Does your will to ctb change based on circumstances?

[Yuki K]

for example when you get a promotion or get a partner does your will and wanting to ctb lower? or when you have a terrible day at work and feel pathetic, your will to ctb just sky rockets?

 

[trist]

the will is always there for me and it only gets higher, never lower. despite that, it's on the same level most of the time.

 

[81-Z@P@D]

Absolutely, if i got 1 million usd in my bank account for no reason i'd throw spike strips infront of the bus

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm just wishing to die every waking moment, nothing could ever make me feel that way any less as I simply despise existing and I just want to rest permanently. There is simply no benefit to existing in this cruel world and existing just doesn't appeal to me. But I would get more desperate to exit if something happened to make my existence even more torturous.

 

[itsallpointless]

our mindset is definitely dictated by our circumstances.

 

[BlackWednesday]

Yes of course. Even something as trivial as the weather can have a big impact on my outlook.

 

[hungry_ghost]

Absolutely, or it would.

If I had enough money to turn my life around, and get out of this situation, CTB wouldn't even cross my mind.

 

[Ineedtodie]

Being unemployed, chronic depression being socially ostracized and living in circumstances that makes me feel so ashamed are all booster to my will to cbt. If i stop my meds for just one day, it will be a 10/10 every second.

 

[N33dT0D13]

Definitely. Funnily enough, being here talking about wanting to ctb is making me want to ctb less. Making new friends always makes me want to ctb less, then I realize that they like me significantly less than I like them and the urge is back stronger than before I had ever met them. Money issues and simply growing older have exacerbated the feeling as well.

 

[orca87]

There might be something like endogenous depression. Feeling bad for now reason. I don't think you'll find these people here very often.

From what I read here, people have either gone through some absolutely inprocessible pain, are cursed with any kind of disability or disease that will prevent them to ever reach their dreams or have fucked up their life completely. Its mostly "rational suicides" that I read about here.

So, I guess most of us would exchange a better life for the desire to ctb. Whatever a "better life" would look like to a specific person. Or whatever the reasons are that it is totally out of reach for them.

Definitely. Funnily enough, being here talking about wanting to ctb is making me want to ctb less. Making new friends always makes me want to ctb less, then I realize that they like me significantly less than I like them and the urge is back stronger than before I had ever met them. Money issues and simply growing older have exacerbated the feeling as well.

I don't know why this isn't something talked about more often. If you're contemplating suicide 24/7 and were given the option to get a medically assisted relief any time you want, would you still contemplate? Would you feel more free and had a little chance to move on?

I guess there is a research paper by Belgian psychiatrist Lieve Thienpont who is pro choice looking into 100 cases of euthanasia for mental reasons.

If I remember correctly, out of these 100 a little bit more than 50% were granted, and some 13 or so did refer not use their option while only a few attempted by their own means because the waiting time was too long.

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

Absolutely , but there's a lot about circumstances that's out of your control

 

[N33dT0D13]

There might be something like endogenous depression. Feeling bad for now reason. I don't think you'll find these people here very often.

From what I read here, people have either gone through some absolutely inprocessible pain, are cursed with any kind of disability or disease that will prevent them to ever reach their dreams or have fucked up their life completely. Its mostly "rational suicides" that I read about here.

So, I guess most of us would exchange a better life for the desire to ctb. Whatever a "better life" would look like to a specific person. Or whatever the reasons are that it is totally out of reach for them.

I don't know why this isn't something talked about more often. If you're contemplating suicide 24/7 and were given the option to get a medically assisted relief any time you want, would you still contemplate? Would you feel more free and had a little chance to move on?

I guess there is a research paper by Belgian psychiatrist Lieve Thienpont who is pro choice looking into 100 cases of euthanasia for mental reasons.

If I remember correctly, out of these 100 a little bit more than 50% were granted, and some 13 or so did refer not use their option while only a few attempted by their own means because the waiting time was too long.

Honestly, it's hard to say for sure but I think just having the option readily available and not being stigmatized for it would help, in a weird way. There'd be less of that rationalization of "I'm crazy for wanting to die and that's one more reason I should die "

 

[orca87]

if i just have a newer car, girlfriend and a consistent 2k+ a month, and good results in the gym, things would be all chill

I don't want to sound judgemental or so, but that doesn't sound too much of an ask from life. What's keeping you?

 

[Himalayan]

Crazy right?

 

[WonderfulWeatherDIE]

If I had a lot of money and didnt have to work my miserable dead end shit job anymore then yes. I would be happy and would not want to CTB.