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happysunnydayy

happysunnydayy

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Mar 18, 2025
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stupid question but my loved one always tells me that we should travel before dying because travelling is an amazing experience and so is looking at breath taking sceneries around the world. Maybe it will change my mind. But I'm not so sure... I've travelled a little in my country but didn't really feel much different, was on the plane 2 times wishing it fell... She believes if we don't give travelling a try we might never find out what true happiness is like and maybe id wanna live, just like her. She says "you haven't seen the world yet you can't decide whether it's worth living or not, what if the world is a beautiful place, your world is very small confined to your room and your
shitty country and shitty people"

I do live in a shitty country with shitty people but I don't know if travelling would really help? Does travelling help? People who travelled here does it make you wanna not ctb?
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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I traveled, and now that I know I'll CTB soon, I'm glad that I did. Any more traveling at this point would only be a painful reminder that the world & all its beauty has nothing to do with me anymore. But since you haven't traveled, you may as well. It could inspire you to want to live, or it could just make you feel grateful you got to have a change of scenery before you CTB. It sounds like a win to me either way.
 
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HFK40000

Not Living Just Killing Time
Apr 14, 2026
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Traveling to look at nature does not inspire me. I do find a lot of value and enjoy traveling to see music related events.
 
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peacebenow

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Apr 26, 2026
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I am unable to travel and see beauty of nature anymore as my body is dying but if if I was still able to travel and see beautiful nature and new landscapes I would be living again and that would be a dream come true. I hope you take any chance you have to travel out of your country and get out of your confined room. Nobody can know if it will determine your destiny but you will experience something completely new.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

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happysunnydayy

happysunnydayy

lookin for friends:)
Mar 18, 2025
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I traveled, and now that I know I'll CTB soon, I'm glad that I did. Any more traveling at this point would only be a painful reminder that the world & all its beauty has nothing to do with me anymore. But since you haven't traveled, you may as well. It could inspire you to want to live, or it could just make you feel grateful you got to have a change of scenery before you CTB. It sounds like a win to me either way.
but what if I'm depressed either way as I look at the beauty of the world?
Lolll I enjoy looking at cats
Traveling to look at nature does not inspire me. I do find a lot of value and enjoy traveling to see music related events.
does it make you wanna live ?
 

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