destroyer

destroyer

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Mar 13, 2022
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i hate it so much. i've lost interest in everything i used to love and appreciate. all i care about is the number on the scale and it's so frustrating. i want to read, paint, anything but i don't have the energy for it. i'm so tired of it
 
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RiverFlow

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Jul 14, 2023
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Me too... I am back in it big time
 
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Beepvonboop

Eepy
Jul 14, 2023
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Some part of me still romanticizes it. It really really sucks
 
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befree

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Time to do more enjoyable things _____Goodbye_____
Mar 22, 2022
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May I ask what kind of eating disorder it is to better understand your situation ?
 
FuneralCry

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It does sound tiring and dreadful having to suffer like that, existence really is too cruel. But anyway best wishes.
 
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Haruka

Haruka

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Mar 24, 2023
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I have anorexia, it kills you. I've had it on and off for over three years now. It's been falling back on my lately and I've lost more weight again. It eats you up and it makes you feel so selfish. They're so evil, I'm sorry you have to deal with this.
 
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Sweet Tart

Sweet Tart

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May 10, 2023
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EDs are so much harder to live with than most people realize.
 
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destroyer

destroyer

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I have anorexia, it kills you. I've had it on and off for over three years now. It's been falling back on my lately and I've lost more weight again. It eats you up and it makes you feel so selfish. They're so evil, I'm sorry you have to deal with this.
i'm sorry i hope you can finally get out of it.

yeah totally agree. one careless word from a family member or friend makes it worse. it feels like it will always be with me.
 
Haruka

Haruka

the most beautiful angel
Mar 24, 2023
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i'm sorry i hope you can finally get out of it.

yeah totally agree. one careless word from a family member or friend makes it worse. it feels like it will always be with me.
Thank you, it's hard but it just takes over your whole life.

I very much agree. My family members are extremely careless when talking to me about my body and food, and it really hurts. I hope you don't have to deal with it forever, it's extremely draining.
 
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Fulminare

Fulminare

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Feb 20, 2022
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I struggle with it too hun :( It started out as healthy IF but I have the tendency to go above and beyond and now I'm stuck with an ed. It's addicting.
 
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destroyer

destroyer

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Thank you, it's hard but it just takes over your whole life.

I very much agree. My family members are extremely careless when talking to me about my body and food, and it really hurts. I hope you don't have to deal with it forever, it's extremely draining.
thank you for your kind words. yes, i understand. my mom used to have ed and as a child when i asked her why she didn't eat she always said it was to be thin and beautiful. now i think that if i am not thin enough i am not beautiful to me but at the same time i think people of a different weight are beautiful. it's too complicated, i hope we can all get over it.
Are you undergoing treatment, if I may ask ?
Maybe this general information will help you:
thanks for the information. no i haven't asked for help because i don't think I've reached my goal yet
I struggle with it too hun :( It started out as healthy IF but I have the tendency to go above and beyond and now I'm stuck with an ed. It's addicting.
yeah i have the same thing. i'm sorry to hear that i hope you get through it
 
Haruka

Haruka

the most beautiful angel
Mar 24, 2023
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thank you for your kind words. yes, i understand. my mom used to have ed and as a child when i asked her why she didn't eat she always said it was to be thin and beautiful. now i think that if i am not thin enough i am not beautiful to me but at the same time i think people of a different weight are beautiful. it's too complicated, i hope we can all get over it.
I agree very much. I feel the same; if I'm not thin, I'm ugly and the whole world hates me even more, and I am sorry to hear about your Mum. I hope our brains stop being so faulty and will let us live more healthily.
 

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