Discussion Does anyone else look at gore videos/crime scene photos? And why do you do it?

[sunbear1414]

I look at gore videos and pictures cause originally when I started it would give me a bit of adrenaline as well as seeing blood, so it was a similar feeling to self harm and then over time I just got desensitised to it and had to keep upping the level of gore I looked at to feel something. Now I'm not really sure why I look at that stuff anymore…

It also helps convince me not to ctb, by watching videos of people ctb via different methods I can see how my suicide would look if I chose that method

Anyone else relate?

 

[f'dmylife]

I watch them because I have no interest in other things in life. Same reason I watch porn. If I could find any interest in ANYTHING else I definitely would. I guess I watch it to help me get to the point where i can ctb. Desensitize enough and it should be easier.

 

[Merith]

Is there a good reason not to? It's not like all of them are fake or anything, so pretending that these cases don't happen would be detrimental if I'm ever in a case like those posted. It's nothing more than a news site, really. Also, desensitisation helps in real-life situations where a person is in danger and blood is involved. Finally, they're just interesting.

 

[YukiFox]

I used to watch videos and photos in gore sites too for convincing myself that it doesn't worth to take my life, specially I searched for hanging videos and photos. Also I found a community that made 3d rendering with hanging scenes that traumatized me a lot because I don't know why people get aroused for that. So I try to avoid that today for respect for the deceased, since I don't want to get exposed too in the future if I kill myself.
If you want to discuss more deeply, I'm available in private. Hugs.

 

[SpottedPanda]

When I was younger I used to look at gore sites, out of morbid curiosity. These days I'm a bit more weather worn and fragile. Things like that give me the chills. I don't even watch intense action movies

 

[ugly_loser2008]

yeah specially hanging as that is my method. i picture myself in the picture. does make me think bout putting a trash bag over my head so i cant be seen.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I used to alot more then I do now. But my reasoning was the opposite of what most are saying here. I didn't do it to convince myself not to CTB. I did it to make myself cold to my own death and lower my survival instinct.

 

[oneanonymous]

I think for most people, it's just a morbid ccuriosity. Not too abnormal, really.

 

[lostangel]

I watch them because I'm bored or for educational purposes like watching someone hang themselves in a live stream.

 

[Broken Chimera]

It was morbid curiosity for me. I watched for a few years then I couldn't stomach it anymore. It desensitizes you a lot and makes you uncaring to suffering. A positive for me is it made me realize that if there's a benevolent god out there, he doesn't care about us. You can't see that and believe in a loving God that cares about us.

 

[DownInaHole]

From tub girl to seeing someone hacked limb by limb while alive... I like to see how bad humanity can get.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I did take a look… Was really disgusting and scary. Actually far more disgusting than I could've ever imagined. I find in the state of mind it's very difficult to read or watch movies or experience anything that is not morbid Or tragic. In fact as I see people going about their lives around me busy with work, laughing and enjoying each other's company, I feel like an alien. So to answer the question, I did take a look at the sites because it's hard to occupy myself with anything that's a lot more cheerful.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Someone should call the police on these sites. Lord have mercy

 

[Circles]

Someone should call the police on these sites. Lord have mercy

I mean I can get why one can feel disgusted by it but don't you think that's a bit extreme? Modern humans have become so far removed from death and desensitized it's like we want to sweep it under a rug and act like it's doesn't exist as much as we can until we're finally confronted by it. Death shouldn't be censored especially if grown adults know what they're getting themselves into. It reminds of the Bestgore site owner who got arrested for posting a controversial video of a murder one time and even though that site was full of racist sick fucks the site showed me how vulnerable we are all and taught me to appreciate life a little bit even though I fucking hate it still.