Does anyone else wishes to get worse mentally?

[Salkak]

I don't know why I wish that my mental health gets worse. When I was really at a bad place mentally, I had stopped caring about other . But rn I am stuck caring about what will happen to my family. I just wish I could get sicker so that I can finally ctb

 

[NeuroAtypical]

I feel you, I've felt something like that before so you're not alone there. I used to feel like I wanted more drive to go through with it.
I'm hoping it's helpful in some way to hear.
Sending love

 

[Winry]

Perhaps it is not so much wishing for your mental health to get worse, as it is wanting the strength to go through with CTB without worrying how it will affect others. I can fully empathize with that feeling and I understand what you mean. It is hard to leave this realm knowing that our departure might be putting those we care about at a disadvantage. I hope that this is something you can reconcile with time as I am still working on it myself. Best wishes to you.

 

[a4001]

Definitely, been feeling like that for a while now. For what it's worth it's kinda a self fulfilling prophecy, wanting to get worse and then isolating in response to that kinda puts us on the path already.

 

[Dinozauria]

All the time
I heard many other people feel this way too from what I've seen online. It's a weird feeling for sure. Don't know why it happens but you're definitely not alone in that feeling <3

 

[sla_porra22]

I don't know why I wish that my mental health gets worse. When I was really at a bad place mentally, I had stopped caring about other . But rn I am stuck caring about what will happen to my family. I just wish I could get sicker so that I can finally ctb

I'm currently wishing for that too. But not because of my family, but because I was a jerk to someone I love very much. I feel like I deserve all the misfortune that happens to me and much more

 

[Salkak]

I feel you, I've felt something like that before so you're not alone there. I used to feel like I wanted more drive to go through with it.
I'm hoping it's helpful in some way to hear.
Sending love

I am feeling exactly this.

Perhaps it is not so much wishing for your mental health to get worse, as it is wanting the strength to go through with CTB without worrying how it will affect others. I can fully empathize with that feeling and I understand what you mean. It is hard to leave this realm knowing that our departure might be putting those we care about at a disadvantage. I hope that this is something you can reconcile with time as I am still working on it myself. Best wishes to you.

Thanks

Definitely, been feeling like that for a while now. For what it's worth it's kinda a self fulfilling prophecy, wanting to get worse and then isolating in response to that kinda puts us on the path already.

I have been isolating myself.