doing that. To gym and diet. Since Sunday (car accident... sigh) I went back to my bad habits though. Drinking a ton of energy drinks (to shift my mood) and junk food. Probably at 170 now lol. I get its rough especially when something throws you off and sends u back to your 'comfort zone'. However, don't stay there. Especially if you have plans to improve yourself. I know I don't intend to and hope to go back in the gym tomorrow (though I have to fight up with public transport now.... urgh). I also intend to do little things to force me to maintain my weight loss like buying alot of work clothes that are 2 - 3 sizes smaller than what I wear now in August/Septmeber.

im sorry about the car accident it sounds like it really affected you and i hope things lighten up soon. keep trying to keep your meals balanced! im really happy youre forcing yourself to keep up with good habits, its been hard for me to go to the gym this past week and ive been forcing myself up. binge eating food only give us a moment of temporary happiness that makes us feel worse than before.

 

[voc_89]

the incident itself didn't affect me. But the fact that every single time something good in life happens for me (I just got promoted 3 months ago) some nonsense comes about to destroy my self-confidence and belief that my life is on the up (car insurance can go any way... you re-imbursed or u left to fry). Not for the first time these events happen (another example, a few months after being confirmed as a permanent member of staff at my job, my long-term gf who had insomnia who I thought was meant for me was cheating on me with someone I considered to be one of my 'good friends'). Kinda makes me dread good things happening for me. Which is a sucky way to live life. Sigh. I will get through. But its just disheartening. Thanks for showing support. I really appreciate it. Gym is frustrating but I also use it as an avenue to vent my frustration lol. To get the boost to push heavy weights. I also know that getting into and maintaining good shape will give me a significant boost in self-confidence. And i think thats real important for individuals like us. I hope you able to continue doing it as I would really like all of us to have a fulfilling life.

 

[Haruka]

you got this i promise, it took forever but so did i.

Thank you so much, I hope so for you too.