Help Don't know what to do

[theskyisred]

I just turned 45.

I lost my gf of 6 years.
I lost my job.
I lost my mother last month.
I lost my car

I lost everything

...I'm 'healthy' ((physically anyways)) but I am so lost. I have no friends. I sleep most of the day. Starting over ((again)) scares me.

I cant even call a hotline because in 'two percent' of the times they call the cops.

Last thing on EARTH I need is a case right now.

I have no one to talk to.

I'm sure there are MANY people that have it 'so much worse'....I came to this site to try to rationally figure my s#/+ out.

I dont even know if that's possible. I don't want to be a taco bell wage cuck at 11./hr

I feel so alone

I feel like God has abandoned me

...I dont even know why I'm posting this.

I dont even know why it matters


Anyways...

 

[UKscotty]

Recovery or CTB - we are here without judgement. Welcome.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be dreadful what you are going through, it's very cruel how existing can very easily get much worse. But anyway best wishes in whatever happens.