dying alone in a hotel room :(

[sadgirl9999]

i really wanted somebody by my side, even online, but i know encouragement isn't allowed on here and that makes sense. plus i decided i'm not bringing my phone to the room anyways. it's going to be me, alcohol, a door and a rope. alone. all alone if i ever go through with it. what if i don't? i've had this account for three years. i'm 23.
it hurts. everything hurts.

 

[waitingforrest]

I feel that I will die alone as well. I know that when I ctb, I will have to do it alone. Lived alone and going to die alone I guess.

It's stressful for me to try to actually be successful at ctb, the thought of not having anyone in my final moments scares me to be honest.

Whatever happens, I hope that you find some peace from all the pain. Life is painful and sometimes too much to bear. It's okay if you can't seem to overcome SI, I have had more than my fair share of backing out.

 

[S like Siren]

it hurts. everything hurts.

I feel it,i feel this so much

 

[FuneralCry]

I am sorry that you are suffering so much. This life is so depressing and painful. I wish that we lived in a world where euthanasia is legalised and then people would not have to die alone if that was what they wanted. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Niirvana]

I would like to die with someone to hold me until the last minute, but it's illegal

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

it hurts. everything hurts.

This got me crying... I also hurt. I wish we could all live lives free of pain. I hope you find peace, whatever happens.

 

[Chasing Sleep]

Currently struggling with a similar situation, so I completely understand this pain. No one deserves to be alone ):

I'm sending you love and prayers. If you need someone to talk to, my PMs are open, okay?