I've always been shy and ended up isolated which led to the internet being my main source of attempting to connect with people and get out of isolation. This has severely stunted my ability to form meaningful relationships with people in real life. It's like there's a whole unspoken language for how you're meant to interact and I just never learned it.
On the surface I appear relatively normal (good job, financially stable, not completely socially inept) because I know how to bullshit but when trying to form deeper relationships and the layers start to be peeled back people always leave.
Found someone who was willing to stay along after peeling back the layers but I unfortunately messed up the relationship and I'm back to being alone now.
There is little leeway given to try and learn how to build relationships as an adult so I feel like your only chance is either accepting that you're alone or going through an insane amount of rejection, and trial and error for a small chance you might catch up in building the necessary skills.
Slowly giving up on the hope that there will ever be someone who I can truly connect with and when that hope runs out that'll pretty much be my time to CTB.
On the surface I appear relatively normal (good job, financially stable, not completely socially inept) because I know how to bullshit but when trying to form deeper relationships and the layers start to be peeled back people always leave.
Found someone who was willing to stay along after peeling back the layers but I unfortunately messed up the relationship and I'm back to being alone now.
There is little leeway given to try and learn how to build relationships as an adult so I feel like your only chance is either accepting that you're alone or going through an insane amount of rejection, and trial and error for a small chance you might catch up in building the necessary skills.
Slowly giving up on the hope that there will ever be someone who I can truly connect with and when that hope runs out that'll pretty much be my time to CTB.
