Venting Does the trauma ever fucking go away

[ultradespair]

Im so sick and tired of being traumatized by bullying that happened at school over 5 years ago, it was over a long period of of time (6 or so years) but still.

Them calling me fat, ugly, bad smelling and everything still echoes in my head to this day and it hurts so much not knowing if this will go on forever or not, if it does im not sure how much longer I can take it.

I used to think that all the anti-bullying stuff at school was unnecessary and overdramatic but now I get that its really needed because of people like me :/

 

[bravelytothewinter]

hey! I'm really sorry for what you're going through. I know this sounds stupid but basically the only way you're gonna get help with this either via a psychologist or doing some techniques yourself to work through your trauma. these types of things don't really go away on their own.

Also I like your PFP :D

 

[ultradespair]

hey! I'm really sorry for what you're going through. I know this sounds stupid but basically the only way you're gonna get help with this either via a psychologist or doing some techniques yourself to work through your trauma. these types of things don't really go away on their own.

Also I like your PFP :D

Ive tried going to a psychologist once before but my agoraphobia is really bad so I stopped going after a few visits, it also felt like the psychologist wasnt taking me seriously and belittling my problems a bit

Also thanks!! <3

 

[pinstripe]

One cool thing is after school and in your life you can reinvent yourself. I was bullied like crazy in school for many reasons (always the weird new kid since I moved to a new city like 3 times a year) and I would be completely unrecognizable from that person now.

Who the bullies were then don't matter for who you are now.

 

[bravelytothewinter]

Ive tried going to a psychologist once before but my agoraphobia is really bad so I stopped going after a few visits, it also felt like the psychologist wasnt taking me seriously and belittling my problems a bit

Also thanks!! <3

one of the things that sucks about psychologists is that a lot of them are terrible at their jobs and a lot of people love pushing CBT like it's fucking gospel. if you can stomach it or want to improve your issues you're probably gonna have to shop around at various therapists, often with different modalities, which ban be expensive and, draining and time consuming. I assume though if you had a decent prolonged exposure or some other modality therapist you could *probably* get help with your issue. I ain't gonna pretend like this is magic and you gotta want it.

 

[cait_sith]

Im currently trying emdr for my trauma, without therapist though, just looking at at that YouTube video for 10 minutes a day.