Early goodbye.

[watereyes]

Frens,

Been debating for a long time whether to do a goodbye thread or not. I wrote numerous ones, decided not to post them because I wasnt sure about my decision. My suicidal frustration has led me to decide to finally do it, I can't say when, because I know you're watching.
Changing my mind is unlikely, although something (my family) fucking it up could still happen. So dont raise your hopes too much if you hate me.

I will make another thread once I'm ready, sharing livestream username.

I wont really ramble about my life, because I'm not good with words. All I wanna say is that I hate my father for ruining my death. When I was ready to attempt with SN he called the cops, they insulted me, put me in handcuffs, and sent me to the ward, where I got sexually harassed for being transgender.
What have I done with my life aside from bitching? Not much. Fixed a bunch of TVs that are much older than me. thats it.



(Now thats just lame)

 

[Tomoko]

Wishing you safe travels to the void. Hope you find peace wherever you end up whether in life or death. I'll be thinking about you next time I tinker with tubes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have had to go through all that. I wish you peace if this is what you decide to do.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

All I wanna say is that I hate my father for ruining my death. When I was ready to attempt with SN he called the cops, they insulted me, put me in handcuffs, and sent me to the ward, where I got sexually harassed for being transgender.

It infuriates me that people who don't have the resources--including the emotional disposition--to be GREAT parents can still become parents. That's WAAAAAAAAAY too large a responsibility to leave up to the average person. I have to qualify to take out a small loan at a bank, but I can create on a whim another being who can suffer for up to a century.

Sorry for your pain. :(

 

[watereyes]

It infuriates me that people who don't have the resources--including the emotional disposition--to be GREAT parents can still become parents. That's WAAAAAAAAAY too large a responsibility to leave up to the average person. I have to qualify to take out a small loan at a bank, but I can create on a whim another being who can suffer for up to a century.

Sorry for your pain. :(

Oh he did his best to be the best dad. The issue is that I'm the worst daughter.

 

[sadpinky]

.

 

[watereyes]

.

yes?

 

[_Minsk]

I am sorry that you have to suffer so much:c, I hope You will find the best decision for you, Sending many hugs watereyes

 

[Bone]

being put in cuffs by cops when already suicidal...my experiences also with law enforcement/mental health professionals traumatized me, and the traumatic experiences I had earlier played into later episodes, sort of a snowball effect.

I suppose...your dad is doing the only (shitty) thing he knows to do, when in reality, compassion would work infinitely better. Between all that and the harassment you received, it sounds like you've been through so much, and I'm sorry to hear it's been so difficult for you. I myself am at my wit's end and don't know how much longer I can keep pushing. I hope you have peaceful moments and people, especially your dad, lay tf off you. <3

 

[chocolatebar]

So sorry to see you go...
Unfortunately, we never had the chance to talk, but I will remember you.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Cuffs happened to me once...in Feb...from my asshole live-in partner calling them cuz I was pissed about finances and reality and really said what I thought about his dumb ass.

I try and block it out. But I can't forget it. He charged 700 to my account for a 4th big screen TV and in the hospital for 23 hrs I was given Benadryl and had to listen to an old dr talk about his retirement and watch nurses sit on their asses and type...what I don't fucking know.

I distract myself with other traumas....but this one was real fucking shitty.

Sorry it really sucks. That's awful that you were sexually harrassed at the hospital. What a pile of utter shit they are.

 

[watereyes]

So sorry to see you go...
Unfortunately, we never had the chance to talk, but I will remember you.

More's the pity. People get annoyed pretty soon of my constant bitching.

 

[posec]

I wish you well, I'm so sorry you went through all of those things, nobody deserves that. Good luck

 

[watereyes]

I wish you well, I'm so sorry you went through all of those things, nobody deserves that. Good luck

thank you so much, lots of hugs. <3

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

Best of luck mate.

 

[watereyes]

Cuffs happened to me once...in Feb...from my asshole live-in partner calling them cuz I was pissed about finances and reality and really said what I thought about his dumb ass.

I try and block it out. But I can't forget it. He charged 700 to my account for a 4th big screen TV and in the hospital for 23 hrs I was given Benadryl and had to listen to an old dr talk about his retirement and watch nurses sit on their asses and type...what I don't fucking know.

I distract myself with other traumas....but this one was real fucking shitty.

Sorry it really sucks. That's awful that you were sexually harrassed at the hospital. What a pile of utter shit they are.

This.

 

[Lost Magic]

Take care.

 

[watereyes]

Take care.
View attachment 72276

Lovely picture. Lots of hugs.

 

[sadpinky]

Can I pm? I'm sorry you're going on though it, I'm in the same positions I'd like to say. Safe travels

 

[watereyes]

Can I pm? I'm sorry you're going on though it, I'm in the same positions I'd like to say. Safe travels

yeah feel free to pm me.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

I wish you a swift passing and the peace you want and deserve.

 

[aminend]

Can I ask whats ur method?

 

[Lost Magic]

I found that turning off the tv with the goodbye message on it oddly poetic btw.