Does reading goodbye threads make it easier for you to say goodbye to your own life?

[noname223]

When I was acute suicidal and the edge of drinking SN I read goodbye threads and the last words of some members in this forum who meant much to me. My intent was that it comforts me that I am not alone with this fate. And it actually did.

In the last clinic I promised to give away my benzos so that I cannot abuse it when I want to ctb. Noone mentioned it in my report. I left so many hints that could have prevented my suicide. And the report is so short.

There was this woman who jumped in front of the train. The staff emphasized "This was the decision of (her name). And solely her decision. I think they feared that others would follow her. Well before they did everything to take her that choice and after she's dead it is fully her responsbility. Lol.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No, not really. Goodbye threads here don't really have any sentimental value to me other than me being at envy over them avoiding decades upon decades of suffering and cruelty

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm not going to know for sure until I attempt I suppose. I definitely admire their bravery though. The lengths to which some members went to do it. One in particular was in some sort of sheltered housing. They risked both ordering to that address and, taking it there. They were so (understandably) frightened during the attempt too. It's hard to know what I'll be thinking about if/when the time comes.

 

[HarryCobean]

Not yet.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

GBTs don't make it any easier bc it is still a personal decision - either I want to die and I made my decision or not.

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

Not really, I think this a sort of thing that you can't really prepare for when its your turn to go. In fact, I think it makes it harder, I get all anxious about it when I should just stick to my plan and go on my own pace.

 

[TheHolySword]

Not at all really. I envy that they have already let go, that they could let go. I'm new so I have no real attachment to anyone here currently or before, their goodbyes are not sentimental to me and I can only hope that they are at peace. Reading someone else's goodbye could do nothing to prepare me for my own. This is a battle I have to face myself, I am the only one who can make myself ready to die. Everyone dies, reading someone else's story won't comfort me because we all already share the same fate. The success stories make me hopeful that mine, too, will succeed but that's about the deepest it goes.