etoilecupid
Member
- Apr 14, 2024
- 15
i kinda have an eating disorder I'm "recovering" from, but i really dont want to recover from it. i can stop eating for days but it's natural SI to eat food when you're starving like that. i always feel really guilty about it after too, and i just wanna stop eating and drinking and just disappear, but i obviously can't just do that. it's too difficult to. all my friends say I'm relatively skinny, but i never feel skinny. i always feel like im gaining weight by the second. i would throw up the food i eat but throwing up has always left a bad taste in my mouth so I haven't done it, but i am considering it. im gonna try to not eat anything today, and hopefully i can maintain a streak so i can notice weight loss or something
