Does anyone miss who they used to be?

[KiraLittleOwl]

I am still myself, but I miss my happy side. It's gone

 

[Xunnsu]

Most definitely. I think about it a lot.

 

[RepressedMind]

Yes, I actually miss what I was a couple of weeks ago and even back then I didn't enjoy life, but at least I felt I had a purpose and I was moving forward in the right direction. I was working out, I was programming, doing math and at least there was something to keep me afloat.

Now I just lost all that and I've been traumatized by the last couple of weeks, it only feels like I finally got some mental relief today and I am extremely thankful for that.

If I had to chose a couple of weeks ago, I would have to go back to middle school, use my math abilities to get into a nicer high school and just do everything differently. Because some mistakes just keep haunting you back, no matter how far away you are now from them. And they drag you down and the more you improve yourself, the worst it feels when you're forced back down.

 

[Bardia]

Yes. I used to believe in myself, and have confidence in the future. I was still usually depressed, but at least I had that: hope in what I could accomplish and that things could get better.

Now it's dust and ashes.

 

[terry_a_davis]

I've changed and my life has changed a lot, I have some better qualities now but I damaged my life and I can't go back. So yes I miss some aspects of the old me and my old life.

 

[WinterFaust]

Terribly. I was always severely depressed but at least I knew how to have fun and distract myself. I mourn for the hopes that I used to have.

 

[peacefully31425]

There wasn't much of me to begin with, but yeah, I do miss who I was 4-5 years ago. It wasn't perfect, but it sure was better than this.

 

[K-O]

I PUT A LOT OF ENERGY INTO VIEWING MY DIFFERENT 'PASTS' AS HOLE CHAPTERS, BUBBLES IN THE WIND.. SO I CAN RESPECT, MOURN, FORGIVE, ENJOY, LOVE.. ETC.. 'MY PREVIOUS AND CURRENT SELF' ..
TBH IF I WOULDN'T HAVE TAUGHT 'MYSELF' THAT FROM A VERY YOUNG AGE I WOULD HAVE BE LONG GONE.. I HAD NO ONE TO 'DEFEND ME'..
IF I 'LOVED MYSELF' MAYBE I WOULD FEEL I HAVE THE RIGHT TO HAVE SOMETHING FOR 'MY SELF'..
SO THIS ONES DEDICATED TO YOU'ALL THAT 'MISS WHO YOU USED TO BE' MAYBE IT WILL HELP MERGE YOU BACK..
X

 

[mpnf]

All the time except when I'm asleep , I think of the times when I felt normal.

 

[Lara Francis]

I only wish that I could even remember who I used to be!

 

[Bardia]

I only wish that I could even remember who I used to be!

I only wish I couldn't.

 

[Bardia]

Thank you for the hug, kind stranger.

 

[Walilamdzi]

Yes, very much so.

 

[darkhorse256]

I can relate. My memory was amazing and I didn't have trauma. I had a good career outlook and I had friends. I wasn't a burden to everyone.

 

[I’mDone]

I keep thinking about 8 years ago when I was normal I actually enjoyed things and was optimistic about the future. I was a bit socially awkward, but at least I didn't have health problems or depression.

Oh hell yes. I had a career, great salary, large house, hobbies. But it was a castle built on sand. My childhood/upbringing caused so much damage that eventually I couldn't repress the memories any more. And once Pandora's box was open, it was all over for me. Can't shut the box again, can't cope with what came out of it.

 

[Notabadguy]

Yes, I miss myself before feeling suicidal.

 

[Billicide]

Yes! Before my health suddenly and drastically declined I was a happy and optimistic person.