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weishenme

Aut viam inveniam aut faciam
Apr 27, 2026
43
I can't wait to get SN, I'm so tired of living cs I just realized I don't got nobody and it's my fault cs im a selfish bad person.

Before I just wanted to die, but now I just realized I need to die, I deserve to die, cs im nothing but a shitty person.

I wish I wasn't so indecisive about it, cs I know I should die but a stupid part of me still wants to live, but I don't want reason to stay. I really hate that tbh.

If I ctb without benzos and instead I use ibuprofen or paracetamol, will I die with less pain?

I don't want this to hurt anymore, I'm so tired of everything, of trying and falling, of not trying and getting mad 4 not trying. I wish I wasn't here.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,981
The protocol calls for benzos, not for pain, but to relax you and combat survival instinct. The full protocol suggests both benzos and painkillers. Not sure if you were planning to take painkillers already but do not take extra to substitute for the benzos.
 
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