I matters, but only in the respect, that I have all of my affairs in order. Whenever I get to that point and I'm satisfied, that'll be when I'm comfortable going.
winter is very difficult for me and it has got worse since I moved back home to my parents freezing old house. In the city I could insulate myself from it a bit in a warm apartment and the city had a magical quality with the cold air. But in a small town and a cold house its much harder.
All that would matter is succeeding. I envy those who ctb and the courage they had to escape from all the suffering despite the fact that suicide is purposely made so difficult in this world, they are the fortunate ones as there is nothing more ideal than permanently ceasing to exist.
Actually all that really matters with CTB is success. I don't care about the season when the time has come it will be done, hopefully overcoming SI then.
I have an isolated scenic spot that has been special to me for many years. Being winter now has its advantages: People won't be walking about at night as they do in summer. So chances are you'll be undisturbed until you fall asleep in death. But I hate the cold due to chronic pain, so I wouldn't mind being at that spot in summer, so I can enjoy the stars and take all the beauty in until I'm not conscious any more.
Suppose winter will also help you slip out of consciousness quicker. It really doesn't matter to me. I'll be erased from the population. They will get over it and have one less thing to worry about as they go about what is left of their lives. Love to all
I want to ctb in autumn because my birthday is then (technically it's late summer/early autumn but I say it's in autumn because I hate summer). Autumn is also my favorite season. Winter is my next favorite and alternate choice.
im ctb this winter. its not my favorite season or anything- autumn is- but its still a lot nicer than spring or summer. plus the place im dying at looks the prettiest in the winter time :)
another bonus is that my corpse wont decompose nearly as fast so hopefully im not in too much of a nasty state when im found.
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