_Minsk
death: the cure for life
- Dec 9, 2019
- 1,135
I wish i could keep going but i feel like my battery is stuck at 5-10% and charges very slowly. At times the battery fails completely and im just laying on my bed with my thoughts pondering over the same problems over and over but there's no solution for some stuff.
The only things that somewhat hold me here are my mom and a few friends. I gladly don't have kids or very close people in real life.
I got my method ready to go and have planed to go on Friday-sunday but after I've met my mom last week to somehow prepare her for my exit, i felt sad about my plans.
Shes kinda understanding but she struggles as well to some degree, i can't really predict the impact.
Health-wise im done, I'm tired of being stuck with my depressing health issues. I really don't want to keep going for another year like this and tbh i doubt i would be able to anyway.
It totally sucks, I've thought about visiting my mom once again and giving her my savings, some small belongings and a note (stating that its not her fault, she couldn't have changed it, she's a good mom, etc). I really hate this situation and its the last thing i would want to do to them, but honestly, I can't keep going anymore, i absolutely hate this life and seeing how little progress i can make makes me feel even more discouraged..
Beside this, i feel too depressed for most things, especially social stuffs.
Anyone going through the same situation?
The only things that somewhat hold me here are my mom and a few friends. I gladly don't have kids or very close people in real life.
I got my method ready to go and have planed to go on Friday-sunday but after I've met my mom last week to somehow prepare her for my exit, i felt sad about my plans.
Shes kinda understanding but she struggles as well to some degree, i can't really predict the impact.
Health-wise im done, I'm tired of being stuck with my depressing health issues. I really don't want to keep going for another year like this and tbh i doubt i would be able to anyway.
It totally sucks, I've thought about visiting my mom once again and giving her my savings, some small belongings and a note (stating that its not her fault, she couldn't have changed it, she's a good mom, etc). I really hate this situation and its the last thing i would want to do to them, but honestly, I can't keep going anymore, i absolutely hate this life and seeing how little progress i can make makes me feel even more discouraged..
Beside this, i feel too depressed for most things, especially social stuffs.
Anyone going through the same situation?
