MyChoiceAlone
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- Jul 23, 2023
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i saw i documentary. no i dea how valid it was. there seems to be countries where you can hire one? whether or not they will give you what you want is not known
Same. Wanting to die and having a brain tumor that is useless in assisting with that is actually quite infuriating.Very unfortunate. I wish it would kill me but it won't.
Yes it is. I get sick of my life with so much hardships. I M constantly being tortured by mind. It wont let me liveSame. Wanting to die and having a brain tumor that is useless in assisting with that is actually quite infuriating.
I can relate to that, completely. I'm sorry that life has not been more kind to you. My life is a constant state of hardship, and has been as long as I can remember. There's no light at the end of that tunnel, and I'm tired.Yes it is. I get sick of my life with so much hardships. I M constantly being tortured by mind. It wont let me live
Its my own fault. I had multiple opportunities to take jobs that were offered to me. I didnt take it and got worse at home. I am in an emotional hell. Now getting no job offers. Now I feel too low. Not eating, haven't slept in days everyday is just struggling with problems in head which are like 50 to solve. If I'd done things differently I'd be ok now.I can relate to that, completely. I'm sorry that life has not been more kind to you. My life is a constant state of hardship, and has been as long as I can remember. There's no light at the end of that tunnel, and I'm tired.
I get bad headaches, feel sick can't eat due to the stress, my eyes hurt aswell from the stress. There is no light at the end of the tunnel there is no tunnel. I hate how I have got myself so lowIts my own fault. I had multiple opportunities to take jobs that were offered to me. I didnt take it and got worse at home. I am in an emotional hell. Now getting no job offers. Now I feel too low. Not eating, haven't slept in days everyday is just struggling with problems in head which are like 50 to solve. If I'd done things differently I'd be ok now.
While you may have 50 problems to solve no matter what; you don't have to solve them all right now. A stupid cliche, I know - I apologize. You're in a bad headspace, your mind is racing, and you're clearly under quite a lot of pressure. It's a vicious cycle, with each aspect playing off another. My stress also manifests in ways that effect my physical health in similar ways; clearly I'm an emotionally driven person. You aren't alone.Its my own fault. I had multiple opportunities to take jobs that were offered to me. I didnt take it and got worse at home. I am in an emotional hell. Now getting no job offers. Now I feel too low. Not eating, haven't slept in days everyday is just struggling with problems in head which are like 50 to solve. If I'd done things differently I'd be ok now.
I get bad headaches, feel sick can't eat due to the stress, my eyes hurt aswell from the stress. There is no light at the end of the tunnel there is no tunnel. I hate how I have got myself so low
Thankyou yes my mind is racing. I know I will never be the girl I was precovid and I hate that now I am living in misery struggling whilst before covid I had none of these issues. Life was great I loved it. Not anymoreWhile you may have 50 problems to solve no matter what; you don't have to solve them all right now. A stupid cliche, I know - I apologize. You're in a bad headspace, your mind is racing, and you're clearly under quite a lot of pressure. It's a vicious cycle, with each aspect playing off another. My stress also manifests in ways that effect my physical health in similar ways; clearly I'm an emotionally driven person. You aren't alone.
It sounds bad but how unfortunate to have a tumour that will make you blind but not have the decency to kill you.I would do this. I used to be a prison officer before covid which killed me off. I remember a guy there who murdered a girl. He raped and murdered her. I felt so bad thinking she loved life etc. But where are the murderers when you need them I would say do it now kill me. But I have no such luck. We do get odd break ins where I live so I wi open the door to them.
I have a tumour on my brain after covid but sadly it won't kill me only make me blind if it grows.
I know right! It would be the perfect wayOf course, perfect solution:)
Same, sometimes I do this as well. I also think and wonder this. Why couldn't it have been me instead? I think fate and life and the universe are so cruel. People who love life die, and us who actually want to ctb cannot unless we take measures into our own hands.Sometimes I stand extra close to the platform when I'm waiting for the train and secretly want someone to push me down onto the rails as the train approaches. There was I think one or two recorded incidents of it happening at my train station recently and sometimes I wonder why it couldn't have been me.
My preferred way to go out of all time. I usually want it to be my partner. All my life, what has caused me the most misery is how deeply I feel misunderstood by the most meaningful people. To be understood on THAT deepest level would be so poetic I think.Does anyone else wish someone could just kill them? I wish someone could kill me so that I could die. Sometimes I think about hiring a hitman to kill me (even though I'm broke), but I can't trust this method because they might be an undercover agent and arrest me.
Ugh why is it so hard to dieā¦I really wish that someone could kill me (preferably accidentally). I want my death to look like an accident, but I would even want to get murdered to escape this world. I hate it so much