Don't want to be found...

[Spiny Lobster]

When I decide to CTB, I'd hate for anyone to find me. I don't want to be the cause of someone's trauma -- I just want to end my own. I understand that realistically, choosing to die will hurt countless people in my life. But I have to stop and consider my own needs. I may hurt others, but what about myself, who is also hurting? Is there anything I can do to be at peace with as little collateral damage as possible?

If you were to CTB, where would you do it? Is there an ideal place to go to in the event you don't want to be found?

 

[rt1989526]

I have no choice but to do it in my apartment and likely a cop will find me after a wellness check. Atleast cops are trained to deal with shit like that. I don't want a random hotel employee or Samaritan to find me.

 

[cazwiz]

I intend to set up a timed email to inform a friend who had a lot of experience in dealing with death and trauma. He has a mountaineering and emergency response background. He would be upset that it is me, but he accustomed to corpses and the most capable of coping. I also think it is a kindness to inform someone in good time of your death so that decay has not set in, and so they know what to expect when they come to find you. My friend's husband took his life in a garage during a heatwave. He was found 4 days later by 2 young boys who were just trying out doors for luck. I dread to think what a shock they must have had.

 

[Captive of Mind]

I have no choice but to do it in my apartment and likely a cop will find me after a wellness check. Atleast cops are trained to deal with shit like that. I don't want a random hotel employee or Samaritan to find me.

I think bigger hotel companies are trained for that sort of thing. But if you don't want anyone to find you at all, your best bet would be to go deep into the woods. Wildlife will take care of everything and it will be the most natural way to go about it.

 

[rt1989526]

I think bigger hotel companies are trained for that sort of thing. But if you don't want anyone to find you at all, your best bet would be to go deep into the woods. Wildlife will take care of everything and it will be the most natural way to go about it.

Outdoors not ideal for the SN setup. Need to have glasses and a scale and all that shit.

 

[Anonymoussn]

He was found 4 days later by 2 young boys who were just trying out doors for luck. I dread to think what a shock they must have had.

Serves them bloody well right! Shouldn't have been snooping round someone else's property!

 

[cazwiz]

Serves them bloody well right! Shouldn't have been snooping round someone else's property!

They're young. Kids are inquisitive, and who can truly say they never made any bad choices at that age? I don't think anyone deserves that shock.

 

[Captive of Mind]

Outdoors not ideal for the SN setup. Need to have glasses and a scale and all that shit.

You could use closed bottles instead of glasses and carry everything in a backpack. Right?

 

[rt1989526]

You could use closed bottles instead of glasses and carry everything in a backpack. Right?

I could I guess. I'm pretty keen on just dying on my couch though. Where are you gonna do it? Assuming you're doing SN too

 

[cazwiz]

You could use closed bottles instead of glasses and carry everything in a backpack. Right?

I bought little tubs for pre-measuring and transporting so I have everything to hand ready to mix for a lovely outdoor sunset view over my favourite valley

 

[Captive of Mind]

I could I guess. I'm pretty keen on just dying on my couch though. Where are you gonna do it? Assuming you're doing SN too

I know what you mean. I want people to know what happened so I'm planning on being discovered. If I didn't want to be discovered, being deep in the woods would be ideal. I don't want anyone to try to save me so I'm apprehensive about doing it at home. I'm thinking about going to a hotel so there is no way for someone to interrupt it. I was thinking about doing it in my car at a remote location but there is too much of a chance of someone trying to save me or no one finding me for a long time and then my corpse rots in the car. I don't want that!

I bought little tubs for pre-measuring and transporting so I have everything to hand ready to mix for a lovely outdoor sunset view over my favourite valley

Damn, that sounds so nice.. I almost want to say screw it and go out in nature like you are.

 

[Spiny Lobster]

I am getting really tired of fighting it. Going to a forest sounds like a good idea, but I don't want to get tracked somehow on my way there. Plus, my stubby legs can't take me far anyway.

Are there places, I wonder, that are closer than you may think, yet still out of reach for others who may look for you?

Ugh, obviously it would have been better to never have been born, just to spare everyone around me of my life and the trauma of ending it.

 

[bigdog]

Life is shit

 

[Spiny Lobster]

What's the best place to hang yourself from if you don't want to be found? A tree in the previously-mentioned forest? I was thinking from a bridge, but then I'd be found... Maybe not by my family, but by someone else. I'd rather not traumatize others if I don't have to.

 

[anxivoid]

I know what you mean. I want people to know what happened so I'm planning on being discovered. If I didn't want to be discovered, being deep in the woods would be ideal. I don't want anyone to try to save me so I'm apprehensive about doing it at home. I'm thinking about going to a hotel so there is no way for someone to interrupt it. I was thinking about doing it in my car at a remote location but there is too much of a chance of someone trying to save me or no one finding me for a long time and then my corpse rots in the car. I don't want that!

Damn, that sounds so nice.. I almost want to say screw it and go out in nature like you are.

I think about it too, but guys, what about transportation of the body by your relatives after death? And it may take a very long time before you are found. It's all terrible. But it seems I have no other options.

 

[Captive of Mind]

I think about it too, but guys, what about transportation of the body by your relatives after death? And it may take a very long time before you are found. It's all terrible. But it seems I have no other options.

Nature will be doing the clean up! But that is assuming you have a deep enough woods to not be discovered.

 

[anxivoid]

Nature will be doing the clean up! But that is assuming you have a deep enough woods to not be discovered.

You mean...
Oh no, I don't know, sounds awful. There is romance in dying in nature. But not that your body will never be found, or that someone will find a skeleton..

 

[ward0x]

I intend to set up a timed email to inform a friend who had a lot of experience in dealing with death and trauma. He has a mountaineering and emergency response background. He would be upset that it is me, but he accustomed to corpses and the most capable of coping. I also think it is a kindness to inform someone in good time of your death so that decay has not set in, and so they know what to expect when they come to find you. My friend's husband took his life in a garage during a heatwave. He was found 4 days later by 2 young boys who were just trying out doors for luck. I dread to think what a shock they must have had.

I don't care how well equipped any of my friends are to deal with something like that, I would never do that to them.

first responders are trained to deal with it & it'll be a heck of a lot easier for them than any friend.

 

[Captive of Mind]

You mean...
Oh no, I don't know, sounds awful. There is romance in dying in nature. But not that your body will never be found, or that someone will find a skeleton..

I wouldn't care if someone found the skeleton, I just wouldn't want someone to see a rotten corpse. But maybe it would be better for someone to discover our corpse soon after death, before it rots. It is more difficult to plan that one out and would likely traumatize someone but it's a lose lose situation. Not being caught is most important. If I choose a hotel, how do I know someone won't call the front desk if they hear me throwing up or making all sorts of noise? If I choose home, I should have a window where no one is here because they are at work, but what if they come back early and smell throw up and come in my room?

 

[anxivoid]

I wouldn't care if someone found the skeleton, I just wouldn't want someone to see a rotten corpse. But maybe it would be better for someone to discover our corpse soon after death, before it rots. It is more difficult to plan that one out and would likely traumatize someone but it's a lose lose situation. Not being caught is most important. If I choose a hotel, how do I know someone won't call the front desk if they hear me throwing up or making all sorts of noise? If I choose home, I should have a window where no one is here because they are at work, but what if they come back early and smell throw up and come in my room?

Well, the same problems, fren.

 

[Spiny Lobster]

You mean...
Oh no, I don't know, sounds awful. There is romance in dying in nature. But not that your body will never be found, or that someone will find a skeleton..

I would think that a skeleton would be less traumatizing than an actively rotting corpse, right?

 

[anxivoid]

I would think that a skeleton would be less traumatizing than an actively rotting corpse, right?

But it can happen too. Even more likely.

 

[Spiny Lobster]

But it can happen too. Even more likely.

If you don't mind me asking, what motivates you to CTB if you are concerned about people finding you? Is it something you unfortunately accept, or is there another reason? I ask because I'm also worried about other people, but I'm in too much pain to think straight.

 

[anxivoid]

If you don't mind me asking, what motivates you to CTB if you are concerned about people finding you? Is it something you unfortunately accept, or is there another reason? I ask because I'm also worried about other people, but I'm in too much pain to think straight.

Well, fear of living on, fear of any problems, self-loathing, aversion to life itself -- these are the main reasons why I want to do this.
But of course I concern about other people, actually about my relatives. It will be a terrible picture. They didn't deserve it. Well..some of them.

 

[cazwiz]

I don't care how well equipped any of my friends are to deal with something like that, I would never do that to them.

first responders are trained to deal with it & it'll be a heck of a lot easier for them than any friend.

how do you suppose a first responder would have been informed to find your body though?