Does anyone struggle with an everlasting loneliness?

[Utter_emptiness]

I think I'm one of those people in life who has never ever had a close friend. A person i can walk around campus with. A person I can open up to. Someone who loves me for who I am. A friend who I can call when i'm about to slit my wrists. Just anyone. I hate this crushing inexplicable loneliness and frankly I dont get it. I've seen the worst people in existence have a bunch of friends they can count on. So why isn't it me?

 

[jodes2]

I haven't had a friend in 20 years. My social anxiety makes me kill conversations and decline chances to meet up with people. I just can't get close with anyone. Wish I had a friend.

 

[yeksovaz]

Absolutely. I am constantly surrounded by people but I am very lonely. I think it might be in our blood or something

 

[lonelyguy]

All through high school, had classmates and people i was around at school but spent every weekend home never having contact with them. College same thing. I'm 47 now and had tons of coworkers but never developed friendships with them outside the workplace. Only social interactions my entire life have involved family functions. Never had a relationship. For all my life I put on the fake smile and went about my day. Everyone at work would always say "your life is great, it's stress free". Little did they know I would dread going to work on Monday morning and people would ask what did you do on the weekend. I would always make stuff up. Even when I'm around people it's just a feeling of emptiness. I see people laughing enjoying each others company and all i can think of is what's the point of any of this.

I'm at a point in my life where anxiety and depression keeps me from going out and meeting new people. I don't even know how to be a friend to someone

 

[immrw]

Had a best friend in middle school/start of high school. When I opened up about my depression, she sorta ghosted me and the friend group went with her.

Haven't had someone I'd truly call a "friend" since tbh. I'm not sure if that experience was traumatic, but it left a mark and now I have trouble talking with people. No matter what I do, I can't feel "close" to someone. I watch Broad City and wish for a friendship like that. I can go days without people reaching out to me. I oscillate between desperately wanting a friend and just accepting it won't happen.

 

[katara]

I've only ever had a couple of friends in my life, but never a BFF or anything like that. I've never even had sex. The two friends I had are both gone now, I made both on them in elementary school but one left because she moved. So basically neither stayed around. I tired making a friend on here actually, but she stopped messaging me so I thought she left the site, turns out she's still here she just ignored my message. I gave her my discord because I wanted to be friends with her...
People always seem to do this to me, it's made me hate humanity. Seems like nobody cares about anybody. I'm really sorry to hear you have to deal with this, being truly alone, having nobody to call in your lowest moment. You deserve a friend, just remember that.
It might not mean much but if you ever want maybe we could talk sometime

 

[Darkover]

i was devastated at 18 years old after a 2 and half year relationship breakup left heart broken and extremely lonely i never did recover from that not had sex for 18 years now there's no such thing as love just a one sided chemical addiction

 

[𝐒𝐚𝐤𝐮 ☆]

Loneliness sucks, so I created a tulpa, I think I'm done trying to fit in.

 

[Mickafromloz]

Loneliness sucks, so I created a tulpa, I think I'm done trying to fit in.

How do you do that? Did it work?

 

[𝐒𝐚𝐤𝐮 ☆]

How do you do that? Did it work?

Just by believing very hard, I can feel her touch and being hug, better than nothing I guess

 

[fuzzy-clown]

I don't have friends right now. I have a few acquaintances online, but it still feels super lonely.
I'm not good at holding conversations, or being fun to be around. I wish I had developed social skills growing up.

 

[imtryingmybest]

I often feel just the same. What I think is the root cause of it for me is not having someone who I feel anyone to talk about heavy subjects, especially heavy personal subjects such as my mental health struggles. So primarily (for me), I think it stems from not feeling understood and not feeling heard.

 

[raumzeit]

Yes, loneliness is a problem for me. I haven't had a genuine connection with anyone outside of my immediate family for years. Working from home made things worse. Connecting with coworkers is hard. There's always an invisible barrier between people in the workplace, it's impossible to be yourself in a corporate environment.

Posting online is a bad replacement for IRL relationships. It's just not the same. I'm still glad that the internet is a thing. Otherwise, I'd have gone insane from loneliness a long time ago.

 

[AloneInCollege]

Loneliness is the most common emotion I feel. It's utterly crushing.

 

[stermc]

I feel lonely even when I am with people. Sometimes I like being alone, I enjoy my own company, but not feeling lonely all the time.

 

[Nights]

I do, i never had friends since i was 9 year old, it's just a bit boring and makes me feel like i need to belong to something, but eventually you get used for that