Does posting here help you bother others less with your mental suffering or even suicidal thoughts?

[Lucilius]

I have a friend whom I've been really driving mad recently with my despair. I probably should try to keep it here. For her sake, but also for the peace of mind of other people I know and my own freedom. Have you experienced anything similar?

 

[stillunemployed]

Most people around me are cruel, so it would a really bad idea for me to try and talk openly about mental health, cbt, etc...

 

[misarexic]

i feel like such a burden everywhere else, but i dont feel that way here, i hate bothering people and i hate being an inconvenience, so its hard to open up to people outside of SS.

i feel much more seen and heard here

 

[saddestbunny]

yea there's really not a point for me in discussing anymore with people in my life outside of wanting to eventually ctb, I feel like everything I could ever say has been talked to death and pursued all avenues of treatment, so this is a very welcoming place where my constant thoughts aren't invalidated for merely existing by every member of society. it's extremely weird how people treat you when they think you're depressed / suicidal VS not

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Yes
I have this one friend that i keep fucking up by talking about shit like this. Its better if I keep all that here

 

[_smile_]

I do not share my true thoughts or feelings with anyone irl or outside of the sasu community. I always feel no one really cares. I always deflect in conversations and make sure we're talking about the other person and not me. And typically they never really realize what happened and do not end up asking me again…
I also feel like others will never understand what I'm going through outside of people here

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Yupppp there's only so much anyone can take ig. Even if someone understands for a bit they'll become detached or insensitive in my experience.

So best to keep it here bc as suicidal people we still have the human need to be heard & like cared for within this. Keeping it in just makes it worse like even if ones plan is to CTB imo keeping it to yourself would drive anyone mad in ways ya kno?

So even tho when I post here I feel annoying... I know its necessary. (Yes I journal it isn't the same tho)

 

[exiled]

Enormously. A huge part of my suicidal thoughts stem from not wanting to burden those that don't want to hear it. This forum gives me a place to really remove all filters and be authentic about how I'm feeling. This is what prolifers don't understand about SS. If anything, it is helping keep me alive and allowing me to release what I couldn't otherwise release in real life. All these people say they want to remove supports like SS but then are the first to walk away in the name of being overwhelmed. I am so glad that I stumbled upon this community. I've made some of the most understanding, relatable friends here within a month than I have in my entire lifetime.

 

[suicidalloser]

no its worse, it carries over. i've been banned from every social platform and forum board because of it all overs those past years
this forum is no different

 

[todiefor]

Yes it really does. I don't talk to anyone in my life about ctb, nor do I speak to any professionals, because in my current state I don't think I can hold things together and I will be sent somewhere I don't want to be. So actually this is my only outlet. I've never been suicidal before so this is all very new to me. I came on this forum purely to look for a way to die and I'm really surprised by how much resources there is,how detailed and thoughtful all of the info is. it really put my mind at ease knowing I have a path. And since I have to wait a month or two, talking on the forum I've found it so freeing and really helpful in both understanding what I'm going through and understanding what other people are going through. The community has really helped to feel like I'm not alone in this. even if I wasn't so suicidal I don't think I would want to burden my friends or family with this, I've tried a little a few months ago and the pain and confusion in their eyes and faces was just too much for me to bear, and I stopped immediately. i don't blame then, the emotional burden of wanting to ctb is just too difficult for normal society to empathise with. I don't want to burden them, but here I don't feel like a burden

 

[thrutrekfinaly]

Short answer: yes.

Long answer : most ppl are berdened by cries of help. Works has become careless. Sees feeling pain as weakness. It's not, it's human. But ppl can't be bothered by others suffering. If you do try to talk about your feelings or beliefs they act as if your hurting them. It's best to stay quiet…..but it's worst to keep it in…..so sites like this is good. Dare I say it a necessity.