Doing myself in tonight

[Lara Francis]

Sounds really terrible, I'm sorry u feel like u have to do this :(" this morning I balled my eyes out over my abortions and planning to do the same soon just not by hanging. Anyway, I'm sorry that you are struggling so bad that life is so bad for you and u hate yourself. I hope it is painless, secretly hope u won't do it, but if u do. Wishing u a easy passing and the world will miss u

Hugs to you final escape x

 

[21Neberg]

Hanging is extremely hard. I hope you muster up the courage, but if you don't we're always here for you.

 

[HelensNepenthe]

Rest easy.

 

[wanttodie]

May you find your peace.

 

[lizinha]

Rest well.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

May you find your peace.

 

[123die]

May you find peace

 

[KatieW]

Any word on @ShadowOfTheDay ?

 

[couragetodie]

how sad it is that for those of us who can't live on that we must hide here anonymously to support one another. Shadow seemed a kind soul and I hope he is in peace now.

 

[seekingoblivion]

I'm sorry life brought you to this point mate. I wish you peace. I know that feeling of waking up and realizing your life still sucks everyday. I'm sorry.

 

[Jake.123]

Any word on @ShadowOfTheDay ?

I think he made it

 

[Meretlein]

I think he made it

Either that or he's in a psych ward. Hopefully he made it.

 

[KatieW]

Hope he made it. Happy n envious of him.

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

Well, I screwed it up, yet again. Lol. I tied my belt to the hinge of a door. And, seconds after losing consciousness, I found myself on the bathroom floor. It took me awhile to figure out what had happened, and where I was. When I stood up, I noticed a golf ball-sized contusion on my forehead, which has since turned into a black eye. I guess I must have banged my head on the bathroom sink when my belt broke. I'm giving up on this method. Thank you all for the well-wishes. One of these days, I'll make it.

 

[End.of.the.line]

Well, I screwed it up, yet again. Lol. I tied my belt to the hinge of a door. And, seconds after losing consciousness, I found myself on the bathroom floor. It took me awhile to figure out what had happened, and where I was. When I stood up, I noticed a golf ball-sized contusion on my forehead, which has since turned into a black eye. I guess I must have banged my head on the bathroom sink when my belt broke. I'm giving up on this method. Thank you all for the well-wishes. One of these days, I'll make it.

It's all good buddy. There's no shame in failing. Ctb ain't easy and you went further then most. How are you feeling today knowing you was so close to being dead?

 

[meaningisgone]

Well, I screwed it up, yet again. Lol. I tied my belt to the hinge of a door. And, seconds after losing consciousness, I found myself on the bathroom floor. It took me awhile to figure out what had happened, and where I was. When I stood up, I noticed a golf ball-sized contusion on my forehead, which has since turned into a black eye. I guess I must have banged my head on the bathroom sink when my belt broke. I'm giving up on this method. Thank you all for the well-wishes. One of these days, I'll make it.

Such weird emotions I experience on these forums, ya know? One minute I am happy for you for taking that final step, the next minute I am happy that you survived. Being human is complicated. Anyway, nice to see you again.

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

It's all good buddy. There's no shame in failing. Ctb ain't easy and you went further then most. How are you feeling today knowing you was so close to being dead?

Thanks, man. Honestly, I would have thought that I would feel ashamed for having failed. There is simply no more room in my head for embarrassment, though. My head is already too full of other emotions (e.g. self-loathing, remorse, etc.).

 

[Macc Lad]

Well, I screwed it up, yet again. Lol. I tied my belt to the hinge of a door. And, seconds after losing consciousness, I found myself on the bathroom floor. It took me awhile to figure out what had happened, and where I was. When I stood up, I noticed a golf ball-sized contusion on my forehead, which has since turned into a black eye. I guess I must have banged my head on the bathroom sink when my belt broke. I'm giving up on this method. Thank you all for the well-wishes. One of these days, I'll make it.

take it easy mate!

 

[Kingkelly]

Why is it so hard to fucking die

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

Why is it so hard to fucking die

I KNOW, right? It's all I ever wanted. Chances are, when my time comes, I won't want to leave.

 

[meaningisgone]

I KNOW, right? It's all I ever wanted. Chances are, when my time comes, I won't want to leave.

Yeah, I've played a scenario in my head where I take irreversible action to end my own life and before I die, I come to some epiphany or realization or whatnot that makes me realize I want to live.

 

[Kingkelly]

I KNOW, right? It's all I ever wanted. Chances are, when my time comes, I won't want to leave.

Ya its fucked. Don't rush your time but mine is up. It literally takes so much to ctb. The body is only resilient when it wants to be. Its fucked

 

[snowman626]

I KNOW, right? It's all I ever wanted. Chances are, when my time comes, I won't want to leave.

This universe likes to play games. when you need something the most that's when you're least likely to get it, but when you no longer need it thats when it show up in abundance.

You survived, but at least you didn't become a vegetable or anything..

 

[Kingkelly]

Od doesn't work. Sn might work but I can't be sure. Dont wanna end up vegetable. Too much chicken to hang myself

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Glad to have you back, @ShadowOfTheDay

 

[SeekingSolace]

Glad to see you back here! Thank you for updating us, it is much appreciated.

 

[Chlo]

I KNOW, right? It's all I ever wanted. Chances are, when my time comes, I won't want to leave.

Oh I'm stoked you're back actually though we haven't talked. You seem rad.

 

[Funkbunny]

I'm so sorry things didn't work out as planned, such a lot to go through but I'm glad you came back to let us all know. Genuinely hope you're doing OK.

 

[felix]

Hanging is extremely hard. I hope you muster up the courage, but if you don't we're always here for you.

Took me years with a rope before I finally attempted

 

[Redt2go]

I KNOW, right? It's all I ever wanted. Chances are, when my time comes, I won't want to leave.

It really be like that