dogemn

dogemn

All the nights I don't die
May 30, 2023
70
I've been a social reject my whole life and have pretty much no one except for my mother. Never had any close friends, much less a romantic partner. Since we as humans are social animals, human connection is essential to our wellbeing. Do you think a lack of human connection is one of the reasons you want to CTB?
 
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maidens

maidens

" more dead than alive, I endure it "
Aug 27, 2023
143
yes, I hardly do anything but rot in bed every day. I don't have any real friends that I see often, and it makes me want to CTB more
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,363
Not in my case. I've always seen it as better to avoid other people as after all they very often just create more suffering. Other people cannot be relied on anyway, humans truly are the worst species.
 
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RichardFirst

RichardFirst

Specialist
Jan 16, 2021
383
Not really. In fact, one of my fantasies is to wake up and be the last human alive. I actually planned it out in detail!

I would wake up totally alone. Everyone is gone, but the world has also been prepared for my being alone. All nuclear power plants and anything potentially dangerous has been shut down. All domesticated animals, zoo animals and pets are gone so that I don't need to worry about the animals starving to death without humans to care for them. I'd just wander about, exploring and doing what I wanted in peace.

Sad, I know :)
 
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feuerflieger

feuerflieger

i only exist
Oct 9, 2023
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Not really. In fact, one of my fantasies is to wake up and be the last human alive. I actually planned it out in detail!

I would wake up totally alone. Everyone is gone, but the world has also been prepared for my being alone. All nuclear power plants and anything potentially dangerous has been shut down. All domesticated animals, zoo animals and pets are gone so that I don't need to worry about the animals starving to death without humans to care for them. I'd just wander about, exploring and doing what I wanted in peace.

Sad, I know :)
doesn't sound sad to me at all. if all of the other animals are still alive and id have my two friends with me i probably would enjoy life. at least to a degree
 
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DyingToDie123

DyingToDie123

she/her
Oct 25, 2023
385
partially but it's not the only reason. If that was solved in my life I'd still want to ctb.
 
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Adûnâi

Adûnâi

Little Russian in-cel
Apr 25, 2020
936
I've always seen it as better to avoid other people as after all they very often just create more suffering.
I wish I could check for myself, at least. I will never be able to because I have no clue how to do it. Maybe I do have volcel characteristics - I get disgusted when I see girls eat smelly buns or cookies, but I still yearn for human touch that I'll never get (barbers don't count!).

P.S. Does anyone perchance know why I can't talk in the suicide forum chat? I have no idea how to learn it otherwise, hence ruining this thread with my off-topic.

P.P.S. I do feel jealous of any people talking about their social experiences here. Like, some people here even have boyfriends? That's just insane for me. Sure, I may have my copes, and again, I'm introverted from nature... but then again, am I? When talking to my mom, I can talk for hours - on the topics that interest me. It's just that she's unfortunately absolutely retarded and without an opinion, so it's as if I'm talking to a wall at best, or a television set regurgitating state propaganda at worst.
 
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