Is there anyone who has hurt you so much they may of contributed to you wanting to ctb. I have a world of pain an one of the people who have not helped and have made things worse is my husband. Part of me Hope's he is sorry and regrets his actions.
lostangel
Enlightened
- Mar 22, 2019
- 1,051
Yes, I really want people to be sorry for what they have done and said to me. This alone might actually give my death meaning. But in reality they don't care about who they hurt. They will move on quickly.
Yes this is very true.
In fact I would like my husband to find my body
In fact I would like my husband to find my body
blivogade
Member
- Nov 7, 2019
- 88
Yes i would say so, i see it as the only way anyone would recognise their wrong doings as my words dont seem to make any impact but unfortunately the thought of those people possibly pretending like they were my friend in life instead of realising what they did is enough for me to stubbornly stick around. lol.
disabledandhopeless
Enlightened
- Mar 1, 2020
- 1,893
Yes... but you know what they probably won't be sorry even after I'm dead
ohhgeeitsme
Wizard
- Feb 5, 2020
- 694
I sometimes get in these moods, but really, my CTB isn't due to any particular person. There are a lot of reasons that combined, are too overwhelming, but no one person is to blame. Sometimes they can contribute or make it worse. Some of these people, I still don't want to hurt but then there are two people I can think of that I don't care if they have major regrets because of it, but at the same time, I don't (usually) WANT them to.. just don't care either way.
WhiteEyes
always late
- Jan 20, 2020
- 67
highlyvolatile
I don't know anymore.
- Feb 14, 2020
- 278
gnomeboy17
Specialist
- Feb 11, 2020
- 355
Yes, I think many people who mistreat me in every day life will feel sorry after my death, but don't notice my current sadness. I get that it may sound selfish but I honestly think they deserve to suffer like I have
Erdapfel
I am a german potato
- Feb 19, 2020
- 48
I can understand your train of thought. If you've been hurt by someone and you're in a more or less hopeless situation because of it, it's an incredibly satisfying idea to put the perpetrators before the ultimatum, that you simply commit suicide when a certain misconduct is done to you . So if the perpetrators care about your life, then they must either live with the consequences that some of their victims might commit suicide, or change their behavior so that no one feels compelled to end their lives anymore. In that case, suicide can provide a basis for negotiation in an otherwise hopeless situation.
This strategy naturally assumes that the other side will be influenced accordingly by your suicide. It would be a waste if you would commit a suicide out of protest and nobody would care about it. The strategy also requires that certain demands are made clear, so that the perpetrators can know how to improve their wrongdoing accordingly. I suspect it is important to make realistic demands and to look for an audience with sufficient cognitive capacities to be able to implement them.
This strategy naturally assumes that the other side will be influenced accordingly by your suicide. It would be a waste if you would commit a suicide out of protest and nobody would care about it. The strategy also requires that certain demands are made clear, so that the perpetrators can know how to improve their wrongdoing accordingly. I suspect it is important to make realistic demands and to look for an audience with sufficient cognitive capacities to be able to implement them.
Ideally, no!
But my situation is very different from yours. My main reasons for ctb are my poor health and my despair at how wicked the world is.
But my situation is very different from yours. My main reasons for ctb are my poor health and my despair at how wicked the world is.
absolutely, but im scared people who did nothing wrong will feel sorry too
Dead beat dad
Enlightened
- Mar 5, 2019
- 1,030
Lots of people have hurt me and in their own way have contributed to the feeling of desire to ctb.
Most of these people are just ignorant, selfish and/or stupid in their own way, but not deliberately conniving or negligent, just busy living a life that centres around their needs not mine.
As angry as I am, I alway belive that love is the only thing that can beat hate.
In a sad way that is the lamentable misery of my situation that of all the people in this world I should hate, the one I hate most is myself.
I reflect a lot on the death I deserve, not the death I need (and who doesn't like a good Batman quote?).
Peace sister
DBD
antler
Member
- Feb 23, 2020
- 46
The people who have mistreated me wouldn't feel bad if I killed myself, they'd feel victorious. They're half the reason I'm still here. Stubbornly opposing them with my existence. So I hope those fucking pricks never find out that I've ctb. I don't want to give them the satisfaction.
"In a sad way that is the lamentable misery of my situation that of all the people in this world I should hate, the one I hate most is myself."
Heavy words and a heavy burden you carry @Dead beat dad
Heavy words and a heavy burden you carry @Dead beat dad
Dead beat dad
Enlightened
- Mar 5, 2019
- 1,030
As an old teacher of mine used to say:
"you can't polish a turd"
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Clut
Member
- Feb 28, 2020
- 68
Not really. I think the only good thing that would come from it would be investigations and for the police/courts whoever to see that I tried so hard and for so long to get help to stay alive and was ignored, in the hope it might change things for some people who are begging for help and not getting it. But seeing how many people are ctbing in the UK after being failed by the system and nothing changes, I doubt that will happen just because another nameless person has died
LonelyHeart
Just Do It
- Mar 11, 2020
- 14
waterbottleman
Not a person
- Sep 30, 2019
- 721
No, honestly if I could I'd prefer the memory of me to be wiped out from everyone who knows me so that I could just disappear without a trace.
Theres nobody to be angry at in my life, rather I suffer from the opposite problem. I've lived as a ghost to the point that there's no one to even give me enough attention for them to do bad things to me.
Lol maybe I'm so unnoticeable because I'm like that guy that movie Idiocracy who gets frozen and goes into the future. The guy was so average when it comes to every trait he particularly didn't stand out so he was the perfect fit for a military experiment where he had to disappear for a long time lol.
Theres nobody to be angry at in my life, rather I suffer from the opposite problem. I've lived as a ghost to the point that there's no one to even give me enough attention for them to do bad things to me.
Lol maybe I'm so unnoticeable because I'm like that guy that movie Idiocracy who gets frozen and goes into the future. The guy was so average when it comes to every trait he particularly didn't stand out so he was the perfect fit for a military experiment where he had to disappear for a long time lol.
Don't get me wrong, I do understand your sentiment BUT imo simply wanting people to feel guilty is the completely wrong motivation to ctb
sadgirl2002
Fallen Angel
- Apr 9, 2019
- 452
Yes, pretty much everyone such as family, so-called friends, all the people who bullied me and hated me for no reason. Literally, every single person in my life but most of all, my so-called best friend/sister of 8 years who used and betrayed me and ruined my life. Although, I would also prefer if no one knew I died.
gnomeboy17
Specialist
- Feb 11, 2020
- 355
Yeah, I know it sounds selfish and down right horrible. But when you've been mistreated it's difficult to see it from a nicer point of view. Some people have been really horrible to me and part of the reason I want to ctb. They don't even feel sorry for what they do now, but they will when I'm dead.
terry_a_davis
Warlock
- Dec 28, 2019
- 707
Pryras
Last hope
- Feb 11, 2020
- 516
Oh I have to answer this question, perfect timing actually because I have been thinking about this for a while now.
Someone hurt me and all I wanted was for them to understand the gravity of their actions. I hoped that once I passed they would reflect and regret but that is not the reality. They won't care, the may be shocked temporarily. You'd be suprised how void of empathy people can be.
Someone hurt me and all I wanted was for them to understand the gravity of their actions. I hoped that once I passed they would reflect and regret but that is not the reality. They won't care, the may be shocked temporarily. You'd be suprised how void of empathy people can be.
Yes I feel the same and it's true people rarely see their actions.
And I know I will just be seen as selfish
Nottoohotlatte
Melatonin & Tequila
- Mar 10, 2020
- 16
"Sorry" for me absolutely not. In the contrary. I hope they realize I am at peace.
I would be thankful if they came to the realization that suicide should not be such a taboo. If it weren't then maybe they couldv'e sat and listened to me about my choice before my final moments.
Sending love to all of you, XO
I would be thankful if they came to the realization that suicide should not be such a taboo. If it weren't then maybe they couldv'e sat and listened to me about my choice before my final moments.
Sending love to all of you, XO
Manicpixiedreamlast
Member
- Mar 10, 2020
- 25
No, CTB is my choice. I rather like the saying - it's like drinking poison expecting the other person to die.
LosinIt20
What’s the point in living if you can’t be alive
- Mar 8, 2020
- 50
My parents hate my entire being. I want them to feel sorry for abandoning me and shutting me out when I begged for their love for years. I want them to pain but for some reason I doubt it would mean anything
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