I went to school up until I graduated college almost 2 years ago. I've been a NEET/hiki ever since then. I just don't want to socialize and see no need to. Online interaction is fine but I hate in-person
They're from China. I don't want to find my own place in life. Why should I have to? It's not my fault that I was born. Why should I have to be independent and make my own way in the world? It's not fair; I didn't ask for any of this. Adulthood is just unwanted responsibilities that I never even wanted in the first place. I'm planning to ctb to escape them lol
I am not saying you have to. i'm just saying it's alright being a neet.
It's that way for me as well. I think that even though I don't feel fully human, I still have a superiority complex. I view normies as NPCs who live on autopilot and instinct. Normies never stop to ponder the real questions, like the meaning of life. They're driven solely by survival. They seem to be ignorant, dumb and stupid and don't have minds of their own. They have no critical thinking skills and follow herd mentality. I also feel like I was born into the wrong world. It's like I'm on the wrong planet
Have you considered that they're struggling so much in life that they can't focus on anything other than survival? Put yourself in their shoes. Even people who have their hair all done up, nails done, are wearing fancy clothes, etc may not actually be rich but have to present that way in order to keep their job. Not everyone is smart enough to think philosophically all the time. How do you know what they're thinking? You're projecting your negative feelings onto them when in reality they may be suffering as well but just choose not to show it externally.
Life is a game of and struggle for survival, but normies don't even think philosophically at all. They just live on autopilot and satisfy their primitive needs and desires. They seem to be incapable of higher order thinking and are not intellectual whatsoever. That's why I view them as shallow, fake and materialistic. They only care about "big house, big cars, big rings"
I'm sorry to hear that. Why do you feel like a nuisance? I think I never should have been born either, but it's because I don't like being alive
I feel like a nuisance because I have a tendency to mess everything up, because I have a combination of autism and BPD, and also possibly some other disorders.
It's basically what people tell me.
I've never felt degenerate or subhuman, just different
Literally. They want me to fit the mold and conform to their (societal) standards and expectations, but I DON'T WANT TO. Why should I have to be like everyone else? Why should I have to do what everyone else does? Why should I have to meet other people's expectations? I hate how society pressures everyone to conform. They also won't let me leave this world as euthanasia is illegal, so I'm basically forced to live against my will
I think you're one of the most human, because you're nice. It's perfectly okay not to want love/romance/relationships/partners/kids etc!
You too, I feel like you're the most human by my definition.
Willful defiance in the face of immovable forces is also a very human trait. Just because you aren't an obedient human doesn't mean you aren't one. Not enjoying work is so typical that we had to design systems to incentivize people for it. These incentives don't work on everyone of course. Many human innovations were started by some people saying they didn't want to do things the way they were meant to be done.
I've never felt like a degenerate subhuman. I just feel different from people. I've never felt any lesser than them. If anything, I even feel above them. It's probably the Asperger's. I don't want what most people want in life. It doesn't appeal to me
I hate being human too. I wish I could've been a cat. I also find it hard to relate to what most others seem to consider universal experiences. How did you know that it was due to trauma for you?
Why do you try to segregate people like this? Have you talked to people in real life? Normal people do have some level of philosophical thinking. Your line of thinking is so arrogant and self-absorbed it's a huge turnoff. You don't seem to be able to put yourself in anyone else's shoes. You think you're better than everyone else with how you speak [which fits your contrarian personality]. It comes off as fake. I can't stand fake people cuz I used to be one and hated who I was because of it. If you look at how you act, your words echo back at you. If you continue to destroy the parts of you that are real, all that will be left is a black hole...
This world is not for ANY of us. We all have to fight to fit in. If we choose not to fit in, we can find or make a lifestyle path that works for us. We can also choose not to accept any of it and die instead. People recognise that suicide does a lot of trauma to multiple people: 1. you 2. family/friends/lovers 3. the people that discover your body 4. the people that clean up the mess your body made 5. the people that have to observe your body 6. the people that have to deal with your funeral if you have one. Suicide is not a one-party ordeal. You end up traumatizing several parties. People may have their own selfish reasons for not wanting you to die but at the end of the day, their selfishness for not wanting to feel the pain of you gone, it does hurt more than just your family. It's not even a philosophical question: your suicide harms more than helps. Not trying to deter you from suicide btw. I'm just stating the facts that I've had to think about when considering CTB.
It's up to you to decide whether to quit the game or forge a path of your own to find a piece of the world to fit in. It's easier to give up than to change, that's for sure. Spent over a decade fighting to stop being so negative towards others. So much easier to just be mean and angry. Took lot of fighting to change.
