• Hey Guest,

    An update on the OFCOM situation: As you know, censorship around the world has been ramping up at an alarming pace. OFCOM, the UK’s communications regulator, has singled out our community, demanding compliance with their Online Safety Act despite our minimal UK presence. This is a blatant overreach, and they have been sending letters pressuring us to comply with their censorship agenda.

    Our platform is already blocked by many UK ISPs, yet they continue their attempts to stifle free speech. Standing up to this kind of regulatory overreach requires lots of resources to maintain our infrastructure and fight back against these unjust demands. If you value our community and want to support us during this time, we would greatly appreciate any and all donations.

    Read more about the situation here: Click to View Post

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC): 39deg9i6Zp1GdrwyKkqZU6rAbsEspvLBJt
    Ethereum (ETH): 0xd799aF8E2e5cEd14cdb344e6D6A9f18011B79BE9
    Monero (XMR): 49tuJbzxwVPUhhDjzz6H222Kh8baKe6rDEsXgE617DVSDD8UKNaXvKNU8dEVRTAFH9Av8gKkn4jDzVGF25snJgNfUfKKNC8
TiredKitty

TiredKitty

I don't know why I try anymore
Feb 26, 2023
23
I feel the same. Recently, my last bastion in the form of video games has been something I have ceased to enjoy. I have nothing anymore. I tried to hold on, but I just can't force myself to experience joy. There's nothing left.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: JJMaynard97, warriorofeld and nosoul
ChildrensITV

ChildrensITV

Arcanist
Mar 14, 2023
460
Enjoy anything?

I don't even DO anything anymore. Literally, I just wake up, go on my PC and just refresh this site or watch youtube. Maybe a few times per week, I will shower and go to the gym. I make myself a drink and eat. But really, I don't do anything anymore. Even videogames have lost their appeal. I can watch some movies as I am sitting here anyway. I have started driving lessons. That gives me a reason to shower and get dressed. I will get booze at the weekend, I guess. But yes, I am no more productive than my cat.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: JJMaynard97, ImsooDone1N and nosoul
ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
849
I don't enjoy anything at all. Not a single thing. I can't wait to be dead. I live to die. Grateful I at least have a method to kill my pathetic self. i hate a lot of things, but nothing more than myself. I probably think about death every single hour I am awake. Things are getting worse, so much worse than I ever expected. I just want to die. I want to die. I fucking hate my life so much. My birthday comes up soon & I will certainly be dead by then. I have no choice. I have nothing but hatred & disgust for myself & my family. I wish I could go back in Time & kill my family. This way i would not exist. I actually want to hurt them now. This forum is becoming more & more useless each day. I just wanna die. That is it. Fuck everyone- I want nothing but death. I guess I wanna hurt my family? It's their fault I am here. This is so horrible I just need it to stop already, I can't take another min.. and not a single person cares. I don't care about anyone else then. Fuxk just let me die today. That's really all I want. Why couldn't I have chat with one of the several murderers who joined this site. I would love to be murdered. Fuck I have no luck.
 
  • Aww..
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: LoiteringClouds, nosoul, JJMaynard97 and 2 others
D

DarknessAndDespair

Member
Mar 26, 2023
65
This is probably the reality for most of us in this site.
I don't even do anything anymore, I forgot what is a hobbie. My health condition has gotten bad with a new chronic illness for which no med give any relief.
Before this, when my body was healthy, I didn't enjoy anything anyway so, I guess this is the sign signaling I must leave this hell hole sooner rather than later.
My partner thinks I will heal despite months of daily torture, I always hated the human body, is a prison of flesh, a body of errors that is meant to die anyway.
I feel anger towards this society where no assisted dying is available and ostratice individuals who don't want to play the game.

Thanks to this website I could find information and kind souls so at least I can have a good last good memory before my departure.
 
JJMaynard97

JJMaynard97

JJ’s Dead Inside, Time to Say Bye Bye!!
Mar 17, 2023
100
Yep me. I'm struggling too. It's the stuff you used to enjoy you then don't. I just wanna find peace. 😞
 
One day too late

One day too late

Idle mind fills with uneasy thoughts.
Aug 14, 2020
4,245
I too am unable to enjoy life. I've been dealing with depression/loneliness for a long time. I've never love and lost and it be killing me. I can't really watch anything cause everything seems to have love in it and it just aches my heart. My heart also be hurting every time I get lonely (mainly late night.) and my left arm be feeling weak from it sometimes. The only music I can really listen to sad songs. Going out be a drag cause it takes a lot of energy for me to go out, even if it is just to the store. So I'm mostly just stay home in isolation. And if I do manage to get myself out the house and be around people, it takes a lot just to maintain my composure. Now I'm just waiting for my heart to just give out on me so it'll all be over, even though I'm a bit scared. The sad thing is no one will that I die cause of loneliness. They all just think that it's cause I'm not taking care of myself and not getting enough sleep.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: JJMaynard97 and warriorofeld
A

agonysgrin

Member
May 5, 2023
35
My body and mind are failing, I literally can't enjoy anything anymore, music shows, TV, food, can't sleep without meds, but I'm still afraid to ctb but don't know how to hang on, I'm such a huge failure and I'm a bundle of anxiety, now I feel I can't work. Just totally stuck.

I guess these are common attributes to those who wish to ctb?

My anguish is immense, I know I will die early and go senile, but still fearful of ending it but feel its my only option.

Feeling terrified, so so tired and without options.

I want to take the eternal sleep soon especially since I haven't slept in a month.

But all we can do is say sorry to each other about our situations.

I'm so done my mind is making me crazy, meds not helping.
Same I don't even leave my room except the bathroom. I've been on meds since I was 12 and nothing seems to help. I'm scared of I go to a home they'd stop antipsychotics for stroke risk. It's scary getting senile, I basically am already. I don't enjoy life, I have no drive. I can't work and I wish that someone could take my body and use it for something good cuz I know I'll never get better. I hope that helps...sorry I can't tell you I feel otherwise
I've given up all the hobbies I used to enjoy. My TV is always on, but that's only because I live alone and have no one to talk to, so I need the sound, if that makes sense. Even when I watch the TV, I'm really not paying attention to it. Mostly, I just go through the motions of life. I can't think of anything I really enjoy anymore. Actually, anything I have to do is simply a chore. It's all hard.
Same I lay in bed and I just CANNOT get up. The thoughts of the day make me miserable. I usually don't make it out of bed. So why am I here...
 
  • Aww..
Reactions: JJMaynard97
TheBroken

TheBroken

What Really Matters Anymore?
Feb 13, 2022
236
I enjoy and care about nothing. Human shell.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: JJMaynard97

Similar threads

T
Replies
24
Views
389
Suicide Discussion
SomewhatLoved
SomewhatLoved
Lavínia
Replies
0
Views
104
Suicide Discussion
Lavínia
Lavínia
H
Replies
9
Views
296
Suicide Discussion
Forever Sleep
F
W
Replies
7
Views
211
Suicide Discussion
galaxid
galaxid
galaxid
Replies
1
Views
94
Suicide Discussion
galaxid
galaxid