Rose190021

Rose190021

Rosie
Dec 13, 2018
71
Does anyone get high or drink and feel so good in the moment but your still questioning suicide in the back of your mind. It's almost a funny idea. Then the thoughts get worse when your coming down from your "high?" Does drinking or doing drugs make you feel better or worse?
 
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Ruffian

Ruffian

Jumpin Jack Flash, it’s a gas gas gas
Jan 16, 2019
696
Better in the moment, but worse in the long run I'd say.
 
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uiop

uiop

Fun drugs make me happy
Mar 27, 2019
218
Does anyone get high or drink and feel so good in the moment but your still questioning suicide in the back of your mind. It's almost a funny idea. Then the thoughts get worse when your coming down from your "high?" Does drinking or doing drugs make you feel better or worse?
I'm all about the drugs. It helps fill the empty void inside me, making ne feel good. What's your DOC?
 
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CoolGuy9

CoolGuy9

Mage
Mar 5, 2019
524
I don't drink, but I feel like if I did, I would turn into an alcoholic pretty fast.
 
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Walilamdzi

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Mar 21, 2019
1,700
Not really, nothing makes me feel good. I've had a glass of whiskey twice the past week, to try and relax a little, but it didn't help. I've never had a positive experience from drugs.
 
myrtaryniel

myrtaryniel

Member
Mar 28, 2019
74
I spend most of my day smoking weed and high on anxyolitics, and lately it's all I do because I can't bear to be 100% conscious all the time. I have suicidal thoughts all the time but weed makes me chill (which alcohol does not, that's why I barely drink except in very desperate times) and it makes me able to think about it without feeling so much like shit. I guess to some level it encourages the fantasy too. That's the fucked up thing, it prevents me from doing it at specific times but also makes me wanna do it even more because I know they're fucking up my life.
 
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Sick Boy

Sick Boy

Student
Oct 19, 2018
186
Everytime i take clonazepam all my depression and anxiety goes away,i feel happy and i feel peaceful,my suicidal thoughts go away
but at the nex day i want to ctb again
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
I stopped smoking weed for like 5 months now, but I realize its not helping either, so I smoke a little yesterday...
the idea to ctb seemed so overwelming, incredible how far I've got... damm
I didnt wanted to smoke weed , but hell,,,, im thinking of killing myself, what the hell some weed?
 
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Dead beat dad

Dead beat dad

Enlightened
Mar 5, 2019
1,030
Worse worse worse.
I've been to some awful places with drugs, but I was always thinking about suicide before they were on the scene.
For me the suicidal thoughts will always play on your mind no matter what you're under the influence of, just drugs in the right amount can take the edge off. Ironic in a way.
For me being drunk cranks up the feeling of wanting to CTB enormously and I avoid that stuff like the plague (also even in small amounts makes me fall asleep in ridiculous places).
Peace
DBD
 
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Gina

Gina

Unknown
Sep 2, 2018
53
Does anyone get high or drink and feel so good in the moment but your still questioning suicide in the back of your mind. It's almost a funny idea. Then the thoughts get worse when your coming down from your "high?" Does drinking or doing drugs make you feel better or worse?
TBH drugs made me so damn depressed, It contributed to my depression.I wish I never started smoking, but we can't go back in time.I like to drink, but I binge drink.
 
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Broken

Paragon
Dec 7, 2018
930
Better in the moment, but worse in the long run I'd say.
I'd agree with this. Haha if only I could bottle that confidence you get whilst on cocaine I wouldn't be depressed.
 
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HelpPlease

Psych ward
Sep 9, 2018
188
Drugs destroyed me
 
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Psilo

Arcanist
Dec 29, 2018
482
I'm thinking about maybe getting high on Datura, this would definitely make me in the mood of killing me. Datura trips are intense, and can kill if ODed, but the dark side of it is kinda appealing to me.
 
Xaphous

Xaphous

hikikomori
Nov 11, 2018
550
I had a psilocybin trip the other day, I've had them many times before and it was great but this was a bad and depressing trip. Saw demonic fly things in my mind, then when they were gone the visions were just lame and shit in general. All I could think was I wish I was never born over and over. Done nothing for depression.
 
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SadGirl

SadGirl

Specialist
Mar 24, 2019
348
Does anyone get high or drink and feel so good in the moment but your still questioning suicide in the back of your mind. It's almost a funny idea. Then the thoughts get worse when your coming down from your "high?" Does drinking or doing drugs make you feel better or worse?
Sometimes it's good for me, sometimes it's bad, it's a shot in the dark.
 
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secoma

Member
Mar 16, 2019
36
Does anyknow know which benzos and what amount of them can make us fall "unconsious", not just asleep. Unconsiousness I want to fall into.
 
Feline

Feline

I am Purity, they call me Perverted.
Jan 24, 2019
61
I love Weed and MDMA.
 
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uiop

uiop

Fun drugs make me happy
Mar 27, 2019
218
Does anyknow know which benzos and what amount of them can make us fall "unconsious", not just asleep. Unconsiousness I want to fall into.
If you're trying to OD on benzos, it'll be difficult, if not impossible. For Xanax, I believe you'll need 1,000x pills of 1mg. Not worth it IMO.
I love Weed and MDMA.
ECSTASY!!!!!! They were so good back in 2008, all because of the cuts. The pills these days just makes me lethargic.
 
valentine

valentine

Student
Apr 2, 2019
101
Drinking is the only thing that stops me from thinking about suicide, honestly. It makes me feel genuinely happy. Benzos are pretty great too since I have such severe anxiety, but unless I take a lot I still think about suicide.
 
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FauxEmotions

FauxEmotions

Tod durch das Seil
Mar 28, 2019
194
I smoke marijuana everyday and it doesn't help nor do damage... just stops my brain.... which I guess I could make an argument as helping. Being that it doesnt do anything to combat my brain though I say it's neutral. As far as psychedelics, I've always used them as a palette cleanser. I've never been this "dark" before though so I'm scared to try psychedelics. My baseline before has always been search for the Light/good in things so psychedelics were awesome to reset. Now, my baseline is so dark I think the psychedelics would just drag me further into the darkness.
 
RainAndSadness

RainAndSadness

Administrator
Jun 12, 2018
2,135
I'd agree with this. Haha if only I could bottle that confidence you get whilst on cocaine I wouldn't be depressed.

Coke makes me feel so good about everything I even feel euphoric towards death. No joke.
 

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