cscott
Awaiting for life’s end ☠️
- Jun 22, 2023
- 248
Sometimes I can't wrap my head around this..?
I've always had suicidal thoughts pop up from young & I've always seen the somewhat meaningless in life & felt trapped .. and reaching this level I'm ok with the end is death & that's just it..
But I just can't believe sometimes reaching this final level ..? & feeling like it really is MY responsibility to take myself out if I want out or keep living in this reality that feels like a dream.. sometimes I feel so tired from within I very much just wonder why doesn't our consciousnesses/our brain where all of this takes place just shut up down & surrender itself by itself seen as it's pretty much dead already ?
I've always had suicidal thoughts pop up from young & I've always seen the somewhat meaningless in life & felt trapped .. and reaching this level I'm ok with the end is death & that's just it..
But I just can't believe sometimes reaching this final level ..? & feeling like it really is MY responsibility to take myself out if I want out or keep living in this reality that feels like a dream.. sometimes I feel so tired from within I very much just wonder why doesn't our consciousnesses/our brain where all of this takes place just shut up down & surrender itself by itself seen as it's pretty much dead already ?
