Discussion does anyone else suffer with autism?

[strawberryfield]

living with autism is so hard. no friends, no life, i can't even leave the house without panicking anymore. i feel uncomfortable in my own body constantly and knowing that it's a lifelong disability and that i can't ever be normal hurts a lot.
my mom has struggled her whole life with autism, yet she still decided to have children so now i'm suffering in the exact same ways as her. it's obvious that my dad and half the people in my family have something wrong with them too.
i would love to know why people decide to have children when they know they're mentally/physcially ill. it's so selfish.

i've tried to get help for my issues but i've been told that "i don't have mental health issues" by my therapist, despite the fact that i've tried to kill myself and self harm regularly. they told me that it was "just autism". i've been told to just put objects into a box and touch them when i feel anxious/depressed too, which just proves how no one knows how to treat autistic people. and have any of you seen the jokes made about it?? most of us already have low self esteem, so seeing jokes being made about the thing that i have to suffer with everyday makes me so angry. does anyone else get treated differently? no wonder so many autistic people kill themselves.

 

[The_doomer]

can I ask what your quirks are? I don't have it myself but I read a lot about it to figure out if I do and it really sucks how they at best can try teaching you how neurotypicals work so you can go against your being and try mirroring everyone else.

 

[strawberryfield]

can I ask what your quirks are? I don't have it myself but I read a lot about it to figure out if I do and it really sucks how they at best can try teaching you how neurotypicals work so you can go against your being and try mirroring everyone else.

i'm not really sure what my quirks are. i try extremely hard to act like everyone else and i get hyperfixated on certain things. right now, it's my appearance and i really, really struggle with social interaction too :((

 

[Baguette]

living with autism is so hard. no friends, no life, i can't even leave the house without panicking anymore. i feel uncomfortable in my own body constantly and knowing that it's a lifelong disability and that i can't ever be normal hurts a lot.
my mom has struggled her whole life with autism, yet she still decided to have children so now i'm suffering in the exact same ways as her. it's obvious that my dad and half the people in my family have something wrong with them too.
i would love to know why people decide to have children when they know they're mentally/physcially ill. it's so selfish.

i've tried to get help for my issues but i've been told that "i don't have mental health issues" by my therapist, despite the fact that i've tried to kill myself and self harm regularly. they told me that it was "just autism". i've been told to just put objects into a box and touch them when i feel anxious/depressed too, which just proves how no one knows how to treat autistic people. and have any of you seen the jokes made about it?? most of us already have low self esteem, so seeing jokes being made about the thing that i have to suffer with everyday makes me so angry. does anyone else get treated differently? no wonder so many autistic people kill themselves.

I suffer with autism like you. I remember several years ago I discussed with a teacher at school about what to do when applying for a job and how I didn't want to disclose that I had autism as I felt I would never get a job if I told employers about it, he told me I had to so an employer would know I had 'problems', I was angry after that and left the room.

I struggle with basic communication, panicking and often end up saying something stupid. I've never been in a relationship and doubt I ever will be in one, I don't want to end up as a 40 year old virgin in a few decades time, living with my parents or in some hole of a council house. I've found most people in the world are horrible and think autistic people are less than them, I wish nothing but the worst on neurotypical people who either treat you like some sad charity case or think of you as subhuman. The world doesn't accept autistic people and this is a big part of my reason to ctb, always pushed to the outskirts of society.

I could write another huge paragraph about the f*****g anti-vaxxers believe vaccines cause autism and who would rather their kid die of measles than be autistic(even though vaccines don't cause autism). I'll stop here.

 

[strawberryfield]

I suffer with autism like you. I remember several years ago I discussed with a teacher at school about what to do when applying for a job and how I didn't want to disclose that I had autism as I felt I would never get a job if I told employers about it, he told me I had to so an employer would know I had 'problems', I was angry after that and left the room.

I struggle with basic communication, panicking and often end up saying something stupid. I've never been in a relationship and doubt I ever will be in one, I don't want to end up as a 40 year old virgin in a few decades time, living with my parents or in some hole of a council house. I've found most people in the world are horrible and think autistic people are less than them, I wish nothing but the worst on neurotypical people who either treat you like some sad charity case or think of you as subhuman. The world doesn't accept autistic people and this is a big part of my reason to ctb, always pushed to the outskirts of society.

I could write another huge paragraph about the f*****g anti-vaxxers believe vaccines cause autism and who would rather their kid die of measles than be autistic(even though vaccines don't cause autism). I'll stop here.

this is so relatable. do you find it hard to express yourself or read emotions? i reaaally struggle to do both and it's like being trapped, unable to explain anything.

did you find a job that suits you now?

 

[Baguette]

this is so relatable. do you find it hard to express yourself or read emotions? i reaaally struggle to do both and it's like being trapped, unable to explain anything.

did you find a job that suits you now?

I'm actually at college just now, but I need a part-time job to help pay for resources, money to save for my future etc but no one will hire me because of my autism and I'm reliant on my parents just now unfortunately.
I can read peoples emotions but I do struggle to get out the words to say what i want to say though.

 

[strawberryfield]

I'm actually at college just now, but I need a part-time job to help pay for resources, money to save for my future etc but no one will hire me because of my autism and I'm reliant on my parents just now unfortunately.
I can read peoples emotions but I do struggle to get out the words to say what i want to say though.

i'm so sorry that this is happening to you. i wish neurotypicals treated autistic people better. i hope you're okay though :(

 

[Emily123]

i may have some levels of autism but i never went to a doctor for it or diagnosed . iit's very difficult for me to communicate and i also have panic of going out . i don't know if it's because of autism or i have all these problems because I am also a transgender

 

[Misery99]

I believe that I have autism.I can't function like a normal adult.Scared of outside world constantly panicking.I hide in my room not going anywhere.I don't know how other people to do so well with life.I was a bright student but now I have become a loser because of my fear mindset.

 

[filthyrottendirty]

living with autism is so hard. no friends, no life, i can't even leave the house without panicking anymore. i feel uncomfortable in my own body constantly and knowing that it's a lifelong disability and that i can't ever be normal hurts a lot.
my mom has struggled her whole life with autism, yet she still decided to have children so now i'm suffering in the exact same ways as her. it's obvious that my dad and half the people in my family have something wrong with them too.
i would love to know why people decide to have children when they know they're mentally/physcially ill. it's so selfish.

i've tried to get help for my issues but i've been told that "i don't have mental health issues" by my therapist, despite the fact that i've tried to kill myself and self harm regularly. they told me that it was "just autism". i've been told to just put objects into a box and touch them when i feel anxious/depressed too, which just proves how no one knows how to treat autistic people. and have any of you seen the jokes made about it?? most of us already have low self esteem, so seeing jokes being made about the thing that i have to suffer with everyday makes me so angry. does anyone else get treated differently? no wonder so many autistic people kill themselves.

I suffer with autism like you. I remember several years ago I discussed with a teacher at school about what to do when applying for a job and how I didn't want to disclose that I had autism as I felt I would never get a job if I told employers about it, he told me I had to so an employer would know I had 'problems', I was angry after that and left the room.

I struggle with basic communication, panicking and often end up saying something stupid. I've never been in a relationship and doubt I ever will be in one, I don't want to end up as a 40 year old virgin in a few decades time, living with my parents or in some hole of a council house. I've found most people in the world are horrible and think autistic people are less than them, I wish nothing but the worst on neurotypical people who either treat you like some sad charity case or think of you as subhuman. The world doesn't accept autistic people and this is a big part of my reason to ctb, always pushed to the outskirts of society.

I could write another huge paragraph about the f*****g anti-vaxxers believe vaccines cause autism and who would rather their kid die of measles than be autistic(even though vaccines don't cause autism). I'll stop here.

This.

I hate having autism.

 

[Meliæ]

Me

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes. It has always been painful existing in a world that I am not meant for.