Does anyone have dreams of themselves CTBing

[esoterispeec]

I had a dream last night and I woke up scared. We shouldn't have to go through the process of suicide, we should just have never been born.

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

Can never do anything like that in a dream like if I am fighting someone in a dream my punches are really slow like I am punching through thick water.

 

[DarkWolf]

I had dream that I that euthansia was made legal and I was put down with a lethal injection best dream I ever had. I woke up smiling then I remembered it's not real.
I also had a dream I went back to BH but i actually jump.

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

There was this one where I was taking a stroll down the beach at sunset, looking for a tree that I could hang myself from. The ambience was pleasant–meditative calm infused with a hint of nostalgia—to the point of almost being romantic. I took my sweet time drinking in the view and looking for the 'perfect' tree until it became too dark to continue, and the trees' crowns were submerged by high tide. My search was fruitless. I have long wondered what the take-home message was. By pointing out the flaws in my character, perhaps it served as a warning—they say perfectionism is an enemy of progress, and procrastination the assassin of opportunity. On the day the bus comes to pick me up, I pray that I will be steadfast in doing what needs to be done.

 

[VanishingAct]

I had a dream last night that I attempted to CTB but missed it and my friends couldn't work out why I was so distraught and not quite with it (OD).
I woke up crying and wanting to CTB even more

 

[UterEntonaur]

Can never do anything like that in a dream like if I am fighting someone in a dream my punches are really slow like I am punching through thick water.

Yeah, and if you try to run away.... it's almost like you forgot how to use your legs? I hate that....

 

[Thegoldenapples]

I dream that I'm saying bye to old friends and preparing. Then the other night I dreamt that someone opened my N and freaked out because it was exposed to air and wasn't sealed right. Then I went through all the mental stress of having to get it again. Was a nightmare. Cbt is pretty fixated in my head.

 

[hfdepression30]

I have Aphantasia so visually I can't see my dreams. When I do 'dream', it's usually just recounting a memory from the past - mostly in a narrative, but with feelings and emotions. Usually not good ones either. It's kind hell that I can't even escape into my own thoughts to forget about life even for a moment.

 

[Aloken]

Some months ago when I had the urge to just fall off of my building,
I used to dream of my fall from there in the night. I never crashed though, I was just falling.

A few days ago I saw a peculiar dream. I was out in the countryside and there was a man who had some kittens in his hands and was eating their faces. He hadn't noticed me or he wasn't
interested in me. Until I saw what he was doing and I couldn't let him continue doing that. I immediately approached him, tried to see if the kittens were alright and I attacked him and tried to save them. He started chasing me around the countryside and I was running to get away. Not far away was a manor. I went in there. I found a room which seemed to be an office
of someone in the mafia or someone up in the ranks of a business, who is corrupt and unsurprisingly a mafia leader too. Lots of guns everywhere, ridiculously expensive furniture, light coming through the curtains and the expensive windows. The man was still trying to find me and I left the manor. I somehow found myself almost immediately in a poor or middle-class neighborhood in a city. I was climbing the buildings using the clothes that were hanging from the terraces to dry. It was very cool, a nice experience. I felt like spiderman. But I couldn't escape. I suddenly found myself in that room in the manor again, only this time there
were people there. I was in a simulation before in that neighborhood, I never was there in reality. I never escaped the manor and I was never far away from the bad guys. It was an illusion. I immediately took a gun, put it on my temple and pulled the trigger, but alas, I was still alive like nothing happened, like I never pulled the trigger. I couldn't kill myself. I wasn't allowed to. I realized this and I woke up. A pretty bizarre dream.

 

[Some1's_Wasted_Fetus]

I've had several dreams that I took my own life using a firearm. I drifted off into nothingness, or I guess what my brain thought happens after death. It was so peaceful, even if it was just a dream. I had no body, no thoughts, just consciousness and while it seems scary. It was not at all terrifying in the dream. I had no feelings of anxiety or depression. I was just there in darkness and nothingness. No worries, no feelings of hopelessness, just pure bliss. Then I woke up and wished to myself why on earth I had to wake up and why it had to be a dream. Ever since I've had these dreams I'm fairly certain when I do ctb it'll be with a firearm instead

 

[Luchs]

I had a dream last night and I woke up scared. We shouldn't have to go through the process of suicide, we should just have never been born.

I try to sometimes, but I can't die in my dreams. If I jump off somewhere I just float downwards or bounce like I am made of rubber, if I try to hang myself it is like I am so light that I can't pupl the noose shut, I am completely invulnrrable to shots or stabs.

I don't think that the problem is being born, but living in a world that makes peoppe want to CTB en masse. I don't understand why some people never want to CTB, even in tough situations, but I think us being mentally wired to desire it is a problem.

 

[WornOutLife]

Yes, I've been trying to have lucid dreams these days and in one of them I "kinda" realized I was dreaming and said "Okay. let's ctb to see what it feels like" and got drown in a sea! It was so painful that I ended up waking up and breathing very rapidly.

Also, I'm having some dreams on which I die by an accident or a thief killiling me.
Last week I received a headshot and I remember being conscious while I was slowly dying. So weird!

I guess death loves me so much that it even follows me in my dreams!

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I dream of CTB. The desire to not be here anymore is locked in my subconscious mind which can explain why it manifests in my dreams. Its probably because I fear most methods.
I do have this fantasy where I jump off a cliff and my whole existence is erased which I have dreamt about.

 

[Aeathelina]

Recently I have been having quite vivid dreams of suicide.
Falling to my death in a peaceful manner or dying in an alley way watching people walk by while I'm going unnoticed