Discussion Does anyones best scenario still end in CTB?

[Illcryaboutitlater]

I try to daydream to cope and alot of my day dreams are of what I wanted to do in life, its honestly pretty cliché but it still ends with me ctb.

You think its just like cause of mental illness?

I have been saying recently that i dont know which I've wanted for longer to succeed or to be free...

 

[motel rooms]

My best-case scenario irl still ends with me killing myself. There's no fucking way I'm doing old age.

 

[porhtna]

Yes. And it's the most logical as well. Suicide is the voluntary way of death, it represents the ultimate control and the ultimate rebellion as far as I am concerned. Doesn't matter if someone's in a "good place" or not.

 

[Pluto]

Just my opinion: everyone should have a CTB plan, it's just a question of whether it's at 40 or at 85.

My grandmother died of 'natural causes' at 93. The last several years of her life, she wasn't able to walk unassisted, wasn't able to even recognise family members (dementia), was constantly confused and dazed and needed assistance with all daily routines. Nobody should have to go through this misery with no end-of-life options; society is completely insane for normalising this level of suffering upon good people, not to mention the massive financial costs borne by society just to milk an extra few years of life out of a worn-out body. Meanwhile, we let children go hungry because there's no funding to feed them. Well done, humanity, well done.

I remember a few years earlier, my grandmother had had a little handwritten note on her refrigerator: "Growing old isn't for sissies". Well, I am proudly a sissy.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ctb is my best scenario. If I ctb I am preventing decades of suffering. It is comforting to think about my death. When I am dead I will be free of all pain and I will be at peace. I want nothing to do with life. I am not meant for this world at all. Suicide is the only thing that makes sense for me.

 

[Niko66]

One of the main reasons for my wanting to CTB is my diminishing health and quality of life so probably yes? I have always thought I don't want to grow too old.

 

[4eyebiped]

If I had to be a reasonable man, the best case scenario for me would give me a reason to live, at least for a while longer. With that said, if I continued to be the same reasonable man, the best case scenario for me resides in fairytale land out of reach for us here in the real world. Not many of us have access to fairytale land. If you do, then stop being so damn stingy and give me a ticket to the place!!! I will book a flight tonight!

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

My best case scenario is never having existed in the first place. CTB is the runner-up prize.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Lift the anhedonia and free me from emotional pain, then there is (probably) no need for ctb until old age. I'd be happy as an incel NEET and would then ctb long after all of my family members had matured to the point of being able to handle the death well. If I did it now they would all probably break down in (neuro)typical fashion, or at least have severely exaggerated and irrational emotional reactions.

 

[dearlybeloved998]

Sort of... My "best case scenario" ends in decades of suffering but eventual recovery. Now, makes sense in theory why a person would decide to post-pone CTB if they somehow had assurance that things would improve for them but a) for a lot of seriously ill, whether physically or mentally people there is no such assurance, b) is it really worthy to take 8+ more years of that shit just so that I can make it to the point where I "get better"? My best case scenario is still quite scary, maybe not as dramatic as CTB on the spot, but still dreadful nontheless. In all honesty I don't think I will make it to old age.

Sometimes you don't care whether you see the light at the end of the tunnel or not, you're just sick of the tunnel.

 

[Kobusu]

I always planned to ctb once I hit 50 or so. Don't wanna get to the age where I can't wipe myself when I'm on the toilet. 50 being best case, but we're long past that point now.

 

[Belljar]

No I wouldn't want to if I hadn't ruined my life. If I had followed a normal career path as I was set up for I'd be dying of old age in a paid for house.

 

[Illcryaboutitlater]

If I had to be a reasonable man, the best case scenario for me would give me a reason to live, at least for a while longer. With that said, if I continued to be the same reasonable man, the best case scenario for me resides in fairytale land out of reach for us here in the real world. Not many of us have access to fairytale land. If you do, then stop being so damn stingy and give me a ticket to the place!!! I will book a flight tonight!

I don't or I would sell them to anyone who wanted one. I really wanted to produce and direct movies but thats definitely a pipe dream. So though i day dream about it often still part of that daydream ends with me CTB but like having somethings i made left over that people loved.

 

[wait-for-the-bus]

My best-case scenario irl still ends with me killing myself. There's no fucking way I'm doing old age.

I totally agree with you and I think you have many who may agree. I believe that over 80 has the highest suicide rate per capita than any age group.

 

[Noctis]

My best case scenario involves a decent family. Doesn't even have to be a great one, but a decent one.

Since I was born into a terrible one, nothing could have prevented me from being here. I was destined the moment I was born.

 

[OrcWitch]

Yeah. In my idealistic fantasy life I still CTB in old age after becoming a widow.

 

[LoveTakesManyForms]

In my best-case scenario I die saving another. It's better than suicide as the end of my life means something and provides value.
Unfortunately my health is so bad that I can't get it together to head over to save starving children in Africa, or fight terrorists etc.
I'd also be happy with getting better, but after suffering for so long this seems incredibly unlikely.

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

Just my opinion: everyone should have a CTB plan, it's just a question of whether it's at 40 or at 85.

My grandmother died of 'natural causes' at 93. The last several years of her life, she wasn't able to walk unassisted, wasn't able to even recognise family members (dementia), was constantly confused and dazed and needed assistance with all daily routines. Nobody should have to go through this misery with no end-of-life options; society is completely insane for normalising this level of suffering upon good people, not to mention the massive financial costs borne by society just to milk an extra few years of life out of a worn-out body. Meanwhile, we let children go hungry because there's no funding to feed them. Well done, humanity, well done.

I remember a few years earlier, my grandmother had had a little handwritten note on her refrigerator: "Growing old isn't for sissies". Well, I am proudly a sissy.

You mentioned your grandmother was often confused and dazed the last several years of her life. Did she seem scared? (if you don't mind me asking of course) My heart goes out to her and to you too.

 

[DanWhoLikesPie]

It depends. I'm not here because I'm suicidal or in chronic pain or anything, I'm just pro-choice, and hope to live many years yet. On the other hand, it depends how else I'm gonna go. Maybe I'm lucky and drop dead of a heart attack one day. But if I get diagnosed with a terminal illness or find myself homeless, it's time to CTB with a heroin overdose. I've never touched heroin, so a massive dose right into my veins would do the trick.

 

[Kennish]

Yes. I can't really see any other option then this.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Yes. CTB is the best scenario for me because it's the only way I can completely stop myself from being so cruel to myself and to the world. My existence as an ever hungry consumer is contributing to the ruined state of the world we're in and even though just one less person won't make that much of a difference, you underestimate just how far I would be able to consume especially if I did actually recover and get what I want. Even if it won't matter much, it's still better than me potentially staying alive and producing another person or whatever. It's still a net positive for me to die.

 

[Illcryaboutitlater]

These have all been so good to hear, i love this thread thanks everyone its nice to know im not alone in that it makes me feel very selfish a lot of the time.