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Eternal Disaster

Eternal Disaster

IHaveDemonsInMyHead
Aug 3, 2025
21
My brain was some sort of different from others but my parents never gave a shit to it. Life kept on becoming worse and now my brain is fucked up.
 
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moribundwhispers

Student
Jul 1, 2025
143
i think it's because of my life tbh. and because of some mistakes i made that i don't think can be fixed.
really wish i could turn back the clock or start over and have another life
 
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Scythe

Lost in a delusion
Sep 5, 2022
650
Well my life could have gone better, but I wouldn't call it shitty objectively. I have skills that can get me a decent job...maybe...... I do have a family that would be willing to let me live with them even if I'm stuck at a min wage job.
It's shitty due to my mindspace. I wouldn't say I'm sick in the head either, I'm simply not exactly human. Therefore I won't fit into human society, and I don't want to live in this society. The main reason is really I hate working, I hate it enough to prefer death, and from my understanding this is not a rare opinion here. There is also the factor of me never truly belonging anywhere.
 
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tercermundista

Member
Apr 23, 2024
64
That's what I want to know...
I want to know if I'm suicidal because I'm a failure in every aspect of life, or if I would actually think differently if I had a better life. The problem is, I don't think I'll ever figure it out because I don't clearly see how to improve my life, and that makes me angry.
At least I'd like to have a normal life to find out if I still think everything is crap and be able to decide whether to live or die without regrets and without fear of feeling like I missed out.
 
SoulCage

SoulCage

Student
Dec 28, 2023
144
It's an interesting question. It seems simple on the face of it but, I don't think it is. Comparatively speaking, I probably don't have a shitty life. My health isn't too bad. Thanks to inheritance, I am able to live independently and I could afford to pursue the education I wanted and, more or less, eventually land the job I wanted. The things I don't have- close friendships and relationships, I have chosen to neglect.

But, I'm (obviously) not happy. I'm tired of working- even though it's what I wanted to do. I'm tired of the pressures of having to financially and practically sustain this life. Really then- it comes down to a question: 'Is it shitty to be expected to work to sustain life or, is that a reasonable expectation to put on someone?' Am I 'mentally ill' because I resent having to comply with this world?

In a weird way, I'm not so sure either apply to me. My life isn't excessively shitty- although I have a lot of shitty childhood baggage. I'm not convinced I'm mentally ill either. Not debilitatingly so anyway. I'm just tired mostly.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts. They make me feel like I am also allowed to be upset about life despite my "actually good" circumstances. The same question pops in my head - am I really mentally ill because I see the world for what it is and because I am not able ignore and cope like most people. Like doctors and therapists try to hammer into me.
I really don't know how to answer it... And even answering won't help, because it won't change reality anyway.
 
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Dusk till dawn

Experienced
Sep 7, 2018
256
Both, i was born with bad genetics so i am "sick in the head" i'm neurodivergent and had a bad life, and even if i didn't, i just don't see myself having a good life because i would screw it up, i would've 100% been a drug addict if i had access to those stuff, i couldn't develop social skills in a thousand years no matter how much i tried
 
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ultradespair

Shut-in
Jul 25, 2025
40
Bullying gave me trauma which made me isolate completely and turn my life into shit, also not looking for help etc just made it worse and now I feel like its too late.