Discussion Does your therapist/psych know you are on here?

[eve2004]

Since being on this site, I feel a lot calmer in therapy. So after a few weeks he grilled me about my CTB thoughts, very specific questions about what chemicals/drugs I have at home, where I got them etc.

I would never mention this site although am paranoid some therapists might lurk here... I admitted to having stuff/means to die at home and denied having a plan. Which is absurb if you think about it... I spent hundreds of dollars after scouring the net, falling for scams, and learning cryptocurrency to obtain lethal substances with « no plan to use them ». Uh huh. They are obligated to ask then document so as long as you say no, you are scott free and if you do CTB, so are they.

What a fucked up system...

 

[Maravillosa]

I have been using online counseling for over a year and a half now. Yes, I told my therapist I am on SS (and SS's basic premise), but I did not tell her my username. She knows that I think often about ctb someday, but since I do not intend to do anything about it until after my mother is dead and my novel is published, she is not excessively alarmed.

 

[woxihuanni]

If I ever went to see one, I'd shut my trap about this place or suicide.

I have been using online counseling for over a year and a half now. Yes, I told my therapist I am on SS (and SS's basic premise), but I did not tell her my username. She knows that I think often about ctb someday, but since I do not intend to do anything about it until after my mother is dead and my novel is published, she is not excessively alarmed.

It's not like I can stop you, but I'd personally never, ever endanger this place for whatever reason, to whatever degree. That's one secret I have that I feel is not mine to give.

 

[TheblueBunny]

My psychiatrist is someone I have to see, I have no choice not to, unfortunately. I always lie when they do the risk assessment which is probably the only reason I'm free. I've never told anyone in the real world of my suicidal ideation, or all in all suicidality.

I would never, even if I decided to share the things mentioned, ever tell them if this site though. I don't know why, but it just doesn't sit right with me, however, that might be because I'm so used to lying about myself to the healthcare system.

 

[woxihuanni]

My psychiatrist is someone I have to see, I have no choice not to, unfortunately. I always lie when they do the risk assessment which is probably the only reason I'm free. I've never told anyone in the real world of my suicidal ideation, or all in all suicidality.

I would never, even if I decided to share the things mentioned, ever tell them if this site though. I don't know why, but it just doesn't sit right with me, however, that might be because I'm so used to lying about myself to the healthcare system.

It doesn't sit right because too much attention on this site means danger of losing the few safe(r) ways to exit. See how SN is getting more difficult to get, for instance. Or the crackdown on A. It is potentially betraying the last haven for people who are already oppressed on all sides.

 

[eve2004]

I have been using online counseling for over a year and a half now. Yes, I told my therapist I am on SS (and SS's basic premise), but I did not tell her my username. She knows that I think often about ctb someday, but since I do not intend to do anything about it until after my mother is dead and my novel is published, she is not excessively alarmed.

I had a couple of online sessions with a therapist once until he wanted me to sign a no-harm contract. I refused to sign it because I would not be signing it in good faith, and he eventually waived it and we did a last session which helped me. I was having trouble opening up to talk to my in person therapist and the online dude helped a lot, kind of like practicing but not face to face.

I still don't say much unless I'm pissed off and I vowed at first (4 years ago) not to lie but I downplay the truth and when it comes to the 1-2-3 of involuntary commitment, I'd never admit to all three. I know why they ask. So that they can write « no » in their notes to cover their ass even if they know very well you have intent, means and a plan. They are mainly looking for signs of altered mental status that might lead you to do it even if you denied everything. I've had the cops and paramedics at my place twice, been sent to the psych ward for 3 hours so I know how to get around it.of course it's logical. Deny deny deny. Unless you want to be hospitalized. Otherwise admit to intent but no for means and plan and you can maybe have a discussion that *may* help.

 

[Astral316]

My therapist is my age and very laid back... showed him SS and he was more amused than anything. He encouraged me to join a pro-life depression/suicide forum instead. My intention isn't to have assistance in life, but in death, so I declined.

 

[eve2004]

My therapist is my age and very laid back... showed him SS and he was more amused than anything. He encouraged me to join a pro-life depression/suicide forum instead. My intention isn't to have assistance in life, but in death, so I declined.

I hope we don't have the same therapist!!!! Haha mine has a laid back exterior but inside his anxiety is exploding sometimes. I can tell.

It doesn't sit right because too much attention on this site means danger of losing the few safe(r) ways to exit. See how SN is getting more difficult to get, for instance. Or the crackdown on A. It is potentially betraying the last haven for people who are already oppressed on all sides.

I tend to agree with this. Its pretty much like admitting to a means and definitely a plan. This place has calmed me down a lot. I think it does for a lot of people who are ambivalent or not ready/decided and their therapists should be thankful for this site but don't need to know about it. I also wouldn't give them sources or what you have and how you got it, darknet or clear. « Online » is good enough if they are digging hard for answers.

It would be so much easier of we could tell the truth and have a useful discussion rather than pay $ to have to lie. Some of you jave therapists who can handle the truth but most can't handle the anxiety.

 

[Dawn0071111]

Hell No. Why would anyone do that unless they want a stay in the nut house?

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

I don't have one. I cannot see past what they really are, a paid listener who tries to brainwash you into being okay with your misfortunes.

This is so true. Hence the reason why this mental health system is complete bullshit

 

[enough of this]

My psychiatrist is someone I have to see, I have no choice not to, unfortunately. I always lie when they do the risk assessment which is probably the only reason I'm free. I've never told anyone in the real world of my suicidal ideation, or all in all suicidality.

I would never, even if I decided to share the things mentioned, ever tell them if this site though. I don't know why, but it just doesn't sit right with me, however, that might be because I'm so used to lying about myself to the healthcare system.

I don't have to see my counselor, It's on an as-needed basis. But she has informed me that she's legally mandated to turn me over to authorities if I tell her I want to CTB, so I'm very careful to not mention it. That also includes my not telling her I'm on SS.
Having the authorities intervene would result in my being put in an inpatient facility and being pumped full of drugs, which would be far worse than where I am now.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

no, mostly because i dont want to risk this site being taken down and taking away the only hope or place of comfort for many people here. it would be unfair for me to slip up and put hundreds if not thousands of people in danger or at risk of an unnecessarily painful death or a failed attempt with risks of further health issues, just for me to get something off my chest. its in no way worth the risk. i also dont want to risk having my access restricted either, as i value this forum too much. i cant begin to describe how helpful being here has been in multiple ways, way more than any health care professional has been. i understand some may trust their counselors/therapists/psychs etc., but i dont, at least not to the extent of mentioning sasu to them. (no hate to anyone who does, just maybe reconsider how doing so could affect others that use this site too)

 

[yellowtin42]

no. i am curious though if they could/would do anything if i told them. i probably would if there weren't any repercussions.

 

[loyalskateboard]

Nope