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Circles
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- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,297
Like I get so overwhelmed by all the stuff that I have to learn just to survive or all the things I need to know about just to keep myself from feeling like I'm drowning with fear. Like right now for example I'm listening to my mother making all these phone calls to doctor offices and such and I don't know the fucking first thing about how to do it or what to say without even stuttering with fear. And that's just one goddamn thing that would seem simple to most normal adults but not to me. I'm trying to learn more but it's like after a certain age and past a certain developmental stage in my life it's like I have a disability in learning how to be an adult. I don't know what to do besides think of suicide as my only way out from a future of constant failures and fears.