Discussion Does death scare you?

[venin]

And if the answer is "yes", how do you plan on surpassing it?

Personally, I don't fear death.

I fear not having done everything I could.
Giving up when there were still real chances to succeed.

 

[josephk]

no death doesnt scare me at all. In fact i'd welcome it. Dying painfully & in a long drawn out way scares me though

 

[yoomi]

The only reason I'm scared of death is hurting my loved ones.

I know it's my right ctb and no one can stop me, but I'm also scared
that my loved ones will follow my steps
and ctb.

I have made my peace with passing away and nothing will stop me even if it hurts the ones i love the most.

I know I will miss out on things (such as
loved ones bdays) but this cruel world has done nothing but harm me and I cannot wait to meet my end <3

 

[doneforlife]

The end point doesn't scare me. The process of reaching the end point does. Cause it's ridden with pain and uncertainty. Also what scares me is reincarnation or any form of afterlife or even hell and heaven. I have lost fear for death cause it represents a state of no suffering, no feeling, no pain.

 

[venin]

I

The only reason I'm scared of death is hurting my loved ones.

I know it's my right ctb and no one can stop me, but I'm also scared
that my loved ones will follow my steps
and ctb.

I have made my peace with passing away and nothing will stop me even if it hurts the ones i love the most.

I know I will miss out on things (such as
loved ones bdays) but this cruel world has done nothing but harm me and I cannot wait to meet my end <3

I'm happy you made peace with the idea.

I wish you nothing but the best

The end point doesn't scare me. The process of reaching the end point does. Cause it's ridden with pain and uncertainty. Also what scares me is reincarnation or any form of afterlife or even hell and heaven. I have lost fear for death cause it represents a state of no suffering, no feeling, no pain.

I am afraid of losing myself. My essence. My "good" parts. The ones that were not and cannot be influenced by what happened to me. The ones that somehow keep me going despite this living hell I'm experiencing.

 

[front of me]

Pain 1# 95%

 

[yoomi]

I'm happy you made peace with the idea.

I wish you nothing but the best

 

[venin]

Pain 1# 95%

Although, after what the majority of us have been through CTB-ing should be a piece of cake

 

[front of me]

Although, after what the majority of us have been through CTB-ing should be a piece of cake

Without pain all people want to CTB will be gone
Pain is your number one enemy

 

[doneforlife]

I

I'm happy you made peace with the idea.

I wish you nothing but the best

I am afraid of losing myself. My essence. My "good" parts. The ones that were not and cannot be influenced by what happened to me. The ones that somehow keep me going despite this living hell I'm experiencing.

I get it. With death everything is gone. But I have made peace with that as well. My good parts will not matter to me once I am non existent.

 

[venin]

Without pain all people want to CTB will be gone
Pain is your number one enemy

I wouldn't be so sure about it.

I get it. With death everything is gone. But I have made peace with that as well. My good parts will not matter to me once I am non existent.

That's actually very well stated. Thank you

Glad you made peace with that as well

 

[maybunni]

the act of passing away doesn't scare me (except potential pain i guess) but the concept of not existing anymore while the world moves on does scare me. I remember I used to struggle sleeping because I'd stay awake thinking about my parents/ me dying.

 

[venin]

the act of passing away doesn't scare me (except potential pain i guess) but the concept of not existing anymore while the world moves on does scare me. I remember I used to struggle sleeping because I'd stay awake thinking about my parents/ me dying.

Yup. That's frightening. But if you think about it, everyone will soon join non-existence. So…

 

[maybunni]

Yup. That's frightening. But if you think about it, everyone will soon join non-existence. So…

Yeah, I think it's just a fear I need to overcome to cbt. I think it's because I'm still at a point where I don't particularly want to die (although wouldn't care much if I died the next day from a car or something) but just want the pain and thoughts to stop. If that makes sense...

 

[venin]

Yeah, I think it's just a fear I need to overcome to cbt. I think it's because I'm still at a point where I don't particularly want to die (although wouldn't care much if I died the next day from a car or something) but just want the pain and thoughts to stop. If that makes sense...

Kinda the same for me. Ofc it makes sense

 

[jbear824]

I don't fear death, if I could die peacefully and painlessly. But I fear pain, and suffering. And there is the fomo feeling as well.

 

[maybunni]

Kinda the same for me. Ofc it makes sense

Thanks for saying it makes sense. I always feel like my thoughts contradict each other.

 

[Nlis2244]

Like others I mostly fear pain. But I have to admit that I'm kind of scared by the transition from conscious to not existing. It's strange to think about it, but I'm also curious.

 

[maybunni]

I don't fear death, if I could die peacefully and painlessly. But I fear pain, and suffering. And there is the fomo feeling as well.

fomo! That's exactly what I feel.

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

don't fear death. i do fear a failed attempt that will leave me even worse off.

 

[venin]

Thanks for saying it makes sense. I always feel like my thoughts contradict each other.

I think life's full of paradoxes.

Np

Like others I mostly fear pain. But I have to admit that I'm kind of scared by the transition from conscious to not existing. It's strange to think about it, but I'm also curious.

It's terror for me

don't fear death. i do fear a failed attempt that will leave me even worse off.

If you plan it really well, chances are slim

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe death to be peaceful, permanent non-existence which is something so beautiful to me, it's the only relief and comfort in this dreadful existence, what I fear is existing in this hellish reality.

I could never fear death itself, but what I would fear is a suicide attempt failing just leading to more torture, it's terrifying how trying to die can go wrong and of course it's terrifying how there is unlimited potential to suffer in existence. Only the true freedom of non-existence can take away my fears.

 

[Sweet Tart]

I'm afraid of dying in a way that is maybe just a reflexive human SI thing. I'm not afraid of pain but I'm afraid of struggling for breath, so I would not use any method that involves respiratory distress, like hanging or drowning. Also afraid of heights.

What really scares me is trying to ctb and failing; having to deal with hospitalization and the reactions of emotionally abusive family.

I don't believe in any type of afterlife and am quite grounded in my atheist beliefs. I think death can be mercy from the pain of life.

 

[jessisme]

The process of dying scares me. Death does not.

 

[Borderline]

Surviving after the suicide attempt scares me.

 

[bunnyswatership]

What scares me is what comes after. I don't really believe that there is anything after but I don't want to tbe reincarnated, stuck in limbo, a ghost, or whatever. Then there's my family... would they completely ignore my last wishes. Not that it matters I guess since I'm dead. How will people remember me, would they?

 

[sserafim]

And if the answer is "yes", how do you plan on surpassing it?

Personally, I don't fear death.

I fear not having done everything I could.
Giving up when there were still real chances to succeed.

No, death doesn't scare me. In fact, I look forward to it because I think it would be freeing. Death means the end of all pain and suffering, and freedom from the game of life. I like to imagine death as an eternal sleep in the endless void of non-existence.

Surviving after the suicide attempt scares me.

Same

 

[SchrodingersCat]

I dont fear death but I hate thinking about how my family and friends would react to my death. If I did CTB, it would make them miserable especially my parents. Tbh its one of the only reasons why im still alive.

 

[DesperateOne]

And if the answer is "yes", how do you plan on surpassing it?

Personally, I don't fear death.

I fear not having done everything I could.
Giving up when there were still real chances to succeed.

It does. I want to live, but my mind is so far gone that it makes the recovery impossible so I just need to say goodbye. Even if I pressed on I will most likely end up in a mental ward for the rest of my life anyways.

My method is hanging. It's scary that once you go for it there is pretty much no going back, all the memories and consciousness just fades into nothingness and its over. I took the advice of some people here and try not to think about it too much or if I do I spin it in a way that CTBing is just me going to a peaceful deep sleep that will last forever. When I do it, the plan is to get absolutely hammered or just down a few beers/benzos and then go for it without thinking too much.

 

[Oathkeeper]

Death definitely scares me. For me, it's a matter of whether or not the pain and horrors of life are worth fighting through for the good moments.

But since we all end up dead anyways…I dunno.