I've always seen it as better to avoid other people as after all they very often just create more suffering.
I wish I could check for myself, at least. I will never be able to because I have no clue how to do it. Maybe I do have volcel characteristics - I get disgusted when I see girls eat smelly buns or cookies, but I still yearn for human touch that I'll never get (barbers don't count!).
P.S. Does anyone perchance know why I can't talk in the suicide forum chat? I have no idea how to learn it otherwise, hence ruining this thread with my off-topic.
P.P.S. I do feel jealous of any people talking about their social experiences here. Like, some people here even have boyfriends? That's just insane for me. Sure, I may have my copes, and again, I'm introverted from nature... but then again, am I? When talking to my mom, I can talk for hours - on the topics that interest me. It's just that she's unfortunately absolutely retarded and without an opinion, so it's as if I'm talking to a wall at best, or a television set regurgitating state propaganda at worst.