Venting dont know what todo anymore

[v0wkeeper]

this is my first post on here so im sorry if this feels like a thread thats been repeated over and over again i just need to vent somewhere.

if im being honest, i never felt like i belonged anywhere even in subjects im particularly interested in and if im interested in said subject theres always someone better than me even if i've been doing it for far longer than them and it just makes me question myself, am i even good enough in this area and should continue anymore. not even that i just feel like useless everyday and instead of getting productive things done i just oversleep or rot in my bed, i see my friends doing better than me and im happy for them but is it even worth to continue living if im just a waste of space. i genuinely feel like a nobody around my family and friends.

idk man, i want a quick option but at the same time i want to live forever, does anyone else feel the same too? or is it just me.

 

[hiding the roses]

i feel the same. ive lost all motivation, and i am a burden on my family. i sit in bed all day, losing focus and cant keep up with hygiene lol

heres to hoping something can happen for us both soon. maybe ctb maybe something lucky

 

[PainThreshold]

I can be into some hobby for a long time and yet my skill will still be below a beginner who just got started out, other people seems to be learning faster than I am.