Discussion Does anyone else think about internet friends when planning to CTB?

[zer05mdy]

I've written a few suicide notes that I ended up getting rid of, but I always include instructions for my family to reach out to a couple people that I am close to over the internet, so they know what happens to me. Even if they don't care I thought it would be nice for them to at least know what happened to me. I've had a few internet friends go dark over the years, and the not knowing makes me sad, so I'd want the few people I'm close with but don't know me IRL to be aware at least.

Has anyone else thought about including some sort of instructions to contact internet friends, or have you ever heard via your internet friend's family that they CTB?

 

[Squiddy]

I've thought of a few which is a part of the reason why I'm still here.

 

[OhItsZemblanity]

I've thought about how to go about contacting the ones that matter. Some I haven't talked to in awhile due to time differences but occasionally I'll get a message from them on holidays and such. Figured I'd just leave instructions in a note to have the person reading send a message to em. Not that I had ctb, but to let em know that I had passed.

 

[RainAndSadness]

Yes, I have some internet friends and I will make sure they know what happened to me in case I ctb. I think it would be kinda cruel to just disappear and never come back again, leaving your friends in the dark about your fate. I want to be transparent about my passing when it happens, so they can find some closure and move on. I've had internet friends in the past that just disappeared and I wonder sometimes what happened to them. It's possible that some of them committed suicide and they just didn't feel the need to inform me about that. And that's okay. I'm not entitled to know that but I want to make sure people know about my situation, once I'm ready to leave.

 

[qwerty32]

I've thought about it too. Most importantly I thought about leaving one for someone special letting them know that it's not their fault and not think badly of my passing.
If thinking of passing on a note, perhaps hand written is best. If you fail the CTB and leave messages on social media, may be embarrassing having to explain the situation afterwards.

 

[134340]

I have a very close internet friend who I thought about mailing a a letter to (only once I'm 100000% sure I'll be going through with it, of course), but I don't like the idea of her thinking it's normal correspondence and finding out it's a suicide note, so I don't really know. Of course I want her to know what happened to me, but I don't want it to be such a shock like that. Maybe I'll have someone tell her over the phone first, then have the letter mailed out so she's prepared. I really don't know yet.

 

[Nem]

Heck, I was thinking of live streaming a decapitation on fb therefore no note would be needed. I don't know why that came to mind but when you're going through hell sometimes you just can't give a fuck
Peace/hugs

 

[Pallf]

My friends are online and I care for them, so I do factor that in my ctb decisions

 

[Erase.myself]

I have a very close internet friend who I thought about mailing a a letter to (only once I'm 100000% sure I'll be going through with it, of course), but I don't like the idea of her thinking it's normal correspondence and finding out it's a suicide note, so I don't really know. Of course I want her to know what happened to me, but I don't want it to be such a shock like that. Maybe I'll have someone tell her over the phone first, then have the letter mailed out so she's prepared. I really don't know yet.

I feel the same way. I've been thinking about getting friends and people I'm close with: their addresses. To send them a goodbye letter of what happened yet I feel the same way of I'd feel more shitty if they get excited to get mail from me and it's actually a letter from their dead friend. Fuck.

 

[zer05mdy]

I feel the same way. I've been thinking about getting friends and people I'm close with: their addresses. To send them a goodbye letter of what happened yet I feel the same way of I'd feel more shitty if they get excited to get mail from me and it's actually a letter from their dead friend. Fuck.

The problem I have it that my closest internet friend is super private and would never in a million years give me his address, so the only way he'd hear about my death is if I gave my family instructions on how to login to my Discord to send him a message. Lmao. Even if a couple of my other internet friends weren't anti-giving me their addresses, I think they would be way too skeptical behind whatever reasoning I have for needing it.

 

[WinterFaust]

Yes. The only two friends I have these days are online and I've been struggling with how I'm going to let them know. I wish I could have been better and held on for them but I just don't have the fight anymore, you know? I'm just tired.

 

[s1mplem3]

I'm sorry but I don't get the idea of the internet friends, I don't think virtual friends will ever replace ones in real life.

 

[zer05mdy]

I'm sorry but I don't get the idea of the internet friends, I don't think virtual friends will ever replace ones in real life.

Not all of us are lucky enough to have support IRL from friends/family. So maybe virtual friendships may not replace real life friendships, but it's something. :)

 

[s1mplem3]

Not all of us are lucky enough to have support IRL from friends/family. So maybe virtual friendships may not replace real life friendships, but it's something. :)

You're right, I just keep dreaming about friends in real life.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

The only consistent friend i have had for years now is an online friend since I dont seem to make irl friends easy. He is literally the only one who hasn't abandoned me after years of depression and going silent for weeks on end when i shut down so Ill definitely be sending him a delayed text about my ctb. Or ill give instructions for him to be contacted but regardless I definitely think intenet freinds are just as important as irl friends.

 

[The Dark Chaos]

I don't have any suchh friends yet but I'm hoping to find some here..

 

[ROKU]

I've written a few suicide notes that I ended up getting rid of, but I always include instructions for my family to reach out to a couple people that I am close to over the internet, so they know what happens to me. Even if they don't care I thought it would be nice for them to at least know what happened to me. I've had a few internet friends go dark over the years, and the not knowing makes me sad, so I'd want the few people I'm close with but don't know me IRL to be aware at least.

Has anyone else thought about including some sort of instructions to contact internet friends, or have you ever heard via your internet friend's family that they CTB?

yes, and also doctors with whom you have upcoming appointments, but mostly to your children who may not fully understand, but at least don't leave them with no words of your pain and your love for them.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I plan to have someone take over my social medias when I go so they can alert the few online friends I do have. Some of them I've known for over a decade and I feel they have as much right to know as anyone else.

 

[The Tablet]

I've written a few suicide notes that I ended up getting rid of, but I always include instructions for my family to reach out to a couple people that I am close to over the internet, so they know what happens to me. Even if they don't care I thought it would be nice for them to at least know what happened to me. I've had a few internet friends go dark over the years, and the not knowing makes me sad, so I'd want the few people I'm close with but don't know me IRL to be aware at least.

Has anyone else thought about including some sort of instructions to contact internet friends, or have you ever heard via your internet friend's family that they CTB?

i've written out letters to my current online friends, to be uploaded to a pastebin and sent before i ctb, yes. it's important to me that they know because i've been left out to rot by many people in the past, without any explanation whatsoever, and it feels terrible. so the least i can do is be straight up and honest, and actually tell them that i ctb.