Does anyone else wish something else would kill them?

[existenceissuffering]

My family is wonderful so I wish I didn't have to do this to them, but I have no other choice. Death is the only way out. I wish something else would kill me instead, maybe a car accident or something.

 

[Chinaski]

Yeah, constantly. Wake in the morning, world slides into focus and it's a punch in the gut. The only thing stitching me together is cowardice and I'd be very grateful for an external intervention.

 

[Lunar]

I mean I think apart of me would like to be in control of my own death. I feel like so much is out of my control already but that doesn't stop me from having these fantasies about something else killing me. I've been in a car crash when I was younger, unfortunately it wasn't severe enough since I'm obviously still here.

 

[Final Escape]

Oh yes, it would be amazing to find out I have a fast progressing deadly disease with no cure. Scary and painful but what a relief to know u only got like 6 months.

 

[Nanimoaru]

Yes,
But I still have this fear of the great unknown

 

[Dead_Inside]

I want someone to just kill me. Saves me the expense, and then I can be that poor person who got killed.
Then at least someone will be focused on me for a second. Would be nice.
And while I know it would hurt and I would be scared- then it would just be over.
I drink and walk in bad neighborhoods to try ... but think I must look like I want it ...

 

[bigj75]

A disease that would kill me off and is incurable. Non painful.

Heart attack that kills me quick.

Maybe something bad ass like save a child from something and sacrifice myself to save them.

But I'll have to settle for offing myself it looks like.

 

[DeathBecomesMe]

My necks been oddly sore for a few days now, doesn't feel like it's the muscle meat though. I'm kinda holding thumbs that it's a tumour of some sort. Odds are slim, but a guy can hope right!

Makes me think I should just give myself cancer, it's not that hard. I feel that for most of us here, maybe a slow but fast disease is more desirable than say a violent car accident. Hopefully if we have a slow but fast moving disease, we can just end up OD'ing on the opiates or morphine that we are prescribed/given. Cancer in general is horrible though, I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy, unless they wanted to ctb of course.

 

[Dead_Inside]

A disease that would kill me off and is incurable. Non painful.

Heart attack that kills me quick.

Maybe something bad ass like save a child from something and sacrifice myself to save them.

But I'll have to settle for offing myself it looks like.

My necks been oddly sore for a few days now, doesn't feel like it's the muscle meat though. I'm kinda holding thumbs that it's a tumour of some sort. Odds are slim, but a guy can hope right!

Makes me think I should just give myself cancer, it's not that hard. I feel that for most of us here, maybe a slow but fast disease is more desirable than say a violent car accident. Hopefully if we have a slow but fast moving disease, we can just end up OD'ing on the opiates or morphine that we are prescribed/given. Cancer in general is horrible though, I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy, unless they wanted to ctb of course.

.... and so you are probably nice and healthy. Going to live to be 115 ...

 

[bigj75]

.... and so you are probably nice and healthy. Going to live to be 115 ...

Living to be 115 in the condition I'm in would be hell.

 

[DeathBecomesMe]

.... and so you are probably nice and healthy. Going to live to be 115 ...

Worst assumption ever! But you're probably right. Although since I've been in the gutter for over 6 months now I am definitely shaving years off of my life span with the hermit life and massive bed hours. At this rate I will contract a terminal disease by 40 but fuck that,15 years is eons away.

 

[Duqu]

I wish I had enough money to put out a contract on my own life. Just pay someone to shoot me. One of my favourite book series is called the Dresden Files by Jim Butcher and the main character puts in a debt with a guy who kills for a living to kill him so it looks like he's been assassinated so he doesn't have to do something really awful that he signed up for anyway I don't want to give away the plot. It's toward the end of the series (it's not done yet; anxiously awaiting another book!).

 

[MAIO]

My family is wonderful so I wish I didn't have to do this to them, but I have no other choice. Death is the only way out. I wish something else would kill me instead, maybe a car accident or something.

Ehh just make it look accidental. It's actually super easy. I was drinking and tripped off a cliff etc

 

[Ben]

Yes! I'm so confrontational when it comes to dangerous situations.

I've been in 3 bar fights in the last 3 weeks.

If I see somebody looking at me weird, and I'm drunk, I start trouble

I know that's not nice...but when I drink, I see solutions that make sense to me that don't make sense when I'm sober.

I don't look up at crosswalks either.

 

[John Doe]

I wish I had enough money to put out a contract on my own life. Just pay someone to shoot me. One of my favourite book series is called the Dresden Files by Jim Butcher and the main character puts in a debt with a guy who kills for a living to kill him so it looks like he's been assassinated so he doesn't have to do something really awful that he signed up for anyway I don't want to give away the plot. It's toward the end of the series (it's not done yet; anxiously awaiting another book!).

That's also my dream. There should be a place where sadist could find us. I'm still looking. If someone knows, just tell me.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

My family is wonderful so I wish I didn't have to do this to them, but I have no other choice. Death is the only way out. I wish something else would kill me instead, maybe a car accident or something.

I have wished that for years and nothing ever happens. :(

 

[Trashcan]

Yes. I so wish my heart would just randomly stop while I was exercising one day or something.

 

[deathbycakes]

Oh yes, it would be amazing to find out I have a fast progressing deadly disease with no cure. Scary and painful but what a relief to know u only got like 6 months.

this is what i'm hoping for too

 

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[xBones]

My family is wonderful so I wish I didn't have to do this to them, but I have no other choice. Death is the only way out. I wish something else would kill me instead, maybe a car accident or something.

Everyday. I hate the thought of breaking their hearts like that.

 

[Chris]

My family is wonderful so I wish I didn't have to do this to them, but I have no other choice. Death is the only way out. I wish something else would kill me instead, maybe a car accident or something.

I wish I could die saving another person's life

 

[Miss clefable]

I wish I could die saving another person's life

This

 

[Lunar]

It would be nice if life force (for lack of a better descriptor) could be traded. I would give it to someone who wanted to live. I can die, they can live.

 

[PatKat]

My family is wonderful so I wish I didn't have to do this to them, but I have no other choice. Death is the only way out. I wish something else would kill me instead, maybe a car accident or something.

Thats why I smoke cigarettes to have that .02% chance increase for cancer

 

[RacilyDank]

All the time. I wish I would have a heart attack or an aneurysm. Then it wouldn't be my fault, just unfortunate.

People would grieve but they wouldn't hold it against me or wonder what they could've done. I think they'd get over it a lot more quickly.

 

[MEoDP]

Yes! I'm so confrontational when it comes to dangerous situations.

I've been in 3 bar fights in the last 3 weeks.

If I see somebody looking at me weird, and I'm drunk, I start trouble

I know that's not nice...but when I drink, I see solutions that make sense to me that don't make sense when I'm sober.

I don't look up at crosswalks either.

Gotta admit,this is definitely one way to go about it. However,you're more likely to end up crippled and helpless in the hospital from this approach than dying. (unless you're doing this in an exceptionally dangerous place,like a biker-bar in a crime-infested town.)

Just giving you a heads-up.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

It would be nice if life force (for lack of a better descriptor) could be traded. I would give it to someone who wanted to live. I can die, they can live.

I have prayed for that to happen to me as well... (Doesn't Work) :( So many people want to live but they have their lives taken or ended. I just want to trade them.

 

[windingdown]

I'd be delighted to have a fast-progressing degenerative disease. I think it would be ideal to be aware of passing from living to dying, rather than have it be sudden, with little to no awareness. It also gives you time to set everything in order, say goodbye to people and so on. I've done some online research on whether it's possible to deliberately contract a terminal disease, but I haven't had any luck so far.

If anyone has any tips (I'm not holding my breath) (and no I don't mean smoking or becoming obese, etc ; ) I'd love to hear!

Also, I wouldn't even mind so much if it were something slow and degrading like ALS. I would just stop eating and drinking (VSED). No one would section me, and people would understand I think, and perhaps provide palliative care.

 

[sky7]

I would love to be in a car accident, as long as it wasn't my fault and it instanteously killed me, that way I wouldn't leave anyone with potential guilt of my suicide. Or shot in a Walmart parking lot, that would be okay too

 

[Swisher]

Yeah, constantly. Wake in the morning, world slides into focus and it's a punch in the gut. The only thing stitching me together is cowardice and I'd be very grateful for an external intervention.

Every morning....realization....my God...cannot stand it