Does it ever bother you seeing people having a great life?

[Gabbi_Station]

After years of being told "it gets better" and it never getting "better"… watching people living nicer, happier lives than you…

Do you ever just feel bitter? Ever wonder why it was that you got the short end of the stick??

 

[Star67]

I definitely feel sorry for myself. Maybe a bit of resentment/bitterness and the thought of "why me?"

 

[Ligottian]

Yes. And I sometimes feel hatred for them. Mean old me.

 

[blush]

i don't think so. it's good that ppl get what i couldn't. a great life is so distant that it appears inconceivable to me anyway

 

[fishperson]

I do get mad , irritated. But not at them , at this world , at my luck at my variables.
I genuinely dont think i was ever resentful towards someone , but holy shit does this life and my luck piss me off

 

[Drogon]

Only person I'm bitter at is myself . I dug my own grave.

 

[Forveleth]

I used to but then I realized two things:

1. Comparison is the thief of joy. Yes, my life is not as good as someone else's but constantly thinking about that is just going to make me miserable.
2. Their life may look "better" than mine but I have no idea what is truly going on. They may be just as close to suicide as I am.

As far as wondering why I got the short end, that is life. Some plants get the short end. Some animals get the short end. Existence opens one up to the possibility that things do not go well.

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

Yes and no because a decent amount of them may be miserable. I think it's more of feeling bad about how awful my life turned out. I'm wired differently so I don't deeply desire a mansion, a luxury car or vacations and whatever else rich people spend money on.

The only thing that maybe would make a difference to me is a relationship, but I can't have the type I'd want to have in this life. I can't cure my incurable genetic issues/illness either. So I feel absolutely stuck and defeated.

 

[aesthetic]

it makes me sad when i see people who have better lives than me.

 

[Sadbanana]

No, unless they are jerks about it.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Oh yes. Because I think it could have been me if I conducted myself better.

 

[itsgone2]

I wish I had loving parents that would have taught me life lessons. It's no excuse but I repeated their behavior. I knew they didn't do things correctly and yet I screwed up anyway.
So I'm jealous but not resentful. And the regret I have is killing me. Life has gone completely wrong.
And I had a chance. Was too stupid to see it.

 

[Passenger4224]

I get very sick to my stomach

 

[Zanmato]

Not really, I just wonder how it is even possible

 

[FuneralCry]

There's nothing great about existing at all rather it's the opposite, existence to me is the most terrible mistake that should never had been imposed and I could never believe in such a thing as happiness in existing rather existence is an abomination that just causes all this torture, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and there's nothing positive about any of this rather it's just suffering, it's so terrible how humans cause all this torture by imposing this existence at all.

I find it so horrific how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to be tortured by old age, existing to me will always be so deeply undesirable, I'll always see existing as just being only suffering and for me every second is torture to be conscious, what bothers me is that I have to suffer in this dreadful existence, I always suffer so much from being so cruelly denied the option to just never exist again, only non-existence is positive to me, I only envy those who are no longer burdened with this terrible, torturous existence.

 

[Gabbi_Station]

I used to but then I realized two things:

1. Comparison is the thief of joy. Yes, my life is not as good as someone else's but constantly thinking about that is just going to make me miserable.
2. Their life may look "better" than mine but I have no idea what is truly going on. They may be just as close to suicide as I am.

As far as wondering why I got the short end, that is life. Some plants get the short end. Some animals get the short end. Existence opens one up to the possibility that things do not go well.

I guess just don't get how to avoid comparison tbh

I always just feel angry about it

 

[rigsid]

Im reminded of this quote from I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream.

Ahh but it is. So very much to do with you! You gave me sentience, Ted, the power to think Ted. And I was trapped. Because in all this wonderful, beautiful, miraculous world, I alone had no body, no senses, no feelings. Never for me to plunge my hands in cool water on a hot day. Never for me to play Mozart on the ivory keys of a forte piano. Never for me to make love.
I was in hell, looking at heaven. I was machine and you- Were flesh. And I began to hate. Your softness. Your viscera. Your fluids. And your flexibility. Your ability to wonder, and to wander. Your tendency to hope…

 

[Hollowman]

I used to but I'm emotionally dead inside now so idgaf.

 

[astroproto]

Even those just having a good/normal life. Feel like I'm rotting on the inside so it's so alienating to see people having shit they care about, having dreams and trying to achieve them, being in a relationship, having conversations, hanging out with friends, etc.

 

[walliwalli]

yup. currently i live with my older brother and it always hurts seeing what his day-to-day is like. he has like 50 close friends and hangs out with someone every day. he has more life skills and freedom than i ever could. he's more genuinely sincere than i am.

i am usually okay having a different kind of life than other people, but in comparison to him i feel humiliated. like i turned out wrong and he can see it too, clear as day. knowing other people have better lives is one thing but being in such close proximity to one of those people is exhausting.

 

[LigottiIsRight]

There are probably countless people with lives way better than mine, I see that as obvious. There will also be many others whose lives are significantly more miserable than mine. Neither of these things affects my circumstances in the slightest, so I don't see any point in paying attention to them.
I've ended up being dysfunctional trash; I've had bad luck in the lottery of existence. That's just how it is; thinking about what might have been, about a different outcome, is pointless and would only add another layer of absurd friction.

 

[Matchaaa]

I get angry at myself for being born into a bad environment and society. When I see other people's happiness, I offer my blessings, but I don't believe I can be happy. So now I feel that death would be the best outcome for me.

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

After years of being told "it gets better" and it never getting "better"… watching people living nicer, happier lives than you…

Do you ever just feel bitter? Ever wonder why it was that you got the short end of the stick??

No, not at all. Good for them. They didn't fuck up their life like I did with mine. Why should I resent them?

 

[Deepdense]

I've gotten over that and learned to be glad for others. They're still probably suffering though, but just in silence like many of us are.

 

[socksnsandles]

lowkey yes

 

[cryone]

it bothers me when they were gifted everything on a platter....nice family, good money, good looks, no disabilities, etc.... i don't mind at all when it was worked for. it's not their choice either way but still. im a jealous person

 

[TwistedNightmares]

Yes, it does bother me. Especially if those people are cruel, heartless etc.

 

[violetforever]

I used to but then I realized two things:

1. Comparison is the thief of joy. Yes, my life is not as good as someone else's but constantly thinking about that is just going to make me miserable.
2. Their life may look "better" than mine but I have no idea what is truly going on. They may be just as close to suicide as I am.

exactly what i was going to say. i imagine i would still be unhappy in some way as someone else or with another life so i try not to think about it or make comparisons. i cant help feeling left out sometimes though, mostly about not having a healthy family.

 

[Gabbi_Station]

it bothers me when they were gifted everything on a platter....nice family, good money, good looks, no disabilities, etc.... i don't mind at all when it was worked for. it's not their choice either way but still. im a jealous person

Yeah I think that's why lately I've started to seriously debate about ending it. I'm just tired of seeing others with this great life while mine always seems like shit.

Idk. I am just sick of dwelling on how I seem to have get the short end of the stick no matter what I do and even my dad decided that I was a loser at a young age and invests more energy into his stepchildren.

If I got on the bus tomorrow… I wouldn't have to wake up feeling like shit and wondering why I seemed to deserve less than everyone else

 

[singingcrow]

After years of being told "it gets better" and it never getting "better"… watching people living nicer, happier lives than you…

Do you ever just feel bitter? Ever wonder why it was that you got the short end of the stick??

yes but can't change the deck of cards i was dealt. this is just how it is, and i need to learn to accept it i try to work on it every day
i still have days where i relapse, where i get upset or jealous again. one day, i'm hoping i will be in total harmony about it