MeowTheFlemishCat
"The snake that cannot shed its skin perishes"
- Mar 3, 2023
- 265
I feel so much familiarity with this place that it's hard to just let go y'know.
ppoyyx
Life goes on but mine not lol
- May 9, 2023
- 18
I feel exactly the same way. Even if i dont come here often, if it were to shut down one day i would feel so hopeless
MeowTheFlemishCat
"The snake that cannot shed its skin perishes"
- Mar 3, 2023
- 265
hopelessoceanic25
Agony.
- Nov 29, 2023
- 68
Yeah, I relate with this on some level. I think about finally getting eternal peace when I do manage to fkn summon up the courage to CTB, but then I think about my pets, even my mother who I'd be leaving behind. There's a twisted sense of comfort in this cruel world, it might be because we know what the world is like. We don't know what happens after we CTB. For all we know, we could end up in an even worse situation.
I'd say no but then, I surprised myself once that I was scared going in for an operation. There was only a small chance I would die but there was still something upetting about saying goobye to my Dad before I went in- in case it was the last time. I'm like that every time I have to say goodbye though (we live hundreds of miles apart and don't see each other that often.) I think that bit was just my problems with saying goodbye and death in general. Still- I also felt scared- which I didn't understand because I was suicidal then too. I think it was because I didn't have my affairs in order though.
I guess I just think- as soon as we're dead- that's it. No more feeling anything. So- there won't be regrets after that. (Hopefully.) Sometimes I think there are still places I want to go and see but then I think- does it really matter? Maybe a quick exit will be better when the time comes for me.
I try to convince myself that death isn't a big deal. People do it every second of every day. Most of my family have already done it in fact. I already have lots of nice memories. The ones I make now probably won't be quite as nice because most of the people I loved to make them with are already gone. So for me- when my time comes (when my Dad has passed on) I doubt there will be much holding me here.
I guess I just think- as soon as we're dead- that's it. No more feeling anything. So- there won't be regrets after that. (Hopefully.) Sometimes I think there are still places I want to go and see but then I think- does it really matter? Maybe a quick exit will be better when the time comes for me.
I try to convince myself that death isn't a big deal. People do it every second of every day. Most of my family have already done it in fact. I already have lots of nice memories. The ones I make now probably won't be quite as nice because most of the people I loved to make them with are already gone. So for me- when my time comes (when my Dad has passed on) I doubt there will be much holding me here.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,920
No, the thought of being eternally free from this existence is all that comforts me. Existence is nothing more than an endless cycle of harm and suffering that so tragically continues to repeat as new life is brought here, I see ceasing to exist as being a positive thing as after all, only the existing are capable of suffering, not the dead.
兎の耳
The ghost of a girl who never lived.
- Aug 3, 2023
- 134
The world is filled with so much pain but there's also a lot of beauty. While realistically I know I won't miss it because I'll be dead, I have a hard time accepting that I've experienced my last sunset or hugged my cat for the same time. I'm sad that I'll never get to experience snow or or the feeling of just being held and being safe in someone's arms. I'm disappointed I'll never get to travel to Japan and pass the JLPT.
There's so much I want to do and see and experience but at the same time there's so much pain and sadness and emptiness that I don't think I can hold on much longer. So, yes, I understand the sentiment.
LaVieEnRose
Angelic
- Jul 23, 2022
- 4,251
I have yet to draw a "haha" react out of @Pluto . I suppose that is one attachment I have to life as far as this forum is concerned.
MeowTheFlemishCat
"The snake that cannot shed its skin perishes"
- Mar 3, 2023
- 265
3 of my closest family members had died before I was 10. Cancer and heart attack. More have died since. All natural deaths but- it still hurts. I'm at the point where more people I loved are dead than alive- so- there's little keeping me here.
nymphojuno
girlfail (he/him)
- Nov 30, 2023
- 25
absolutely, i'm mortified of leaving the ones i love behind, and the thought of never hearing my favorite bands again makes me sad.
Whenever I came closer to CTB thinking whether I should do it now or not I feel a kind of FOMO of life what I could miss out although there's nothing really to miss out.
hellispink
poisonous
- May 26, 2022
- 1,231
No at all. I am not scared of missing out anything. This world is repetitive. Humans betraying each other hurting going to war, slaves, the rich getting richer, injustices countless abuse everywhere. The world doesnt stop or changes because we leave or not. It just keeps rotating useless and boring. Yeah there are beautiful scenery such as the sun the water things like nature. But i already got to experience those. Material things dont matter to me . And i am not the type of person who would allow all this suffering just to have "little" maybe 1% good moment and then 99% else all bad. Not worth it. Cant wait to get t f out here.
ppoyyx
Life goes on but mine not lol
- May 9, 2023
- 18
My bad i misread the title because of "this familiar place", this site was the first thing that came in mind ^^'
This world doesn't feel familiar and is all i want to escape, being honest.
Actually it's not the world itself, because i lowkey still wanna enjoy the beautiful things the nature brings to us. But humanity and society is just despicable for so many reasons.
Missing out would be the least of my concern unless it causes pain/problems to the few ones i love
greatgooglymoogly
Member
- Dec 1, 2023
- 79
I do. There's a lot of sentiment on here about hating the world and others, which I understand, but I don't really have that. I just hate myself. In my situation I do believe I am the selfish one for wanting to CTB and I often do think about all the beauty there is to experience in the world. But then I think about how I would probably never be able to see much of it anyways with the circumstances that are leading me to do this.
glossble
homesick ⭒
- Apr 14, 2023
- 85
I'm more afraid of this world/reality, I never feel like I belong anywhere in this world so I don't feel like I'll be losing anything (◍ ´꒳` ◍)b
But we're all going to die anyway, so sooner or later we'll have to leave, and I'd rather leave on my own terms ❣
But we're all going to die anyway, so sooner or later we'll have to leave, and I'd rather leave on my own terms ❣
Oathkeeper
Member
- Nov 1, 2023
- 65
I'm far more scared of the horrible things that will inevitably happen to me like they always do, than I am of the vague possibility of missing out on anything worthwhile.
Kundalini Guy
FULLY RECOVERED
- Mar 27, 2023
- 516
Aim
🤍
- Sep 12, 2023
- 945
Nothing's scares me, makes me as comfy or as lonely as thinking about taking my own life. It's so many emotions tied up to it. But at the same time, it will be insane to keep staying alive as well at this point. I really freaking hope I can fiend the strength to stay rational when the day soon hopefully comes! And that my plan works out!
