Doing it tonight. Let's hope I'm out.

[NoPlaceForme]

Hello everyone. I made a thread yesterday briefly stating that I would be doing it today. I figured I will just make this new thread and edit it as the day goes on.

It is now the morning and It's sad to say but I've never been happier or more excited. I truly am waiting for my peace tonight. I can't wait for tonight, I'm pretty calm but I still have to leave my house. My family thinks I'm staying with a friend. So there is still some anxiety but I've been running through my thoughts and I know what I'll feel when I'm actually alone. And I'll be honest, many times stuff just feels surreal and I can barely focus on things.

I will be leaving in about 2 hours after posting this. I have all of my stuff together placed in a backpack. I'll say I'm heading out and take my stuff and will be using public transportation and smoking outside for a couple hours until around 2 when I'm going to get a ride to my hotel. I'll be writing my note and sending a delayed text message to my best friend. I know I probably have a lot more to say but I haven't left yet but I just have to head out and I wanted to make an update just to say where I am at. Everything feeling surreal and not yet being there it's hard to say everything. I will edit this during each big step and will make a final edit late at night when everything is truly set up. I only hope it can help someone out there to see what it might be like to do this.

I'll also detail the plan more when I finally leave. It is on the other thread if anyone wants to see what it is right now.

Edit: hello again. It's around 1 and I'm currently on my bus heading to the station. Have everything with me.

 

[NoPlaceForme]

How old are you?

Above the legal adult age. why?

 

[NoPlaceForme]

That's not a valid answer.

Why do you wanna kill yourself?

How is it "not a valid answer" I dont have to tell you exactly how old I am. I'm an adult but I'd rather not disclose my actual age. I wanna stay as invisible as possible. And my reasons for suicide are far beyond what I can explain in this comment. This is my goodbye thread.

 

[Heavy]

How is it "not a valid answer" I dont have to tell you exactly how old I am. I'm an adult but I'd rather not disclose my actual age. I wanna stay as invisible as possible. And my reasons for suicide are far beyond what I can explain in this comment.

Then why are you creating this thread if you dont wanna answer any questions?

 

[Anonymoussn]

I hope you find the peace you're looking for. Remember that there is no shame in backing out, and we are all here for you if there is anything you want to talk about!

Then why are you creating this thread if you dont wanna answer any questions?

Many possible reasons. They might want someone to talk to in their final hours. They might want to document the process. They might want to say goodbye.

If they dont want to answer specific questions, leave them be.

 

[NoPlaceForme]

Then why are you creating this thread if you dont wanna answer any questions?

Honestly I apologize if it came off that way. I'm willing to answer questions I just think that the age question is something that can bring a lot of commotion into a thread which is why I chose to answer it partially. I might change my mind later but how I feel right now I wanted to at least give you a response. And not wanting to answer a certain question doesn't mean I'm opposed to all questions...

 

[aminend]

I hope peaceful journey for u. Keep us updated as much as possible

 

[Yoffi]

sorry that life has brought you to such an end, hope it goes smoothly.

Then why are you creating this thread if you dont wanna answer any questions?

maybe because you're being a cunt about it.

 

[Saed]

I may breach some of @GoodPersonEffed caveats,here,but,yeah...don't harangue them.
Try to put yourself in their shoes.
@NoPlaceForme say whatever you like,love.
You're under no obligation to "perform a ctb".
Vent as much as you like.
We'll listen,and try somehow to offer support,no matter what.
Nothing is set in stone.
Smoke those fags! Calm your mind.
There's no pressure to do anything coming from here.

 

[x-Ace-x]

May the happiness and love surround you in your final moments

 

[CarbonMonoxide]

sorry that life has brought you to such an end, hope it goes smoothly.


maybe because you're being a cunt about it.

This user tends to be unnecessarily confrontational. This thread should be about supporting the op, not antagonizing them further.

Hello everyone. I made a thread yesterday briefly stating that I would be doing it today. I figured I will just make this new thread and edit it as the day goes on.

It is now the morning and It's sad to say but I've never been happier or more excited. I truly am waiting for my peace tonight. I can't wait for tonight, I'm pretty calm but I still have to leave my house. My family thinks I'm staying with a friend. So there is still some anxiety but I've been running through my thoughts and I know what I'll feel when I'm actually alone. And I'll be honest, many times stuff just feels surreal and I can barely focus on things.

I will be leaving in about 2 hours after posting this. I have all of my stuff together placed in a backpack. I'll say I'm heading out and take my stuff and will be using public transportation and smoking outside for a couple hours until around 2 when I'm going to get a ride to my hotel. I'll be writing my note and sending a delayed text message to my best friend. I know I probably have a lot more to say but I haven't left yet but I just have to head out and I wanted to make an update just to say where I am at. Everything feeling surreal and not yet being there it's hard to say everything. I will edit this during each big step and will make a final edit late at night when everything is truly set up. I only hope it can help someone out there to see what it might be like to do this.

I'll also detail the plan more when I finally leave. It is on the other thread if anyone wants to see what it is right now.

This takes a lot of courage. It's a decision I've been unable to make so far. I wish you all the best as you search for peace. If you change your mind, we'll still be here for you.

 

[NoPlaceForme]

I may breach some of @GoodPersonEffed caveats,here,but,yeah...don't harangue them.
Try to put yourself in their shoes.
@NoPlaceForme say whatever you like,love.
You're under no obligation to "perform a ctb".
Vent as much as you like.
We'll listen,and try somehow to offer support,no matter what.
Nothing is set in stone.
Smoke those fags! Calm your mind.
There's no pressure to do anything coming from here.

Thank you so much

I hope peaceful journey for u. Keep us updated as much as possible

Thank you. Will do.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I may breach some of @GoodPersonEffed caveats,here,but,yeah...don't harangue them.
Try to put yourself in their shoes.
@NoPlaceForme say whatever you like,love.
You're under no obligation to "perform a ctb".
Vent as much as you like.
We'll listen,and try somehow to offer support,no matter what.
Nothing is set in stone.
Smoke those fags! Calm your mind.
There's no pressure to do anything coming from here.

That is a misrepresentation of anything I would caution against, and I am not a mod or in any position of official power on the forum, nor would I want such a position.

If you would be so kind, please do not attempt to speak for or represent me, either in agreement or opposition. If I am so inclined, I will speak for myself. Please also do not drag me into conversations in which I am not taking part and which are not about me. Thank you.

 

[Saed]

That is a misrepresentation of anything I would caution against.

If you would be so kind, please do not attempt to speak for or represent me, either in agreement or opposition. If I am so inclined, I will speak for myself. Please also do not drag me into conversations in which I am not taking part and which are not about me. Thank you.

Hey,I apologise. It was said with deference,because I did take on board what you said,yesterday.
You're right though...it was a breach,nonetheless and I'm truly sorry.

 

[SG999]

Whatever happens... I wish you peace and comfort.... you can come back any time here.... we will be here for you.

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

Then why are you creating this thread if you dont wanna answer any questions?

Dude relax heavy
May you be at peace today

 

[Ulisses]

thank you for the update and provide us to keep information about your ctb

 

[crybaby]

it's sad to see you go ;3 I wish you peace

 

[Saed]

How's it going love? Where are ya?
Knock knock
Welfare check

 

[NoPlaceForme]

How's it going love? Where are ya?
Knock knock
Welfare check

Heyy! Thanks for checking up. Currently just got to the bus station and I will be hanging around here until I feel it's time to uber. Everything feels surreal. Whole time thinking I can't believe it. I think back to when I was 16 and tried drinking windex and how I have now a much better option.

 

[Saed]

Heyy! Thanks for checking up. Currently just got to the bus station and I will be hanging around here until I feel it's time to uber. Everything feels surreal. Whole time thinking I can't believe it. I think back to when I was 16 and tried drinking windex and how I have now a much better option.

That's amazing. I feel surreal,too...
Had to Google Windex. For some reason,I had it in mind,it stopped farting.

 

[NoPlaceForme]

just got to the station. Everything feels surreal. I keep thinking about tonight. Everything that will happen. It's still hard to process my thoughts as the only thing I want is death and I know tomorrow I'll he gone. So standing around all I can do is use headphones and smoke while I wait for later. I just walk around and think. I've been fasting for 8 hours already as I haven't been able to bring myself to eat, I desperately just want to be gone. (Sorry I'm editing so much using this on the desktop site on a phone is actually a pain.)

That's amazing. I feel surreal,too...
Had to Google Windex. For some reason,I had it in mind,it stopped farting.

I'll make my updates in the regular comments now and do edits later it seems like it's better. I hope you dont feel surreal in a bad way. I'm wishing you the best rn in the future as I wait

That's amazing. I feel surreal,too...
Had to Google Windex. For some reason,I had it in mind,it stopped farting.

I'll make my updates in the regular comments now and do edits later it seems like it's better. I hope you dont feel surreal in a bad way. I'm wishing you the best rn in the future as I wait

 

[Saed]

Do whatever you feel like doing. Have a think,swirl it around some more. You can't do anything "wrong" at all.
Am in the graveyard. Here's a pic

 

[NoPlaceForme]

Do whatever you feel like doing. Have a think,swiril it around some more. You can't do anything "wrong" at all.
Am in the graveyard. Here's a pic

Thank you. Yeah. I'm just gonna do whatever. Just trying to get out what I feel best I can. That's a calming pic. I think I'm gonna go to a roof that's publicly accessible here but also abandoned in a way. Will be a nice smoke spot.

 

[Saed]

Beautiful ivy...
Nope. I don't feel surreal in a bad way at all.
Sounds like a plan. What about the munchies,though...
Well,shit happens,we'll see.

 

[NoPlaceForme]

Beautiful ivy...
Nope. I don't feel surreal in a bad way at all.
Sounds like a plan. What about the munchies,though...
Well,shit happens,we'll see.

Aw I love that. I really do. And I dont really get the munchies anymore. I've been smoking a lot tho. I'm used to going long periods without food and stuff so this is honestly like a norm for me.

 

[Saed]

Any sites or sights you want to see around my way? Think of something. Will send you a pic,if I find it.

 

[mem12]

Peace ....If you decide to back out it is fine too....

I'm contemplating my death everyday and these thoughts make me feel surreal...

 

[NoPlaceForme]

Beautiful ivy...
Nope. I don't feel surreal in a bad way at all.
Sounds like a plan. What about the munchies,though...
Well,shit happens,we'll see.

Aw. I love that. I really do. And I dont really get munchies anymore. High tolerance and even then I'd still fast. I'm craving peace as time goes on. My ride to the hotel is almost here and I might update with a picture of everything I have once I'm there.

Peace ....If you decide to back out it is fine too....

I'm contemplating my death everyday and these thoughts make me feel surreal...

Thanks. I appreciate that. Ill.be honest if I somehow decide to back out. But I truly feel like I've made my peace and I truly dont want to wake up to this world again. And I'm sorry you feel similar. That surreal feeling is awful.

 

[Saed]

Aw. I love that. I really do. And I dont really get munchies anymore. High tolerance and even then I'd still fast. I'm craving peace as time goes on. My ride to the hotel is almost here and I might update with a picture of everything I have once I'm there.

Alright,love.
You go radio silent if you need to.
Don't stress about updating the forums. We're all here for ya.