Venting Drunk!

[toxicjester]

I've been drinking tonight!!! I got kicked out tonight!!!! Oh my god nothing feels real!!! Maybe my hell is that I never die!!

 

[Pale_Rider]

I was going to say lucky you till I seen the result. Sorry to hear that part. I quit drinking a few months back. As they sat liqure is quicker!

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I'm sorry... I hope things turn around for you, for the better.

 

[toxicjester]

I was going to say lucky you till I seen the result. Sorry to hear that part. I quit drinking a few months back. As they sat liqure is quicker!

Yea but I haven't been able to be unsober like that for a long time part of it felt good, I was really hoping I'd drank enough to get alcohol poisoning and suppress my breathing so that I wouldn't wake up but I guess there's always tonight

I'm sorry... I hope things turn around for you, for the better.

You're sweet but the only way it turns around is if I turn my fucking head right onto the barrel of a gun

I've been drinking tonight!!! I got kicked out tonight!!!! Oh my god nothing feels real!!! Maybe my hell is that I never die!!

I forgot about posting this I really had hoped I didn't do anything public I'm so sorry y'all

 

[toxicjester]

I don't know why I got so bad about her
She's literally perfect
She's got the whole world in her eyes
She's so beautiful
Oh my god I love her so much

 

[ibewguy]

Op, I feel your pain in my core. I drink, almost to play the long game. If I decide not to CTB spontaneously, the drinking will take care of it. The way I see it, it will feel good the entire time until it doesn't. But I don't really care about it not feeling good. Because I dont think it could feel worse than my heartbreak.

 

[toxicjester]

Op, I feel your pain in my core. I drink, almost to play the long game. If I decide not to CTB spontaneously, the drinking will take care of it. The way I see it, it will feel good the entire time until it doesn't. But I don't really care about it not feeling good. Because I dont think it could feel worse than my heartbreak.

I feel this in my core

I will drink and smoke to not feel until it kills me
Until I can finally stop feeling so much all the time
Until I can breathe
Until I stop

 

[SaintJosifStalin]

try mdma lol

 

[toxicjester]

try mdma lol

Why mdma specifically? I'm not opposed to taking whatever fucking drugs I can get my hands on, but the problem is getting my hands on them in the first place

 

[SaintJosifStalin]

Healing with Entactogens – Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies – MAPS

maps.org

Honestly it can induce super healing experiences, it can help you process a lot of trauma super fast if you use it in the right setting. It can also enhance empathy and help you connect with people close to you which might improve your emotional state after the effects wear off. I used to go to a lot of raves when I was a teenager but now if I use it I listen to classical or religious music, maybe read a book. Cuddle up with a warm blanket. Sing songs lol. Connect with my inner child

Best to wait a couple months between doses, shouldn't use it every day the way some people use alcohol or it could lose some of its healing powers

 

[Hotsackage]

i drink daily cause its fun, sorry bout your troubles. i dont recommend drinking daily

 

[toxicjester]

Healing with Entactogens – Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies – MAPS

maps.org

Honestly it can induce super healing experiences, it can help you process a lot of trauma super fast if you use it in the right setting. It can also enhance empathy and help you connect with people close to you which might improve your emotional state after the effects wear off. I used to go to a lot of raves when I was a teenager but now if I use it I listen to classical or religious music, maybe read a book. Cuddle up with a warm blanket. Sing songs lol. Connect with my inner child

Best to wait a couple months between doses, shouldn't use it every day the way some people use alcohol or it could lose some of its healing powers

Thank you for this, I really would like to try this, just gotta find someone who sells in the middle of bumfuck nowhere lol

i drink daily cause its fun, sorry bout your troubles. i dont recommend drinking daily

When I'm not upset drinking is still fun!! And that's fair I know on average it's Not Good but oh well lol