Does anyone want someone to be sorry once they ctb?

[Smashingairwaves]

I wish I could make people see how much they fucked me up, but that'll never happen. It's truly disappointing knowing everyone I'm upset with will exist happily and never understand the gravity of what they've done. At least I will be dead

 

[Sans]

Quite frankly, I don't really care, since I'll be dead after all.

 

[Mizzmini45]

I could care less. I just want this over with

 

[LMLN]

No, I dont want anybody to be sorry. I wish nobody would be. If I follow through it's to end my pain. I'll be happy as it is my choice.

 

[LastRide]

No, this will be my decision and just my own ! So I hope no one will feel sorry. I will write a note saying on the contrary they should be happy that it's over for me and I'm no longer suffering !

 

[itsmeagain]

Is there anyone who has hurt you so much they may of contributed to you wanting to ctb. I have a world of pain an one of the people who have not helped and have made things worse is my husband. Part of me Hope's he is sorry and regrets his actions.

It won't matter.... sadly. They will all think I was a pussy and CTB'd for a dumb reason, when it's a lot of other reasons they wont' understand. The people close to me would be sad and upset, and really, I want my parents just to be hurt enough to realize how bad of parents they are.

 

[LonelySoul]

Is there anyone who has hurt you so much they may of contributed to you wanting to ctb. I have a world of pain an one of the people who have not helped and have made things worse is my husband. Part of me Hope's he is sorry and regrets his actions.

My family. I would leave notes for each sibling to read and all the rest who have stuck the knife in over the years. Those people would be banned from my funeral too. Last thing I would want is them pretending to be sad at my death when they have so little time for me now.

I have one constant friend in my life, who has been my rock for 29 years. He has looked after me financially mostly, not emotionally because he's Aspergers. But if I did not have him in my life, I would have jumped off Beachy Head long ago.

 

[TheLastSacrifice]

As vengeful as I can feel I don't think ctb should be about that sort of thing.

 

[Ghost2211]

yes, I hope my ex is sorry for throwing away the person who loves him more than anyone in the world ever could, but most of all I hope that every time he looks into his girlfriends eyes he sees the person that he let die So he could have her.

 

[s1mplem3]

I think in my case no one will be sorry, they just going to say I was crazy, this is probably what people think about all suicidal.

 

[Canon1]

People won't care. The ones who really love you will suffer. Others who always pretended as though you were important might be sad for a week than they will go on with business as usual.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I have ptsd because of my dad. The events in my childhood probably brought me down this road. Yes I want him to feel bad

 

[TheEndof]

I struggle with this. I want some people to feel badly about how they treated or gave up on me, maybe even regretful. I'd like for it to ignite a change in their behavior. I don't really know if I need that though. If they're sorry, great. It won't matter anyway. I'll be dead.

 

[Read123456788]

Those I'd want to be sorry probably wouldn't because I don't think they care in the first place but those who I know love me are the ones who will probably feel sorry which is crap

 

[Emily123]

I want people to not be sorry about my death and this is why I prefer to find a place that no one can find me after death

 

[bpdandme]

Even if it was done to make someone sorry, you wouldn't be alive to see if they were.

 

[selfhater]

all the ppl who knew me cuz i was suffering in front of everyone and they either ignored or made me feel bad about it

 

[TAW122]

There are a few, but rather I'm more angry at society and humanity as a whole (part of why I'm an misanthrope and antinatalist). Perhaps when I was younger like when I was a teen I was more martyrish when it comes to advancing my cause, but as I aged and my rage grew, I decided that instead of just appealing to others, I'm leaning more towards ensuring that I die on my own terms and mine alone, not as much as to spite 'others'.

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

The guy who ghosted me right at the end..... I hope that shit haunts him....

 

[taylor321]

Yes... but you know what they probably won't be sorry even after I'm dead

same, the people who have hurt me wouldnt care at alllll and i know that for a fact. I regret not taking action when i was 11 at least then people would have known what was going on, i feel like i wouldve gotten more justice if i had killed myself then. Im here if u ever wanna chat btw, feel free to message me anytime

 

[mediocre]

I don't want anyone to be sorry per se but I would hope that my immediate family members that don't contact me very much would realise that they could've done more to help me:/

 

[angel_like_demon]

I just wish I could go away and everyone could forget about me. I don't want people to be sad or hurt.

 

[whereispeace]

No, not really. I'd rather be forgotten.

 

[Donk]

No. i want people to accept my death and move on with their lives.

 

[Starseedchip]

Yes and no. I want my mother to finally realize just how much her actions truly hurt me. The other part of me knows what it's like to feel so much pain and I don't want anyone even those who hurt me to feel that way. I just want my death to finally make those around me realize how serious it really was.

 

[134340]

I can definitely understand your line of thinking, OP. For me personally, I would love it if I could just erase my existence from people's minds. I don't want anyone to grieve or feel sorry/guilty/whatever. I don't want the end of my pain to be the beginning of someone else's; that's the only reason I haven't ctb yet.

 

[sadbunny]

definitely want some to suffer because of the pain they caused me

 

[thewhitedove29]

Is there anyone who has hurt you so much they may of contributed to you wanting to ctb. I have a world of pain an one of the people who have not helped and have made things worse is my husband. Part of me Hope's he is sorry and regrets his actions.

Yeah, my ex. We're not on a permanent break up... at least I don't think. I basically had a really, really bad mental health episode and I suppose he just didn't know what to do / didnt want to deal with it. He said he wanted time and space from me, Then this pandemic broke and my anxiety was going through the roof and I reached out to him because we were still in touch and supposed to be staying friends, only for him to reply coldly "you'll be fine" and "i'm not worried". it hurt that he wasn't there for me anymore and wasn't interested in my wellbeing. his ex cheated on him, yet after they broke up she was still coming over for him to take care of her while she was sick, and she still went out with him and they'd get drunk and sleep together again.. meanwhile we're on a break while he wants space, and then a fucking disease breaks out and he can't be assed to be there for me... ended up blocking me after sending 2 messages in reply to my whole breakdown. not having him give a shit anymore sent me spiraling way further and i fought to go and ctb that same night. i told him that i almost did, and then he blocked me. he's unblocked me now, but i blocked him back and have left it blocked for weeks. he is still in touch with me through 1 thin connection of my social medias which i left unblocked. i'm bitter and angry and i wish i could make him sorry. i want him to find out via a news headline from a small paper, or seeing my face in an article shared on facebook. i want him to fucking feel bad. i want him to regret not being there. i want him to see how coldhearted he has been, and how badly i was suffering and that he'll never be able to make up for it now. i want him to carry it for the rest of his life. i want him to have nightmares and not sleep at night because he'll dream of me. this is how much pain and anguish i'm in.

on the other hand, i want to live for the spite of my abusive family, who have no interest in me being alive and vice versa. i do not want them to get satisfaction of knowing i CTB. because i know it would satisfy my dad and my brother. i think perhaps my mother might be upset. but my brother will rejoice. i want to live and be successful and much richer than them while they sit on their ass where they are. i'm living out of spite for them as well as my life.

 

[ladolcemorte]

It isn't the main reason for my decision (I am doing this for myself--so that I can finally have peace and I don't really care what anyone else has to say because they aren't living this hell...), but yes, there is someone I would like to spite. The manager who was bullying me at work. The way he treated me did play a role in my decision to die (though it wasn't the primary factor), and I hope he realizes that and changes how he behaves toward his employees in the future. Of course, I realize this hope is in vain. People who are assholes tend to either be blissfully unaware of the fact that they are assholes, or they know they are assholes and they don't care or they are even proud of it.

But even though I know it is unrealistic, I definitely harbour a little bit of a death revenge fantasy. Just a little...

 

[Overnoutofhere]

Hell no, I do bot want to leave any pain or sorrow. This should be viewed as a personal choice, my opinion...