Venting "Don't kill yourself, it gets better."

[UninformedLover]

Heard that all my life and these people fucking lied so bad. It actually got progressively worse and worse. I wish I could just go back in time and just punch them in the face for lying.
How foolish and naive was I that I actually believed them too. Now everyday is just a test to see how much more awful my life can get.

 

[overmorrow]

it never gets better, you only get more used to the circumstances. It's easier, but not better, no

 

[ummagumma]

it may get better. or it may stay the same. or it may get even worse

and the sad truth is that you cant know with certanty what really awaits you. you can only make guesses (based on your life)

but the saddest truth is that it gets progressively worse more often. since positive changes require a lot of effort, suitable circumstances, help of others and luck. it wont be better just because

 

[Fadenself00]

always remember that they have the same amount of knowledge about existential questions that you do as well..
many people think in so simple, self-lying ways - i think you should value yourself a lot more for the wisdom you have, being in this situation.

 

[Macedonian1987]

Sometimes this is indeed true, for young people.
For me it's getting worse with each passing year. My body's health issues are piling up with each passing year.

 

[soul2realm]

Sometimes this is indeed true, for young people.
For me it's getting worse with each passing year. My body's health issues are piling up with each passing year.

Hang in there. I understand, somewhat in a similar situation.

 

[Macedonian1987]

Hang in there. I understand, somewhat in a similar situation.

I plan on hanging for a few months more. I just cannot live anymore with pain and on top if it all being all alone... utterly alone due to my asperger's :(
I hang on for 38 years... I guess this is some sort of achievement, to survive 38 years without any friends and no love life at all.

 

[Captive_Mind515]

The moment they think you're contemplating throwing the towel in, they act like they can solve all of your problems... but once the "crisis" moment has passed, they act like you're the problem. Stopping people from quitting this life, is about protecting the collective from some kind of suicide contagion. It's not about helping the individual. Allowing us to quit, would open a door... and force society to face some uncomfortable truths about this life. But they much prefer to continue living in denial about the true nature of this existence.

 

[soul2realm]

I plan on hanging for a few months more. I just cannot live anymore with pain and on top if it all being all alone... utterly alone due to my asperger's :(
I hang on for 38 years... I guess this is some sort of achievement, to survive 38 years without any friends and no love life at all.

It must have been devastating, I'm sure. Life is often cruel that way. Please take care of yourself and feel free to talk anytime you feel like it.

 

[Duochrome-Seahorse]

life getting better will never be guaranteed. It's literally a gamble if fate wants you to be happy or not, even if you work your ass off. It was rigged from the start. I hate when people say it gets better but they don't tell you that life getting better is up to circumstance or luck.

 

[yotaka]

Heard that all my life and these people fucking lied so bad. It actually got progressively worse and worse. I wish I could just go back in time and just punch them in the face for lying.
How foolish and naive was I that I actually believed them too. Now everyday is just a test to see how much more awful my life can get.

It is incredibly frustrating. There's definitely a bias there, like, "Life has gotten better for me, therefore it will get better for you." In my mind, it's the same idea as rich people saying, "I made millions of dollars, therefore anybody can."

I plan on hanging for a few months more. I just cannot live anymore with pain and on top if it all being all alone... utterly alone due to my asperger's :(
I hang on for 38 years... I guess this is some sort of achievement, to survive 38 years without any friends and no love life at all.

You have done amazingly, friend

 

[Macedonian1987]

Don't kill yourself, it gets better.... was first said to me way back in 2003 when I was just 16 years old. I said to myself back then: maybe they're right. I'm young, healthy and I have my whole life ahead of me. Even back then I was friendless and avoided by any woman because of my Asperger's (back then the desire for me wanting to have a girlfriend was still existent)

Fast forward to 2026. I am and was friendless all these years without a single real relationship behind me with a woman. On top of it all, my depression is worse, my sensory overload is much worse, and health issues.... boy do I have them (I didn't had any of them in 2003)

For me it got much much worse. That's why I plan on checking out in the summer of 2026. I have every single item needed for my SN protocol. Just waiting for the date to come.

 

[lawlietsph]

after 17 years of being awfully suicidal and mentally ill, i can confirm that it never gets better. you get 1-2 days when you don't feel like absolute shit, and that's all. it gets worse and worse every single minute.

 

[elenaboo25]

For me, it tends to get better and then it gets worse again and then I hate myself even more for believing that it could get better and stay better. It never does. So now I'm actually trying not to get better.

 

[Jun123]

Honestly I wish I would have ctb'ed long ago, because then I wouldn't have to feel how I feel right now