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Bobby2Phat

Member
Feb 27, 2026
10
For me these kinds of sad events make me dislike the world more but as a double sided coin I also don't want to miss the next big episode as morbid as that sounds.

Just wondered if anybody else felt the same way or if different how it effects you.
 
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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
1,623
Definitely makes me want to CTB more. If I even just think about WW2 I want to kill myself, nevermind actually living through another world war.
 
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LastWhisper

LastWhisper

Who cares if I'm drunk?
Oct 29, 2019
227
Actually, yes, recent world events over the past few years have pushed me toward my decision (even more than I do myself lol), as if there is no longer a place for me, as if all of this has become a cancerous tumor that will kill me much worse than I could ever kill myself...
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,386
More so, yes. The world is cruel. So much pain. And yet we are still trapped
 
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terrifiedofhumans

terrifiedofhumans

I wanna sail away while listening to Enya.
Feb 19, 2026
7
Definitely, every time I hear about any cruelty I'm reminded of the savage nature of human beings and what people are capable of for just a few stupid reasons. It only reassures me about my decisions.
 
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Untoten_

Untoten_

Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
121
Less, in a way. I used to be involved in the contractor world (which is where my knowledge on languages and firearms this forum has seen my talk about is from), and as bad as it seems, if boots on the ground do come, to me that's just another route for good pay. It probably sounds strange or outright disturbing to outside observers and granted yea it is, we're very hard people to find so it's not like you hear a lot of my type.

So I don't want to miss out on anything. I was too young for the peak of GWOT and apparently FOMO is stronger than the need to die lately.
 
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Kanoh

Student
Dec 31, 2024
104
Don't care about wars in the middle east. My worry is war in Ukraine because it's closer to me.
 
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thelostautistic

Experienced
Jul 31, 2025
207
Honestly the way the world is heading only fuels my suicidal thoughts more. There's such a lack of humanity in the world right now and it's very scary and sad.
 
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Webcore

Unresolved Emotional Everything
Mar 4, 2026
27
100% I am desperate to CTB with the news I hear
I want to take myself out before something worse can kill me and my family, like a bomb strike.
 
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knowledgeseeking

knowledgeseeking

Student
Apr 5, 2025
103
It certainly doesn't make me not want to. As an American it also makes me feel embarrassed. It's hard to be at all patriotic with way we treat the world and our repugnant leader.
 
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LetMeOut67

Mage
May 7, 2025
506
I think the suicide rate always drops in wartime

Being hypersensitive these events make me distressed. It angers me that evil occurs and most people don't care until they're personally affected. I resent that gentle people are burdened by the evils of the world while obnoxious oafs don't give a shit.
Our species is truly disgusting. It's the responsibility of every person to confront evil.
If they don't chances are it will come knocking eventually.
 
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Bobby2Phat

Member
Feb 27, 2026
10
Don't care about wars in the middle east. My worry is war in Ukraine because it's closer to me.
Neither are close to me but I have empathy for all whether they are close or not. I'm not worried about the effect on me and my life in a direct way but I hate humans hurting others and destroying the world. It's painful to watch a world full of hate and suffering.
 
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ConfusedClouds

Mage
Mar 9, 2024
502
More, its just such a mess. For the empathy for those caught up in it. But also for the bias and reactions towards certain wars but total ignoring of others that are arguably more brutal and been going on way longer.

However, it ends up making me less. Because its too much to take. So I zone out and isolate even more into my bubble and solo work shifts and exercising, which sees time disappear without being aware. Without active planning or ideating. But then I feel shit when I snap 'back into the room' and remember what's going on out there. So I zone out again. Which is probably worse. Its what they want. Autopilot robots going to work regardless. Urgh.
 
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kitkatt

kitkatt

Possumpwincess
Feb 17, 2026
127
World War 3 being in production absolutely makes me more suicidal. There's nothing I alone can do to stop genocide I'm above the age for a regular draft and I'm also not a man so no war time fragging for me. The whole world is fucked though is not only our government here in America. Just are government here in America was idiotic enough to start a war to remain control. I took the right pill and I can't go back in the tank I hate it here
 
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curiousgeorgette

Member
Jan 26, 2026
13
I'm in such agony all the time that I can't follow the news closely, it's too much to take to stay updated on the details and think about it at length. I used to engage with news/politics deeply before my life got ruined. If reading the news makes your pain worse, I would urge you to take breaks from it as an act of self-care. <3
 
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not much hope

not much hope

Member
Mar 7, 2026
7
Makes me want to CTB even more I really don't want. To be around to see the nukes up close and die from radiation exposure.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,931
It makes me want to leave this world even more. Not just the fear of another world war/ nuclear war. Just that I'm sick of hearing about what new attrocity is going on. I'm sick of being under the boot of corrupt bully politicians and corporations that are only out to feather their own nests. I don't want to be a pawn in this game anymore. I can't wait to resign.
 
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Bobby2Phat

Member
Feb 27, 2026
10
World War 3 being in production absolutely makes me more suicidal. There's nothing I alone can do to stop genocide I'm above the age for a regular draft and I'm also not a man so no war time fragging for me. The whole world is fucked though is not only our government here in America. Just are government here in America was idiotic enough to start a war to remain control. I took the right pill and I can't go back in the tank I hate it here
Ironically this will most likely be an overstretch for the US government and push them further away from control, which in the long run might seem positive for the world but falling empires always tend to die via overstretch and when they do it generally means they spray destruction all around them. My worry is what despotic regime takes its place too. Just sad all round really.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,686
American here, I lived through the Gulf War, then the Afghanistan War. This is just another war and a long line of the US government after oil. The war does not specifically contribute to my suicidality. It is just one more thing in a long line of the world going to shit that is pushing me closer to the edge.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
759
More so, yes. The world is cruel. So much pain. And yet we are still trapped
You are sensitive soul like me. I have the same opinion about the war in the Middle East.
This world in which innocent children are killed by the thousands and more are injured, isn't for me.
I don't want to take part in it for much longer. I plan on ctb this year.
 
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metfan647

Specialist
Jun 12, 2025
334
A part of me would love to see my country go through war. A lot of people in UK are lazy and entitled and could do with going through some hardship.
 
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pumpkinboy

pumpkinboy

Member
Mar 6, 2026
33
Honestly made me less someone is going to need to pick up the pieces
 
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kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
277
Actually, I don't really care. The world has been in decline for several decades and I simply waiting for it's end. It's has no effect on my suicidality, since my life is already broken, but I'm just sad by the fact that the world I was taught about is no longer exist.
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,545
I feel fairly indifferent it. It just reaffirms my dislike for America as an American. It's tragic that lives are being lost to this, especially innocent lives, but it doesn't directly influence my suicidality.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
2,850
my resignation took place a long time ago
 
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curiousgeorgette

Member
Jan 26, 2026
13
I'm in such agony all the time that I can't follow the news closely, it's too much to take to stay updated on the details and think about it at length. I used to engage with news/politics deeply before my life got ruined. If reading the news makes your pain worse, I would urge you to take breaks from it as an act of self-care. <3
Thanks for the hugs, guys ^_^
 
bananaolympus

bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
385
Indifferent to be honest the whole world could be at peace and it would not change my circumstances to ctb