My life was filled with nothing but hate bordered on neglect of family members. There was favoritism growing up and thus affected my idea on what someone was supposed to be. I was the constant hated person for being different. I'm Autistic. No one virtually likes me aside from close friends who are just required at this rate to be kind for me and beg me not to go.
I have several issues with making friends because I've had never gotten along with people around my age group and I'm socially awkward. I've been used by my peers and only seen as the weird or smart kid. In high school someone asked me to prom and never showed up. A bunch of mean girls bullied me for it. Dude apologized but after that I left the school. I dropped out due to feeling unwelcomed.
My Mom blames me for not taking chances but I'm unable to. I'm held to the same standards as a regular kid and I'm only 20. I'm suffering from memory loss issues and just today I got yelled at for forgetting to put food back in the microwave. My amenisa is bad and no one even takes it seriously. I literally forgot to eat today until my stomach reminds me. I'm just done I feel blank like my icon. I can't find the courage to do anything anymore let alone try and kill myself. I'm just destined to be lonely.
I have several issues with making friends because I've had never gotten along with people around my age group and I'm socially awkward. I've been used by my peers and only seen as the weird or smart kid. In high school someone asked me to prom and never showed up. A bunch of mean girls bullied me for it. Dude apologized but after that I left the school. I dropped out due to feeling unwelcomed.
My Mom blames me for not taking chances but I'm unable to. I'm held to the same standards as a regular kid and I'm only 20. I'm suffering from memory loss issues and just today I got yelled at for forgetting to put food back in the microwave. My amenisa is bad and no one even takes it seriously. I literally forgot to eat today until my stomach reminds me. I'm just done I feel blank like my icon. I can't find the courage to do anything anymore let alone try and kill myself. I'm just destined to be lonely.
